It was a normal, mind numbing day at work. The conclusion to a normal mind numbing week. Just another part of my normal mind numbing year. I said my goodbyes, wishing everyone a pleasant weekend knowing that mine would be just as boring as the last one. The sound of my heels clicking across the empty car garage echoed and multiplied until I felt I filled the space with the painful noise that so represented my shitty administrative job. My back ached from hours sitting in a small swivel chair, my purse felt heavy as I dug around for my keys and my thoughts were languid as I contemplated the drive home. I pressed the little button on my keys, watched the lights flash a friendly advertisement that it was cheerfully ready to accept me now.
But as I reached for the handle I felt another person behind me, I thought I could hear the rustling of a coat or scuffing of combat boots. But I truly noticed the vanilla pipe smoke scent as this stranger pushed himself onto me. He pinned me against my car, pressed his whole body across my back rounding me over the side of my car. I dropped my keys, I dropped my purse. My body fell into the shape of his. He grabbed my wrists and placed my hands against the glass and kicked my feet wide. "Stay."
His voice was firm, confident, and familiar. Just from his smell I knew I was safe, but his voice finally jogged my shell shocked memory. Weeks and weeks ago, this had been planned. This had been negotiated. In a brightly lit room with friends nearby and good food and good drinks; I had plotted my own rape. It had been long enough that I wasn't expecting it, long enough that I just figured it would never happen. That my fetish would never escape the club.
With my hands pressed firmly against the cool plastic coated window my mind raced. I exhilarated in this completely alien experience. I let the excitement wash over me. I felt my flesh bubble and flush. My breath seemed to come in gasps, wracking my body with shakes that shuddered against the familiar stranger pressing into me.
His hands wandered over my body bunching up my work clothes. He reached down between my legs and rubbed my thighs, some inane part of my brain just knew that he was ruining these tights and that I'd have to buy new ones. He pulled up my skirt, roughly crumpling it around my waist. He slid one hand over my mouth as he slid the other down my stomach underneath my underwear and farther still. His hands were large and rough. With a firmness that was exciting and disconcerting he wrenched my head backward draping it over his shoulder as he pushed two fingers into me. My whole body lit up. I felt a gush of moisture and spreading heat as I rose off my heels. A small part of my mind could feel his breath on my neck, the sand paper texture of his hand on my face, the strange jab of buttons in my back.