Author's note: I want to extend a heartfelt thank you to everyone reading! This is the first series I've ever written, and I'm incredibly grateful for your feedback and encouragement. Constructive criticism is always welcome. This is the second chapter of what I hope will be a longer series. There's a lot of detailed setup in the beginning, but I promise the pace will pick up in the next chapter!
Disclaimer: This is an entirely fiction story, if you don not like noncon/reluctance this will not be for you
I wake up the next morning feeling uneasy. I'm unsure if my father made it home at night. Surly he went to go gamble his last coin away or is passed out somewhere on the street completely inebriated. I am not sure how I am going to face him...
should I apologize?
For what. That
beast
is the one who has wronged
me
!
Should I pretend as if nothing happened...
I shake my head trying to put the thoughts from my mind. No --- he won't be home. He's certainly unconscious in a ditch somewhere, and there's no point worrying myself over something that won't happen.
I throw on my shoes and cap, having already been dressed in my clothes from yesterday. And start to head downstairs.
My face pales. And air is forced from my lungs.
I see my father downstairs staring at me with a look I can't quite comprehend.
Is it anger?
No.
Guilt?
Definitely not. Then realization hits me, and I feel a surprising jolt shoot down my spine.
Fear
What could have happened that would make my father act this way? Millions of thoughts flood my mind and I myself being to feel the crippling effects of fear. What or who could have caused this? And why is my father looking at me this way? He is the first to break the silence, snapping me out of thought.
"My dear, please. Something has happened and I'm in need of your assistance. I need your help, daughter"
He needs my help? What could he possibly need my help for?
I don't possess anything that has ever interested him before. Nor do I have any particularly helpful talents. I stared at him dumbfounded, still in disbelief of having had the words
my dear
and
daughter
spoken in the same sentence. Not having the words to respond to his outlandish request.
Realizing that I am not going to respond, he continues.
"I have gotten myself in some trouble with some of the boys down at the parlor. We got into a friendly game of blackjack. You know I'm an honest man. But your old dad here's been a bit down on his luck. Now, I'm not proud of this next part. But....I rigged the deck. I was trying to put some food on the table for us my dear, you understand, don't you?"
He looks at me waiting for a response, but I don't give him one. He continues, "I took my earnings and left to go acquire some funds in another game but --- I lost it. Unfortunately, the boys caught on and exposed me, the man who I had gotten the money from came and found me. It turns out he's a rather important man...just my luck, eh?.....oh my dear! He was a KINGSMAN! A guard at Lord Steel's estate! He said he'll have me stoned in the street if I don't give him the money back by tomorrow! PLEASE, please daughter help me. You must help me! You are my only hope."
I stare at him with my jaw open, a look of disbelief etched on my face. I try to make sense of the information he has just forced on me. Not knowing what to say to this horrific ordeal.
"How much?" I hear myself saying, not realizing that I had even spoken.
"Two hundred pounds.." ---
"You stole two hundred pounds from a kingsgaurd!?! Are you mad! I always knew you were a drunken fool but I never expected you to do something like this! How could you?!" I shouted. I couldn't believe it. Couldn't even imagine it. How could he have put our lives in danger like that, just so he could feed his disgusting habits.
"I am a fool. Yes! You must help me my daughter. If you have any love left in your blackened heart for the man who has raised you since infancy. My own flesh and blood. You will help me." He sobbed.
I stood there looking him, not believing that the same man who just yesterday I was so afraid of ---who wrapped his hands around my neck and defiled his own child, could be laying in front of me sobbing like babe in a pathetic heap on the floor. Begging for
me,
of all people, to help
him
?
I wanted to refuse, to look him in the eyes and laugh in his face, leaving him on the floor to cry as he did to me. How dare he say that he's raised me! Ever since the passing of my mother the only thing he's cared for was his drinking habit. He has done nothing but make my life hell for the past ten years.
Yet...
A memory flashes into my mind of being sick as a child. I was often ill back then, and my mother worked three jobs just to take care of me. Yet she never complained, even when she fell ill herself...
One day, she had to leave for work, and my father stayed home to take care of me instead. I remember him carrying me to bed and laying cool towels on my forehead. He brushed my hair away from my face, looking at me with a sadness only a parent knows. He sang softly to me with a surprisingly calming voice. In that moment, I felt truly cared for.
I felt loved.
"What do I have to do."
He looked up at me wide eyed. "You-, you'll help me, daughter?"
"Yes. I'll help you. But I'm not doing it for you. Not this pathetic excuse for a man ---but for the man you once were. And more importantly...I'll do it for mom. She would have wanted me to."
I don't know where this courage came from, but I felt determined in my task. Whatever it is I needed to do, I would do it, and I would do it successfully.
"Thank you, oh thank you daughter!" my father wailed. "You make me so proud my dear. And I promise things will be different from now on. I will quit the drink. I will try to get a job ---we can go back to the way things used to be..."
In my heart I know what he says is a lie. But I can't help the small part of me that wished it were true. I longed for the love I had as a child. And I would do anything it took to get it back.
"What do I have to do," I repeat.
"I have thought of a plan, my child. You will accompany me to the square this morning, quickly. There have been rumors that a large shipment of gold is to be delivered to the Steel manor. We will hide out until the carriage arrives, then I will create some sort of distraction to get the attention of the crowds. Hidden in the chaos, you will sneak in and take---"
"You want me to steal gold from Lord Steel in broad daylight?!?" I interjected. "I was right, you are mad!"