Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Any characters depicted in this story are over the age of 18. A special thanks to CW for editing expertise and to Whispersecret for the excellent "How To" essays. If there are any errors, they are mine.
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Mary stood at the entrance of the sturdy old door and stifled a moan. Her stomach had butterflies flittering around inside it from nervousness. She took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
“Come in,” said Sister Purity.
Mary stepped just inside the door. “Sister, I…” Mary stuttered. “Sister, I need to talk to you.”
Sister Purity looked up from her large walnut desk. Her blue eyes were clear and kind. Her complexion was creamy and reverent. “Dear Mary, please come in and sit down. What is troubling you?” Sister Purity watched Mary with concerned, knowing eyes.
Mary came forward hesitantly and sat in the big padded chair in front of the desk. She sat up very straight with her ankles, not her legs, crossed; her hands folded submissively in her lap. “Sister Purity, I really don’t know where to begin. I’m confused and I… I…” she trailed off at the end and look down at her tightly clenched hands.
“Take your time, dear Mary. Sometimes it takes a moment to gather our thoughts and put them into words for others to hear,” Sister Purity said kindly. She busied herself tidying her already tidy desk, giving Mary time to compose herself.
Mary’s thoughts swam around and around in her head as she remembered the last 10 years at the convent. Her parents had been killed in a car accident when she was only 8 years old. Her relatives were wealthy, but had not wanted the burden of a child. They decided to put her in Our Holy Mother of Mercy convent and school for girls. It was a very exclusive school for girls with a small student population. She had grown up in the school and being orphaned, the Sister’s had groomed her specially for joining them when she turned 18.
Mary smiled to herself as she remembered her 18th birthday several days ago. The Sister’s and Father Kirk, Father Flanigan, and the newest one Father Jameson had planned a special surprise party for her. They and all the other students had been waiting in the cafeteria. She had been so surprised when her best friend Anne had run to get her and say she was needed immediately for a special project in the kitchen. She had had such a wonderful time at the surprise party.
Mary stopped smiling though and her brows creased in a small frown when she remembered what happened after the party. Father Kirk had told her to come to his office after the party. She had thought this was odd, because the Father’s almost never had anything to do with the initiates. But she knew she had to go.
When she got to Father Kirk’s office, he was gazing out his big picture window. The night was beautiful and the trees outside were swaying gently in the wind. Father Kirk turned and looked at her warmly. He was very nice looking for being older. About 6’ tall, wavy brown hair mixed with gray, brown eyes and little laugh lines around his mouth. Mary had always thought he was charismatic and felt shy in his presence.
Mary had almost no experience with boys. Being an orphan, she was not taken on holidays or trips by her parents. Her relatives remembered to send checks to the school and not much else. So, she spent all of her time at the convent and didn’t meet many boys or men. Oh, she had thought about boys like any girl but had never even touched herself intimately or allowed herself to fantasize. After all, she would be entering the convent and knew that boys would be forever denied her.
“Mary,” said Father Kirk. “I know that the time has come for you to make the important decision of whether or not to join the Order. To devote your life to God and forsake all earthly things. This can be a trying time. A scary time for a young woman just feeling the stirrings of her sexuality.” He stared at her intensely, watching her reaction.
Mary gasped softly and brought her hand to her mouth. Her belly felt empty and her body weak. She thought, how had he known?
Father Kirk went to the big stuffed couch in the shadowed part of room. “Come Mary, sit down. I know that it is a shock to hear these things. But, I have been around many girls coming to womanhood and making this decision. “ Father Kirk sat down on one end of the couch and patted the seat near him. “Come Mary; tell me your feelings and thoughts. Let me help you.”
Mary gingerly sat down on the couch several feet from Father Kirk. As always, placing her hands in her lap, her feet and knees together and her back straight. She glanced up at Father Kirk and said, “Please, Father, I… I… thought that I would speak to Sister Purity about this?” Mary blushed not realizing how beautiful the hint of pink made her.
Father Kirk drank in the sight of this child, so young, so beautiful, so trusting. Her hair was thick and wavy with a dark, wild luster. So many shades of mahogany, brown and honey and cream, he felt he could taste the sweetness, smell the wholesomeness wafting up from the innocent strands curled around her shoulders. Her eyes, deep shades of green flecked with gold, glowed with intelligence and the wonder and confusion of youth. In her school uniform, her young firm breasts jutted proudly. Father Kirk could see the outline of a matronly brassiere cupping those succulent bosoms. Her torso dipped into a trim waist cinched tight with the school belt then flared into surprisingly promising hips. Her legs were firm and long from years of soccer and track. Her knees, pressed so firmly together led to small, dainty feet in sensible saddle shoes. The petite, delicate hands had long, tapered fingers with perfect half-moon fingernails. Father Kirk smiled and nodded his head as he answered her.
“Yes, Mary. I know. But anytime the Sister feels that a promising novice may be confused, she asks one of the Fathers to intervene. You have been with us for many years and have done well with your studies. Your skills in running any post here are extraordinary and praised by all the Sisters. Do you think you can tell me how you are feeling, now that you are 18 and can make the decision to stay, or go?” Father Kirk slid closer to Mary and put a hand on her shoulder.
Mary trembled slightly. She was not afraid or upset by the Father’s nearness. On the contrary, her body was very aware of the man by her side. That was the problem, it was all she thought of recently. Men. What did they look like really? How did it feel to be kissed? Hugged? Touched? Stroked? She squirmed slightly under Father Kirk’s hand. Her young body felt starved for attention. She felt her nipples stiffen against the sensible cotton of her brassiere.
Father Kirk’s hand went to the back of her neck and gripped it lightly then began to rub it, messaging. “Mary, you are so tense. You can talk to me about anything. There is nothing I have not heard and I know that nothing you tell me will make me think less of you.” Father Kirk slid closer to Mary, her scent filling his nostrils. He breathed deeply and slowly, savoring the smell of Mary’s virginal arousal. He let his hand message the tense cords of muscles in her soft neck. Rubbing up and down, occasionally he would bury his fingers in the nape of her hair. The heat from her body was incredible, an aphrodisiac of innocence and freshness.
Mary couldn’t help it but she sighed. “Oh yes, Father, I am tense. I have been for weeks now. I know I have to make my decision whether to stay or to leave. But I just don’t know how to do it. There are so many things I don’t know. About the outside I mean. I don’t know if I should live out there for while and experience…” Mary faltered, flustered. Her breathing was getting heavier as Father Kirk’s hand worked magic on her stiff neck muscles. His big, warm hand stroked her neck and stirred up deep longings in her belly that she could not identify.
Father Kirk smiled to himself, enjoying her sweet embarrassment as she stumbled for words she didn’t know. His hand began kneading up around her shoulders. He could feel her shoulder bones, so slender. Moving his head closer still, Father Kirk put his mouth next to her ear and whispered, “Ah Mary, I know what you seek. I know the questions you have. How can you commit to a life of God, giving up all earthly things when you don’t know what you are giving up? How can you never feel the first blush of love, the first kiss? I know the questions, sweet Mary. I understand them.”
His hot breath caressed the delicate skin of her ear and he felt her shiver. He allowed himself the briefest surge of power and relished the feel of his cock jumping and straining inside his priestly robes. Gently he brushed strands of wavy hair away from Mary’s face, her skin glowing and flushed in the dim light. He turned her face to his and looked at the startled doe eyes staring at him, pupils dilated. Her full lips were slightly parted and wet from her licking them.