Wordlessly, I step back. Elizabeth breezes past me and tours around the room. I close the door.
Her demeanor is so relaxed and casual. It's hard to see her as a dominant persona that commands all these people I've met. It's more that her easy manner makes me want to please her. To give her whatever she asks to make her happy. It seems her real talent is in how easily she can hypnotize and enthrall me. With her melodic voice. Orgasmic laugh. Her beguiling charm. Her angelic looks.
"This morning went about how I figured it would," she says, turning to me. "I didn't think you'd just jump into this without any resistance. It wouldn't be so easy. But I have faith in you. And in what we can do." She sits on the edge of the bed. She falls silent and looks at me.
I take a breath. I try to fight the feeling in the back of my mind that I'm simply elated to have her full attention. "I still don't understand why," I say to her.
"Why?"
"Why me? You said I wasn't scouted. Why did you pick me for this?" I can feel my heart rate go up. I know that I need to be sure of the answer in order to go forward.
"Is it because I'm not a very masculine man?" I ask, gesturing down at myself. I feel myself getting worked up. "I'm not big or macho. So I'd make a good woman? I don't necessarily feel flattered."
She tilts her head to the side. "You think we couldn't find another guy with a slim physique before you?"
I pause.
"That's easy, you know. Easier than you probably think. It's more than that." She shakes her head. "Much more.
"You're right-- you weren't scouted. Our meeting was merely happenstance. But I realized quickly that it was a blessing." She takes a big breath, nodding her head. "You just fell right into my lap."
"So then why didn't you just ask me, straight up?" I inquire. "Why the charade of going on dates? The drugs?"
"Would you have said yes if I just put it all out there?"
I open my mouth and close it again. She flashes an eyebrow upward. "I didn't want you to reject the idea outright. Also ..." She strokes her cheek with her index finger as she looks off in thought. "I suppose I had a moment of impatience. I can't tell you how long we've been searching for a candidate for this transition. I knew we struck gold with you. And I didn't want to hold off any longer.
"Do you know why I agreed to dinner with you?"
I shake my head.
"That first night, you didn't try to make a move. Didn't try to sidle up on me. Or grab my hand. Or vie for sex. You asked me out on a date. You opened yourself up. You were vulnerable and honest." She shakes her head, and pauses. I try to let her words sink in.
"I wouldn't normally have said yes. But your manner intrigued me. I haven't had an encounter-- a
truly
genuine encounter with a man like that in a long time.
"And then on the date, you were so considerate and kind. You didn't even go in for a kiss! I was waiting and couldn't believe it. Then ... I was compelled to make the move.
That
was genuine too."
She pauses to run her hand through her hair. I watch the elegant locks falling in perfect waves. Her hand lingers on her neck. What a graceful, slender neck she has. "Yes, your frame is an ideal foundation for us to build off of. But it's you on the inside that makes you perfect for this.
"You have empathy. You ask questions. And you actually listen to the answers!" she continues. "You play up your awkwardness, but you deploy it in a way that's disarming. You can put people at ease. And then you're able to display humor and thoughtfulness and charm.
"You don't give yourself enough credit," she adds as she glides the back of her fingers across the bottom of her chin.
"Yes, we'll make some changes on the outside. But you'll still be you at the core," she says. "That's what's most valuable to me. Your sensitivity. Your emotional maturity. You don't embody any macho aggressiveness. But you aren't a total pushover. There's a delicate balance we're seeking. And you have that."
"And what about all that with Lily?" I ask.
"What? Last night?" She tilts her head quizzically. Jesus, was that just last night?
"Well," she says, "we needed to establish some sort of baseline. If your performance was bad, well then we would've had to rethink things."
"Was I bad?"
"Did
you
think that was bad?" she asks.
"It felt unreal," I admit, "I just wasn't sure if she ..."
"If Lily had a good time?" She laughs. "This is what I'm talking about. Even with everything you've been put through, you're still considering
her
feelings. You're going to be
so good
at this."
