I sat on the bus not noticing anything. My head was full of Becky having sex with Jim just before I did. Then when I kissed and sucked him. It was just like I had kissed and sucked Becky's.... I couldn't even be bothered to shoot the dirty old bus driver a disgusting glance. He always ogled me and all the other girls as we got on or off the bus.
Della was full of herself. She told me how she had managed sex with Zack. She said it hurt but not as much as she feared, even though he had been a little rougher than he should have been. I looked over my shoulder at him. He just mouthed the words 'Blowjob Becky' at me. My heart sunk for the second time today, Wednesday.
I knew why he had picked today; Della had to go to the dentist just before lunch and was planning to skive off the rest of the school day. I walked down the stairs at lunchtime. I didn't even bother with the boys hanging around at the bottom, waiting to look up all the miniskirts that came down.
"Pink ones today then Becky?"
I ignored his whispered comment like all the girls did every day, for an 18 year old he was very immature. We hoped he would get tired one day, but the fat ginger haired boy had his usual group of mates to impress. I knew Zack was 20 yards or so behind me. He wasn't stupid, just far enough so nobody would suspect anything. I had this almost clinical approach as to what was going to happen. It was only now as my trembling hand reached for the door handle, that I was feeling scared and alone. This had already been a shit day; I had tried to tell Sean that I didn't want him to ask me out again. I think he sort of got the message, as he stormed off.
I turned round to face Zack as I heard the door close.
"I'm not sitting on the dirty floor," I spat, recovering some of my composure.
He gave me a sly grin and put his blazer down.
"This is the last time Zack," I hissed, as I undid my blouse.
I pulled my bra up over my tits. He watched and then slowly came towards me. I just stood with a stone faced expression as he pawed at my naked breasts. He bent his head towards me, and I backed away.
"Don't try and kiss me, just take what you came here for."
I sat on his blazer and he moved towards me. He was already hard and had started undoing his zip.
"You want it bitch?" he sneered.
"No of course I fucking well don't!" I spat back.
He grinned and shoved himself into my mouth. I sat there gagging with my mouth hanging open. He grabbed my ponytail and began thrusting my head back and forth over his cock. I just kept my mouth open letting it hang limp. I didn't want to show him any sign of encouragement this time. I wanted him to think he would have been better off having a wank. It didn't work. He pushed harder and I gagged again. This time I had to respond, he was now in my throat, and I could hear my strangled gurgling noises above his excited grunts. I took his cock in my hand and began sucking. I had to get this over with now.
"Ah see Blowjob Becky loves it really," he grunted with joy.
He honestly thought I couldn't resist him! I held his cock to stop him making me gag so much. That's when I saw the face at the window looking on in disbelief. Zack was too far gone to notice a rocket crashing through the shed roof! But there he was watching me with his mouth hanging open. He would have burst in by now if he was going to save me. I couldn't have that not this time. We just looked straight at each other through the dirty window. I pulled off of Zack's hard cock and smiled up at him. He just looked down with another disbelieving expression. I plunged my mouth over his cock gagging as I took him too far into my throat. I rolled my head exaggerating my movements on Zack's cock. I even groaned loud enough so Sean would hear. If he didn't believe his eyes he would have to believe his ears. He would see me sucking on my best friend's boyfriend's cock, which I would appear to be doing willingly! I suppose this was harsh on Sean. But at least I wouldn't have to worry about him pestering me for dates. Find a way to dump him Becky said. Besides I was a married woman, but then why was I sucking this awful boy's cock? Because I had too! I choked and gagged as Zack's 18 year old cock exploded into my mouth. I just clamped my lips around his cock, but it still didn't stop his spunk oozing out the side of my 23 year old mouth. I took a last look at Sean. He had seen enough and moved away from the window. Zack's cum dribbling out of my mouth was probably more than he could stomach! But now he was gone I could let the tears flow, once again I had turned myself into a slut. And once again I had forgotten to make Zack wear a bloody condom!
I couldn't look at Sean after that. It was nearly a week before we were alone in the corridor. We walked towards each other and he blocked my path. I put my head down and pulled my crossed arms tighter to my chest. I went to move round him. He just stepped in my way. I looked up into his eyes. I knew the look I was going to get. I could feel it burning the back of my neck for the last week.
"Go on then say what you want to say."
He didn't respond. I went to go past him again. This time he grabbed my arm and forced me to look into his eyes.
"Why the fuck did you do that you fucking slut!"
My eyes shot round the empty corridor.
"Don't worry we're alone, and I haven't told Della although I can't think why," he spat in my ear.
"You wouldn't understand, you're just a stupid boy," I mumbled.
"Oh so you are all grown up now, we are both 18, but you suddenly think you are a woman?" he asked, with a disbelieving hiss.
"Let me go," I snapped, feeling the tears roll down my cheek.
"Don't worry Becky Norris. To think I wanted to go out with the school slut!"
He ripped my bag off my shoulder and threw it down the corridor. My books scattered everywhere and I just shrivelled against the wall.
"SLUT!" He yelled at the top of his voice.
It wasn't long before a couple of teachers appeared demanding to know what was going on.
"FUCK OFF!" Sean yelled viciously.
I began gathering all my books together sobbing to myself. I could still hear Sean yelling at me calling me a whore and slut from down the corridor. Two of the male teachers ran past me to try and catch up with him, but he was long gone. I could feel the tears stinging my eyes, I could barley see out of them. I heard a soft soothing voice I looked at the arm that went round my shoulder, and followed it up into her eyes, pleading for help with mine.
"Oh Becky," Miss Newark whispered, as I clung to her.
She pulled me up and told Della to pick up my bag and things. She hurried me down the corridor hissing at pupils to get back into their classrooms. She took me into the staffroom and tried to calm me down. I just clung to her for the next few minutes. My life had turned to shit and I was the one responsible!
"Fucking hell Carol!" Becky shouted, as we drove out of the school.
I heard her and Jim discussing me in hushed tones downstairs that night. It was a week before I pulled myself together enough to return to school. This was my decision in the end. Both Becky and Jim seemed to think we should stop, although the looks I got from both of them suggested I had failed yet again. But it was Della who finally made up my mind. She had phoned and asked to see me nearly every day. Sean was getting agro from the teachers, and was on the verge of being expelled! I mean how could they do that? He had done nothing wrong. I pleaded his case to Miss Newark, she listened but still wasn't happy about defending Sean. I told her that he had caught me kissing another boy. I don't think she believed me but she stopped asking questions.
So the next two weeks past and I went into a shell. Sean just snubbed me and to be honest I felt sorry for him. But my mind gradually got onto the bigger picture. And I managed a smile at Della the next week when she told me she had dumped Zack.