As we both slept my cock harden completely and while Elsie groaned in discomfort I equally groaned in rapture dreaming of all the succulent foreign female bodies I would be plundering in the future.
On the Wednesday following the party the boys went off to school while Elsie & I got stuck into some outstanding business in the office. While she was on the phone I suddenly remembered I promised to meet with Alec for dinner that night, cautiously I considered finding a way to tell Elsie on my intent to be absent. Glancing in her direction I was suddenly smitten at how beautiful she looked, she sat at the desk across from me with the phone cradled on her shoulder talking animatedly with the person on the other end of the line. While she chatted she was filing her nails and I watched transfixed as I saw her long delicate fingers working on each other.
She had turned the chair away from the desk and was sitting in side profile to my line of sight, she had her right leg crossed up and over her left allowing the shoe on her right foot to slowly sway on the end of her toe. My stare started at the swinging shoe and slowly my gaze ran up her black stocking clad leg, over her cute little knees, to the slit in her skirt that had fallen away showing a generous amount of silk clad thigh. Where the split in her skit ended I could just make out a faint glimpse of her white panties as they lay scrunched between her closed thighs.
As I stared I could not help but feel an erection start to tent the front of my pants. I shifted slightly in my chair and maneuvered my cock to allow it to grow hard and wanting in my pants. Suddenly I had visions of crossing the office, grabbing her off her seat, throwing her on the desk, binding her hands with the telephone cord, ripping off her panties and fucking her hard.
I must have groaned or made another similar noise because she suddenly looked up at me with a questioning look in her eyes. Before I could stop myself I looked intently into her eyes and mouth the words.
"I want to fuck you right now."
Needless to say poor Elsie was shocked and this reaction was obvious by the look she gave me, it was part disbelief, part curious, and part fear. God! Why did I say that? I had never done something so blasé and crude in the 15 years we had been together. We have always had a reasonably strict professional relationship when we are working together (sure there were times when we took "time out" but those were some of the benefits of owning your own business and working form home).
Quickly I rationalized how to get out of this situation and cover my secret intent to fuck her roughly right there on her office desk. However those images overrode my common sense and while she continued to stare wide eyed in my direction I stood up and purposefully strode out from behind my desk approaching her.
If it was possible her eyes opened wider and with her mouth agape she started to shake her head indicating 'No', pointing frantically towards the phone telling me wordlessly that the client was still on the other end of the phone. Heck! I knew that, that is what made this exciting.
I stood in front of her only about two feet away and slowly unzipped my trousers releasing the binding constriction of my pants on my blood engorged and heated prick. I dug it out of my pants and I held it in my right hand pointing it right at her face. She implored me silently to stop while she stammered into the phone,
"Uh.....uh....yeah......um.....Chloe can I call you back in a moment...something urgent has just been brought to my attention"
I sniggered when she said that, she continued to try and end the call as politely as possible.
"Yeah...I'm really sorry.....look I will call you back just as soon as I can......I'm really sorry....I have to go"
Then hurriedly she put the phone down some what forcefully in its cradle and whirled back towards me saying,
"What the hell? What has got into you?.....Wha....."
Before she could finish I swiftly grabbed her head and inserted my raging hard on into her beautiful gaping mouth as I let out a long guttural grunt feeling my cock slide sensuously over her tongue and thrust violently towards the entrance of her throat.
If Elsie was shocked before then nothing compared to her reaction now and she coughed and spluttered at the unprepared invasion of her mouth. Immediately both of her hands came forward and tried to push me away while she mumbled and gurgled trying to say something with my cock half embedded in her mouth.
Christ! This was heaven, visions of Sonya slobbering and mewling on my cock raced back into the forefront of my mind and in a lustful frenzy I knocked her hands away while also grabbing her silky hair in both hands and jammed her face against my abdomen.
Elsie screamed around my cock and I knew she was trying to tell to stop; her hands and arms were flailing around while she tried to push herself back with her legs making the chair roll away from me.
