Debra and I spent the next few months trying to sort out our feelings about what happened to us. The thing we couldn't suppress was the hot sex we were having now. I know, what a problem to have, right? But the thing was, we were fantasizing about what had happened, and we couldn't come to grips with the fact that we were violated. I kept imagining all the things that I witnessed Deb going through on that fateful day, when I could do nothing to protect her. Why did watching her orgasm with another man turn me on? I began to research the issue and found that many men were turned on by watching their women with other men. I just never thought I would be one of them.
For Deb, it was different. She finally admitted that being restrained and forced to do the things that happened, was somehow freeing to her. That she could let her body just react without thinking about it, because there was nothing she could do about the way her body responded. She also admitted that it was a turn on for her that I was watching and being turned on by what was happening to her.
Several months went by and we began to come to terms with the fact that our minds and bodies want what they want, and we can't control the fantasies that actually arouse our libidos.
We began to play some bondage games together. We actually bought some bondage gear, leather ankle and wrist cuffs, a leather flogger, nipple clamps and a nice assortment of vibrators, including the vibrating cock ring like the one I was forced to wear. Deb admitted that the hottest image in her mind, was me suffering with that cock ring that made my manhood so full and erect that she couldn't take her eyes off it. Riding me with it on gives her some of the best orgasms as she rubs her clit against the smooth vibrating piece as my fully engorged cock is embedded deep in her pussy.
Life went on, and I felt we were more connected than ever. However, as things do, memories (and fantasies) that were spurring on sex life began to fade. I could sense that we both felt like we needed something else. Deb was not having several orgasms anymore when we had a session, and it mostly became 1 orgasm, and that was mostly as a result of the trusty magic wand. I even stepped up our bondage games, whipping her harder, pulling on the nipple clamps, slapping her ass hard when I took her doggie style, but things were fading, I could tell.
Finally, after a rather longish BDSM session and getting her off again with the Hitachi, I got up the nerve to ask her about what she was thinking. We were lying naked, post coitally on the bed while I rubbed lotion onto her red ass, I asked her if she felt things were still good with us sexually. She kissed hard and said ABSOLUTELY!! She then kissed me and said, All the months immediately after what happened to us, her mind was very filled with all the images of that day. She found that she was always very turned on by the thoughts in her head, but that lately, the thoughts seem to fade in and out, and that the turn on this once was, was dissipating.
Then I got the nerve to say what had been on my mind for some time now. "Deb, what if we did it again?"
"What do you mean "did it again"? Like some couple is just going to drug and kidnap us and use us for sex? Get real!"
"No, I mean... what if we were the couple?"
"Not only would we be filling our heads with new images, we might be giving a couple some insight to what we have discovered. I mean, what we were forced to discover."
Deb closed her eyes a moment, then said "Jake, it's not legal to do something like this. Don't you remember how pissed off we were. How humiliated and taken advantage of, and used and raped! I don't think i could participate in doing that to anyone."
"You're right. I agree. It was a crazy thought. I just also keep fantasizing about these things, I don't know what's wrong with me."
A few weeks went by, a few more "a bit less satisfying" sex sessions, when Deb out of the blue, said, "I think we should do it." I couldn't believe my ears. "What has changed?" "Well, now you have me thinking about playing the part of seductress and maybe turning the tables on the helpless feelings that somehow torture me, but also turn me on. I have been thinking a lot lately, about the things we could do to some other sexy couple and maybe give them what Sherry and Steve gave to us, a hot new sex life, and even a bigger commitment to each other. We can't deny we have never felt closer than we have these past few months. Maybe going through something like this is good for people."
So, here it began. Our planning for abducting a couple, using them sexually, and getting away with it. It was scary but exhilarating at the same time.