For Jack, who helped me start writing again.
Note: "Inuchan" is pronounced with long vowels, as in "ee-noo-chaahn."
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He put her in a cage, the metal door clanging shut with ringing finality. It was a large cage but not quite large enough for her to stand or stretch out; she had to crouch, sit, or curl up. Her heart thudded in her chest. What was she doing here? What had she agreed to? What would happen now? She pressed herself against the side of the cage, really an oversized wire crate meant for a big dog, one hand squeezing between the bars to clutch at the trailing ends of his unbuttoned shirt.
"Please," she whispered, without knowing for what she pled.
He kicked the cage, hard. Metal rattled against metal, sending vibrations through her body as she snatched her hand back and cowered into the corner. She understood: she was not to speak. Drawing her knees up to her chest, she bent her head and cried.
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He left her alone. The dimly lit room afforded nothing in the way of distraction, and she spent most of the time staring miserably at the bare walls. A doorless opening into the next room was the only thing that broke up the unending greyness all around her. Nothing could be seen through the doorway from where she was caged, save the end of a dark blue couch.
By the time he returned to let her out, she was shivering from lying on the metal tray that was the bottom of the cage. A shallow ceramic dish was set down a few feet away on the bare concrete floor. Her cramped limbs refused to behave at first and her arms buckled when she tried to crawl out; as she fell, the shoulder of her t-shirt snagged on the side of the door and ripped. Tears sprang to her eyes.
She sat down heavily, half in, half out of her prison, and looked up at him. He gestured impatiently towards the bowl which, when she looked more carefully at it, appeared to hold a few spoonfuls of something that resembled oatmeal. She hated oatmeal. Still, she dared not refuse what was obviously an order; she didn't know what he'd do if angered. Forcing her disobedient limbs into motion, she wondered again what had made her agree to this.
"You're sure you want to do it?" he had asked, and she, with an eagerness borne of naivetΓ©, had nodded. He had been persistent in his warning, asking again and again if she was sure, if she understood what she would be agreeing to, if she knew that he wasn't playing games, if she realized that saying yes now meant saying yes to everything.
Everything.
"I'm a big girl," she'd said, shrugging as if to excuse the blush that flooded her face. "I know what I want." How sure she'd been, sure with the absolute confidence that only a newly minted 21-year-old can muster.
Now, in the half-finished basement of a man she had known for barely a month, crouched over a bowl of lumpy oatmeal, she was no longer so sure. The sight of the unappetizing mush made her hesitate; part of her wanted to tell him she did not want to eat it, but before she could think of a way to do so without speaking, she felt his hand on the back of her neck. She froze. He pushed her down, a movement no less an order for its gentleness. Hot tears, borne of fear and embarrassment, flooded her eyes and dripped into the bowl. She felt rather than tasted the saltiness on her tongue as she bent to the task, his hand a burning heaviness on her nape. Fingers slipped under the collar of her t-shirt and she shivered nervously at the cold touch of something metal.
Snip.
Scissors, he had scissors, and he was cutting her clothes off. The realization made her tremble, a quivering vibration of muscles that started in her arms and threaded its way down her back to her legs. At the same time, a creeping dread added weight to her limbs until they felt nailed to the floor. The smell and texture of the thick porridge nauseated her but she kept choking it down, hating the way the gluey paste stuck to her lips and chin.
Snip.
Pieces of cotton that used to be a white t-shirt dropped softly onto the floor. She shivered. Gulping down the last mouthful of food, she tensed when the scissors blade slipped under the waistband of her jeans. They sheared through the thick denim easily, and he slowly cut his way down the back of one leg, then the other, until the material slid off her body, leaving her in bra and panties.
He pushed the cut pieces under her face, knocking the bowl away. It scraped noisily across the floor and she flinched, fighting the urge to get up, the pressure of his hand reminding her to stay where she was. The hand moved to the back of her head and pressed down; she was not expecting it and did not think to resist, even as he roughly rubbed her face in the denim to clean off the dried oatmeal.
Her heart raced. What now? Was he going to fuck her? An image flashed into her head, an image of him mounting her from behind like a beast in rut, forcing his cock into one of her tight holes as she howled, in pain or pleasure she could not tell. He'd often whispered about such things to her during sex, describing the scenes in detail until she plunged into yet another screaming orgasm. The image lasted only a second but it was enough to send a coil of heat through her body and to make her blush. When he let her back up, tugging on her hair until she was kneeling with her body upright, she kept her face down so that he would not see how red her cheeks were.
She flinched when he brushed his hand over her face and he chuckled, apparently amused by her reaction. His fingers trailed over her pink cheeks, then up the side of her face to push the tangle of auburn hair aside, over her back. He showed her a collar, a simple one made of brown leather with a silver buckle, adorned with only two D-rings on opposite sides. It went around her exposed neck, and she could not repress the shudder that erupted through her at the sensation of the soft, obviously worn, leather sliding over her skin.
"That's enough for now," he said after he had buckled it, his voice low. She started at his words; it was the first time he had spoken since she'd been brought down there. He'd never been much of a talker, saving most of his words for when they were in bed, for when he held her down and called her his slut bitch. Blinking, she tilted her head up to look at him, and saw him glance towards the open door of the cage. He nodded towards it. "Get in." Crawling hurriedly into her metal prison, she cursed the hardness of the floor. He latched the door closed and hunkered down to look at her huddled in the back, both arms wrapped about herself. "I'll be back in a couple of hours."
She nodded even though she knew he didn't need an answer from her, silent as he gathered up the pieces of her shredded clothing and the empty bowl. She wanted to ask for some water but didn't know how. How was she to communicate with him? Did he really mean for her to make noises like an animal? Hugging her knees closer, she licked her dry lips and watched him walk from the room.
Two hours felt like twenty. There was no way to get comfortable, with thin bars for walls and a metal tray for a floor, and after a while she gave up trying. The room wasn't cold but she felt chilled, sitting on a piece of stainless steel that clanged alarmingly whenever she shifted positions. It was hard not to give in to tears and, after a while, it was harder not to give in to the urge to scream and wail and beg to be released. A small metal tag dangled against the side opposite the door; desperate for anything to take her mind off her ordeal, she stumbled closer for a look. All it said was "Midwest Model 1048." She sniffled, threading her fingers through the criss-cross of wires, clutching helplessly until her hands ached.
Finally, the opening and closing of an unseen door told her he was back. She bolted upright before he even entered the room, her heart racing with anticipation. Then, suddenly ashamed of her impatience to see him, she wedged herself into the back corner of the cage.