The unexpected movement of the chair caught me off guard and she succeeded in backing away enough for my cock to leave her mouth. Her face was red and flushed with strings of saliva hanging from her lips and chin. Meanwhile my cock continued to point forward wet and shining from being in her mouth.
She stammered and spluttered and I could see she didn't know what to say, so I took advantage of her confusion and blurted out,
"God I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me. You looked so sexy sitting there on the phone in your high heels and stockings......I just....I just had this overwhelmingly desire to.....to......take you.....I'm sorry" (At least I was being honest now).
Tearfully she raised her face and looking at me replied.
"Christ Tom what has got into you lately? Ever since we have got back from the farm you have been moping around like a kid who's lost his toy and now out of the blue you.....you force yourself on me while I am on the phone to a client. What the fuck do you think you were doing?"
Embarrassed I didn't know what to say so I just stood there looking like a complete fool and clambering for words with my quickly wilting cock sticking out of my pants.
Needless to say I kissed any chance goodbye of consummating the fantasy that had been burning in my mind only a few minutes prior. I was about to suggest that I go and get some fresh air when Elsie said.
"Look, maybe you need a break from things; it's been 6 months since our holiday which we always have. Maybe you are more stressed out that you thought. Why don't you go and have some "alone time," relax, read a book, sleep in. I can keep things going here then when you get back in say a week or two we can talk and see if it is something deeper."
I realized she was giving me the perfect alibi to go to dinner and maybe hang out with Alec without me needing to let on that something far more sinister was amiss. I reasoned that maybe I should get it out of my system, run riot for a week or two with Alec and quench my thirst so to speak - I did not even consider that I might actually get obsessed plunging myself further into the abyss I was frantically drowning in.
So I simply let my shoulders slump, played on the circumstances, and replied that maybe she was right. I said something about packing a bag and I that I knew just the sort of place where I could go and take time out - Christ I felt like a little kid being told off and then being sent to his room.
I mumbled a "thanks for understanding," apologized again then ambled off to our room to pack some clothes and toiletries. Glancing at Elsie as I left the room I saw a pathetic look of sorrow and fear on her face, the fact that she didn't argue told me she would be relieved to see me go sooner rather than later.
Everything that happened that day was so strange. Under different circumstances we would have held each other and talked our way through resolving such a problem but somehow Elsie had changed too and uncharacteristically she pushed me away rather than helping me through my problem. We had always been strong for each other in the past so I had an odd sense of apprehension and relief about what I was about to do.
Elsie came into our bedroom while I packed and sat on the bed fidgeting. She told me she would tell the boys that I had to go away on business and that we were unsure when I would be back. She did however make me promise to call at nights so least the boys could talk to me and then they wouldn't get fretful that something was 'really' wrong. I agreed and finishing gathering my things.
She asked where I was going and I said knew a mate who lived out in the country who wouldn't mind if I stopped by for the night to catch up. However I would call when I was at a more long term lodgings and let her know where I was. She was ok with this and surprisingly did not ask who my 'mate in the country' was.
As I went to leave I hesitated at the door, turning I offered another meek apology for what had happened. Elsie suddenly jumped up and threw her arms around me sobbing into my shoulder.
"Oh god Tom I don't want you to think I am throwing you out, I'm not. Please I just think you need to get away and get rid of what ever it is inside you that has been eating at you these last couple of weeks."
Then holding me lovingly she turned her tear stained face upwards looking me in the eye and said with absolute sincerity.
"Tom Ryan I love you with all my soul and being and I could never be happy without you. I have to tell you whatever happens I will always love you, do you hear me? Always, I will always love you - we'll get through this so take all the time you need."
Then she said something strange - maybe we should have talked straight away, that is one fork in my life I will always wonder 'what if'?
"When you get back we'll have a real heart to heart, you know like we used to. No more secrets alright? Anything goes as long as we know we will always love each other no matter what."
I couldn't help but think she was saying this to reassure herself as much as me - did she have a secret too? Nah that was wishful thinking, after all what could she have possibly done that would compare with my adulterous & sinful actions in the last week?
