My life is a mix of good, bad, confusing and chaotic On one hand, I'm the manager of the finance department at a major company and my job pays very well for little effort. I sit behind a desk, yell at people and read spreadsheets and reports. I'm set up to retire at forty five and live comfortably for the rest of my life.
However I'm not happy. I only have this job because my husband is the CEO of the company, a man ten years older than me who hasn't touched me in months and I suspect more and more married me for my looks and has now grown bored of them. My job was mundane, every aspect of my married life was mundane.
So I had an affair, with a young Irish man who liked to drink and always smelled a little like smoke. A man who's foreplay was soft and gentle but sex was rough and urgent, teeth on my shoulder and hand around my neck and who's bed manner was cold and distant, lying on the other side of the bed staring at the ceiling while I shakily pulled my clothes back on.
Richard knew about my husband and would make a big show of sliding my wedding ring off during foreplay, dropping it on the bedside table for me to retrieve later. We didn't talk about him or my home life which suited me perfectly. He let me pretend I was still an unattached twenty something year old who wanted nothing more than a warm body to curl up besides.
We met a few times a week, at a small dive bar close to his apartment. I knew there was no way my husband or any of his associates would ever come here so I could relax and just get lost in the little fantasy where I had nothing to feel guilty about.
Our last meeting had a sour ending. I was sitting on the side of his worn down bed, pulling my tights back on and scanning the floor for my blouse, when I felt the weight shift on the mattress, Richard sitting up, picking up my wedding ring between two fingers "Why don't you divorce him?"
I glanced over my shoulder at him, shrugging silently. I knew the answer. I relied on my husband, without him I wouldn't have my job, my home, everything that made up my life weighed heavily on me staying with him "Don't worry about it. He doesn't love me and I don't love him" I plucked the ring out of his hands and slid it back on, leaning over to kiss him. I intended it to be quick and light but his hand cupped the back of my head, drawing out the kiss for a few seconds. I felt his rough calloused fingers in my hair and smelled the hazy of smoke that clung to him, relishing the moment before he pulled back, hand dropped down to my shoulder to give it a pat, sighing a little before pulling himself off the bed.
I didn't love Richard either. He was fun to be with and the sex was wonderful but I had no emotional connection. The only things I knew about him were the things laid out for me to find on his body and in his home. The calloused fingertips, small circular scars across his chest, absence of family photos, the heaviness behind his eyes. I knew he wanted me to be closer. He wanted to let me in and let me take some of that weight away. And I didn't have the heart for that.
We had a deadline, and the end of our last meeting had me worried that it was closer than I originally suspected.
My office life was very boring. My team consisted only of men, most of them in their early twenties who were far too intimidated by me to even talk back at me. Except one man, a little younger than the others. He was annoying and obnoxious, constantly turning up late and leaving his work unfinished. Which was why I was unsurprised to see that not only was he late again that morning, but the report I had told him to have my desk by yesterday was nowhere to be seen.
Frustrated by last night's interaction with Richard, I told my receptionist to have him sent to my office the moment he arrived. Which took another ten minutes and when he did stunt in, he had that cocky grin plastered over his face, staring down at me with a folder in one hand. It wasn't hard to tower over me, I'm rather short and my tiny frame doesn't help.
"What time do you call this? You're late, again" I stood up, arms folding over my chest "And that better be the report I ordered you to have on my desk last night"
Jeffers raised his hand, still grinning like nothing was wrong "No, it's not. I haven't even started on that report and don't intend to. And before you flying off the handle, you might want to take a look at this"
I was hopeful for a moment, thinking maybe he was quitting and this was cute way of telling me. I snatched the folder from him, flipping it open. It was full of photos. Some spilled out, landing on the marble floor. Photos of me and Richard. Talking, drinking, kissing
"They're good aren't I? I mean I'm no photographer but hey! My favorite is this one, the one with his hand up your skirt" He leaned over, leering down at me "I was thinking, maybe your husband would like to see these?"
