CHAPTER SIX: CHRYSALIS
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"What,
again
? It was fifty just last week!"
"And it's fifty-five this week, cuz, you see β supply chain β the war . . ."
"Bah to the war, this is robbery!"
Valeriana slunk out of the way as the irate human woman turned away from the counter and barreled past her. A can of something or other got slammed down on a nearby shelf; probably not where it was supposed to go. Valeriana eyed it, torn on whether she ought to feel apprehensive. She hadn't been able to follow the exchange. Whatever had left the woman so incensed about the innocuous container was lost on her.
By some miracle, the shop window survived the high-pitched hollering, which continued to spring forth until the dissatisfied customer stomped out the door, tossing it closed with so much force that the walls rattled. The man behind the counter waved Valeriana's way, not looking the slightest bit troubled.
"You can come up."
It took a significant amount of self-convincing for her to detach from the wall.
Did she remember the list? The whole of it? She had a copy folded up in her pocket. If it came to the worst and she clammed up or forgot how to pronounce something, she could slide it over for the human to read. Most of them could read, she'd been surprised to learn.
"Hello!" she sounded out, pitching her voice to emulate Tonya's. There'd been lessons, these past few days, every night for an hour after dinner, during which her host would say stock phrases for her to repeat. The proper greeting for early afternoon eluded her, but 'hello' was adequate across the board, or so she'd been told. "Can I buy . . . two grape jam, one bleach, one margarine, twelve spam, one large flour . . . in a bag?"
"Bleach, is that one jug, one gallon, a one-gallon jug . .?"
"
Uhm
." Valeriana suspected, from the not unfriendly but too sly smile she received, that the man was making fun of her. She rallied as best she could. "One gallon. In a jug. What is the price?"
She was to walk out if the answer was a number above the one on the bill she kept next to the list. The total turned out to be under by a hair. She pocketed the change and swept the groceries into the basket that Tonya had also given her. The cashier made an odd sort of noise when she picked up the flour bag last, tucking it under her arm. She didn't understand his surprise. It was plainly too big to go with the rest.
"Lift a lot, do you?"
"I'm sorry. I am still learning English," she sang,
those
words flowing smoothly. She'd practiced them to the point of exhaustion, figuring that she'd have to say them often. Since they had concluded the transaction with success, she prepared for a swift exit. "Thank you! Goodbye."
How long had it been? Five minutes, ten? Frank had told her he'd be driving around in fifteen.
Valeriana felt painfully awkward, standing outside the store with the basket hanging from her shoulder and the flour under her arm. On Earth, the impression of being out of place forever assailed her. She woke with it and went through the day with it and went to bed with it and took it into her dreams on the nights she got respite from the nightmares that had plagued her since her arrival.
This is not your world.
Everything around her, every word overheard and unknown, screamed it. The first time the sentiment had occurred to her in so many words, she'd laughed. She knew that. Of course she knew she wasn't home β how could she not?
Still, it was one thing to know something for a fact and another to experience it continuously, like an unsettling, lingering draft.
Today Earth's pale sun shone and, wrapped in enough wool to dress a herd, she had no complaints regarding the cold. It was a busy hour and there were plenty of humans out and about, the commotion of vehicles on the road and talking and walking masking the absence of a background tune, making the street feel friendlier. There was no one she needed to entertain or be mindful of or avoid. Not even Lady Marabeth; she hazarded an educated guess that the woman would sooner hack her own leg off than be caught shopping among humans. She was beyond anyone's notice, and that ought to have been a relief.
Not yours. Not for you.
Perhaps this was why there'd never been a serious interest in making Earth part of the Tsikalayan dominion. Its inhabitants being unwelcoming would have been a minor hassle, but when it was the world itself that felt resentful of her presence . . .
Frank's van had an unusual way of honking, like a blood song of its own. Valeriana breathed out, relieved, when the strident
gwhee
-ing provided a distraction.
"Oh, did we make you wait? We thought it'd take longer, there's usually a big line," Tonya said. Valeriana shrugged and handed in her bounty through the side window, with as accomplished a feeling as she'd ever had. Until Tonya, like the cashier, made a strange noise at the flour. "Gosh, no, wait, that's too heavβ
Frank, help
!"
Together they struggled to get the bag behind the seat while Valeriana stood by, dying on the inside and falling over herself to apologize. She'd forgotten β humans were weaker.
At least the groceries were correct. Tonya's only remark was that it should have been a two-gallon jug of bleach, but that it was her fault for not specifying. For Frank's part there'd been muttering about everything having been more expensive than predicted, about the Claytons being shameless thieves,
yes there was a war ongoing,
but there was overcharging and then there was what those cunts did . . .
Valeriana settled in the space she'd carved for herself between the backs of the two front seats, sighing with quiet relief.
Frank and Tonya had been considerate of her, and she'd behaved as best she could in return, but there'd been growing pains. Mrs. Drakma had dropped in two days into her stay, to check on her and hand in an assortment of clothing and toiletries. During that brief encounter, Valeriana had received the suggestion that it would reflect well on her to help with chores and whatnot. She'd felt wretched. Doubly so because it hadn't crossed her mind that she ought to offer.
She'd run into trouble whilst trying to make up for her lack of consideration, too.
She'd tried her hand at cooking, assuming she'd get the hang of it. She'd been wrong. Tonya had offered her cooking lessons after they'd put the fire out and requested that she never turn the stove on again without supervision. Valeriana had been too embarrassed to take the lessons and not touched the stove since. Attempts to clean hadn't resulted in so much disaster. However, after a while, she'd noticed that Tonya would dust and swipe the floors a second time after she'd gone over them, proving her efforts dire.
Currently, Valeriana did the dishes and set the table and helped with the vegetable garden. She wasn't gifted with plants, but she'd spent enough afternoons in sweltering greenhouses with Belladonna yelling at her to trust that she wouldn't murder every green thing she touched.
She might be on her way to settling in. She had nothing but good things to say about the hospitality she had received. She was ever so grateful.
She'd been counting down the days until word came from Jack even so.
Mrs. Drakma hadn't brought news when she'd dropped by. Tonya and Frank hadn't mentioned anything either, and so Valeriana had resigned herself to waiting, not daring to push for more. She could be patient. Jack would answer her message, irrespective of what had transpired between her and his aunt. Aunts. He had stood by her in the aftermath of murder. He'd be baffled that she'd tried to help a slave escape, but wouldn't wash his hands of her for that.
He
would
answer. Hopefully soon.
"We're going to stop at headquarters," Frank said, elaborating, when she shot him a look of startled incomprehension, "My workplace. Mrs. D said she'd like to see you, so we're spending the afternoon there while my darling wife fritters it away at the hairdresser β
Toni, don't hit me, I'm driving
!"
"She wants to see me?" Valeriana quashed a flutter of hope. Mrs. Drakma could need her for reasons that had nothing to do with Jack having sent news. Even bad reasons.
"Yes. Didn't tell me what she wants to talk about, though."
Valeriana let the subject turn to more trivial matters, which saw her shut out of the conversation for not knowing what to add. She still listened in; unraveling the ties that bound her hosts to Briseis Drakma had become something of a pastime for her. The woman herself had referred to them as associates. Tonya had made a passing mention of her running Frank ragged with the war business. Frank himself had kept a staunch silence that only raised more questions.