"When can you come over next?"
Zoe typed this line several times over the last few weeks. She never sent it. She had been violated by her most trusted friend. It was something that she wanted to experience, but not with him. She didn't want their friendship dynamic to change. She didn't want to lose him as a friend. But he crossed the fucking line. He knew that she didn't want this. Well, she did want this, but not with him.
Weeks. Weeks with no contact with him. She knew he missed her. Hell, Max texted her at least once a week with notes that he wanted to see her and that he missed her. She saw them and conveniently ignored them. "Good" was all she thought the first few times he texted her. But after a while, she felt the same but was too stubborn to give in.
Zoe checked the local boards and dating sites. She had a couple of dates with clueless guys. They swore they were experienced, but they never listened to her needs. Only their wants. Max had told her several times that it would happen. It's hard to find someone that fast who would give her what she wanted. She knew it, but she wanted it so badly that she kept trying to make it happen. The result: more frustration.
What made her ready to send the text today was the date from last night. He was ten years older than she was and said that he was in the lifestyle for fifteen years. He sounded good online, but the first red flag was that he kept asking for pictures before they discovered how compatible they were. He claimed that he was experienced, so she sent him a couple of pictures. He also gave her some instructions. She was ready to give in but couldn't. Something was off.
She did receive a picture. he wasn't bad looking. Wasn't really her type, but she could make do with how needy she has become. She hoped that she could.
The disappointment didn't cover how she felt when he left. He couldn't pick up on her queues. He didn't listen when she said what she needed. He got off twice and she did not get to finish even once. He really wasn't concerned with her pleasure; only his. It was so unsatisfying that she didn't want to finish. She just took a shower and crawled into bed.
"When can you come over next?" ...
"Fuck it," she said out loud and clicked "SEND"
Max was out and about with his friends talking sports and women. He was finally done waiting for her to come around. Maybe he did ruin a good friendship, but it was worth it. He knew deep down that he gave her something that she had wanted, even though it would change things.
He did miss Zoe. He would never deny it. There was something just so complimentary about her in his mind. She was in no way perfect, but her flaws were somewhat entertaining to him. She had issues that he had long work past for himself and it was a reminder of his journey that got him to this point.
He did text her a few times over the previous weeks. After the first, he didn't expect a response, but he did still share some of the thoughts he had that she used to enjoy. He was fine if she never came around. Sure, he would be able to find other women who would let him do things, but they never measured up to how he imagined it would go. Zoe would take what he considered his playfulness and want more from it. In fact, there were several topics that he never wanted to contemplate because he didn't have anyone that he had enough trust in to stop when things needed to be stopped.
Her mind couldn't keep up with his yet, but she also was quite a few years younger than he. Max knew that one day her games would evolve far beyond where he was currently, and he had hoped that he could watch that grow in her. However, it had been weeks and closer to a month. He was ok with her not speaking to him. At times, he was glad since he would have thoughts of punishing her for making him wait this long for a response.
"Good riddance," he thought. He really should have moved on earlier. Much earlier than that afternoon. "That afternoon..." he thought with a smile.
His friends asked him what was up. He returned his facial expression. "Nothin'. Just had a memory of a girl." The guys started giving him a hard time and he played it off.
The phone buzzed. He looked down at it.
"When can you come over next?"
He grinned knowingly. He knew she would come back. At least, that is what he was telling himself. The guys started giving him a hard time when he started grinning as he slipped the phone into his pocket. He would respond in a few hours.
It was her turn to be patient. True, it had only been a couple of hours, but... "it's been a couple of hours, damn it! He better not be being petty." She muttered.
In all honesty, she didn't know if she would ever speak to him again. Now that she did, Zoe didn't know if it was desperation or if she did miss Max. Either way, it wasn't what she wanted. However, it was too late. She did reach out to him and now she had the doubts that always happen when one sends a text and it isn't replied to right away. She left herself vulnerable. There wasn't much she could do about it now.
Right as she was putting her phone down for what felt like the sixtieth time, it chimed.