I was frozen for a few seconds, face certainly giving away my internal panic. Then I snapped the folder shut and tossed it behind me on the desk, arms back to being folded across my chest and face set in a cold expression
"Alright, what do you want? A raise?"
"Oh no, no I'm not letting you get away with this so easily" He stepped forward, closing the gap between us "No, I want you to get on your knees and suck my cock"
I really didn't know what to say. I don't know why I wasn't expecting this. After a few seconds, I jerked into motion and violently shoved him back "Get the fuck out. Get out before I call the police" "You don't want to do that. Unless you want to lose your job, get kicked out of your home, lose everything your husband has provided you. Oh maybe you could move in with this piece of street trash you're fucking"
I watched him dig around in his pocket, pulling out his phone and flashing the screen at me. I could see the photos again "Suck my cock, or lose everything. Pick quickly now, it only takes one tap to have all this sent to your husband"
I glanced around the room, breath picking up pace in panic. I didn't know what I was looking for, something to help me. I spotted a heavy glass paperweight on my desk and considered bashing his brains in for a moment. That would solve my problem. Except it would give me the problem of disposing the body. My murderous train of thought was cut off by Jeffers grabbing my hair, twisting it and forcing my head back around to face him.
I tried to push him off but he was a great deal stronger than me, using his foot to kick the back of my knees and buckle them, landing me on my knees. I tried to scream for help but his palm connected with my cheek and knocked the wind out of me, leaving me blinking to try and disperse the white dots flashing in front of my eyes. When my vision focused again, it was to the sight of his phone once again in my face "Come on whore, you've gotta choose"
My eyes darted from the screen, to him starting to unbuckle his belt before gritting my teeth.
"Fine"
Those words kicked off the worst blow job of my life. Jeffers didn't waste time, shoving his phone away and yanking his zipper open, free hand knotting itself back into my hair. I grimaced as his cock sprung out of his trousers. Before I had time to even start, my head was being pulled violently forward. The head of his cock poked against my lips a couple of times before I reluctantly opened up, eyes widening as Jeffers thrust forward, forcing my head down despite my gagging and my small hands pattering against his legs, trying to push him away.
I could hear him muttering above me, something along the times of "take it, bitch" as he set into fucking my throat, each thrust making my eyes water and stomach lurch a little. I had never done this before, sure I had sucked dick before but I set the pace and deep throating was not on my skills list. This was different, the pace was brutal and the way his cock hit the back of my throat each time was making my head spin.
Jeffers hands grabbed at my shirt, ripping open the front and sending buttons shattering across the office floor. I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to block out what was actually happening to me which was rather hard since I still very much had a cock violently invading my throat. With my eyes shut, I couldn't see Jeffers taking his phone back out, flicking open the camera. I opened my eyes when I heard the ding as the recording starting, groaning in frustration and trying to use one hand to cover my face "Ah ah ah! No hiding, or all those pictures go straight to your loving husband. God you look so good down there" I slowly let my hand drop down, glaring up at the camera. At least he was slowing down, actually letting me breath. I half hearted sucked and bobbed my head a little, which only got a satisfied growl from Jeffers "Come on, you can do better than that, I really shouldn't have to hurt you to make you suck cock right"
I paused, lips wrapped around the tip, and took a deep breath through my nose, setting my face into my calm, business meeting expression. Blocking out the man the dick I was sucking was attached to, I slowly started to bob my head in long, slow strokes, stopping at the head every few strokes to suck and flick my tongue across it. I just wanted this to be over. And for those photos to not get to my husband.
I felt his cock throbbing against my tongue and he growled, grabbing my head and forcing it back down, cumming down my throat. I had no choice but to swallow it, whole body jerking slightly in disgust. But it was done, and he was tucking his cock away and zipping himself back up "Good, see? That wasn't so hard" He chuckled and lightly flicked my head as I stood up