She stands up from the bed and walks towards me. "You don't need to fight this. Or fight me. It's okay to want this," she says.
We're standing very close now. Her smell is so alluring! I have a good angle to view down her cleavage. I look back at her eyes, and she knows where I was peering. She seems to know everything.
"I think the thing holding you back is your masculine pride." She quiets her voice slightly. "This ego. This assumed need to be a
real man
. Whatever the hell that means.
"I think you need to let that go. Don't let something so pointless, so
fragile
stop you. You could be so much more than that. You could be extremely happy with this." She puts her hand on my chest.
Okay, it's true. My mind went to the negatives. The insanity, the impossibility. Could I consider another way of being? Outside of what has been expected of me? Am I clinging to something that is holding me back? What if she could pull it off?
"You're obviously attracted to women. You find the female form beautiful, yes? You never wondered if it'd be better to be a woman? What it would be like?
"I can help you find out. And ... you could have it all, so to speak." She reaches up and pushes the robe off my shoulders, causing it to drop onto the rug. "A beautiful body. With nice, soft tits. A great ass."
I find my thoughts fading away. I focus only on her closeness. She runs her index finger down my chest. "And a big, hard cock!"
She swirls her finger where my pubic hair used to be. My cock tingles and awakens. She continues down along my shaft, and lightly strokes the head of my dick. I take a sharp inhale of air. I go fully erect.
She leans into my ear. "I want you for this. I want you to want this ...
I want you with me.
"
Her voice is like a siren's call. It's irresistible. Her words. Like a perfect incantation to put me under her control.
She wants me.
I let out a long sigh. She curls her fingers gently around the head of my cock. She runs her thumb along the ridge of the head. The feeling rockets euphoria through me. My cock pulses from her touch. Craving and desire fill my body.
"Don't you want that too?" she asks breathily. I nod.
"I want you in 100%. I told you I'd take care of you," she coos. "You believe me, don't you?"
"Y-- yes," I croak.
I want to touch her! I start to lift my hands, but she shakes her head. "Mm mmm".
I balk and lower my hands to my sides. She moves her hand to cup my balls. The newly smooth skin seems extra sensitive. A loud gasp escapes my lips. Her embrace is heavenly. She kneads them soothingly. "You'll trust me absolutely?" she murmurs.
"Yes."
"Yes,
what?
" she whispers more fiercely. As she does, she squeezes my balls.
The sudden pressure forces me to cry out. "Yes, Mistress!"
Forget what I said about not seeing her authoritative side. The abrupt forcefulness immediately cows me. She chuckles. Her hand glides back to my shaft and tugs. I move forward a bit in response. She walks backwards towards the bathroom, guiding me by my cock. She grins. Her heels clack on the tiled floor.
She positions me in front of the leaning mirror and shifts behind me. Over my shoulder, she rests her chin. "Look."
I gaze at my naked reflection. Her gorgeous face next to mine. One arm wraps around my chest. Her other hand continues to grip my erection.
"Look how beautiful." She smiles.
She begins stroking. I let out a soft moan. She knows exactly how to touch me. How much pressure to apply. How fast to stroke. And when to change it up. I'm putty in her hands.
I try to squirm, but she has me locked in her embrace. She expertly has me in her control. And she knows it. "Mmmmmm," she purrs.
She drives her tongue into my ear. Her fingers claw at my chest. My knees start to buckle. I reach out to grab the wall and sink for stability. I feel drunk from her sexuality.
"Yeah," she breathes into my ear, "that's it. You can let go. Let it all go."
I want to satisfy her so badly. Her attentiveness towards me is like a drug. It fills me with purpose. Just the idea of her clutching my cock is the stuff of my fantasies. I can't believe this is really happening!
Her stroking intensifies. My breathing accelerates. She squeezes hard. I throw my head back. She uses her free hand to force my head back down.