This is a story of fiction. Please enjoy.
***********
3 weeks had passed since Jamal began to blackmail me. In that time, my relationship with my boyfriend had started to become strained. We would argue about me suddenly having meetings at work, or about just wanting to go home and relax, as I was tired.
Jamal's aunt had come back from being away, so the frequency of our meetings were spread out. I was grateful for the breaks, as he would absolutely ravage my insides for hours at a time.
I know, some of you think, some blackmail story. You sure do get into it. Yea, well try being a woman. Our hormones fail. Having a young, virile, male who goes and goes and goes and cums like a geyser, It's kind of difficult to always fake or suppress pleasure. No, I do not want what Jamal does, I have a boyfriend. Plus, the two times I did defy him, he sent video clips to my schools website, as well as Matt's brokerage.
Being heavily into the pornographic scene in my early 20's, I had a lot of sex. With any and everyone. Older men, married men, skinny men, fat men, It didn't matter. I wanted sex. There came a point in my life, after being brutally raped, that I decided, 'no more'. I regretted having an abortion after I conceived from the rape. I was 22.
Needing to live a much more meaningful, moral life, I changed myself. I had graduated with my degree, and immediately immersed myself in church. Volunteering everywhere, joining women's groups, feeding the homeless on Saturday's, I wanted to change who I was.
Moving to New Hampshire, to a small town, was my attempt at normalcy. Sure, I teach in a bigger city, but the peace and tranquility of a townhome overlooking the ocean, whilst also being located in a shopping district, was too good to pass up.
**********
At the behest of my relationship with Mark, Jamal and I have an 'understanding' that Mark isn't to spend the night at my home. He can't just show up anymore, and let himself into my home. Mark basically has to make, what can be tantamount to, appointments, just to be with me. Trying to satiate Jamal's needs and demands, I have, also, found myself neglecting my relational growth with Mark. When I saw Mark on a Tuesday, we had a blow up, when these topics were brought up.
*What do you mean I can't spend the night, Kara? I've been doing so for the last couple months!" The tenseness in his voice, I tried to be empathetic.
"Honey, I just don't find it acceptable for us to do that, not being engaged or married, I stated, trying to be reasonable. "As far as just showing up at my home, unannounced; I think that's moving WAYYY too fast. I'm appreciative of how you surprise me with dinners and all, but we need to slow down."
"I don't know where this is coming from, Kara. If I remember correctly, you were the one who started spending nights at my house, I don't know what's changed," He rebutted, scratching his head.
Sighing, I added, "I just have a lot of stress right now. I want to live a life through morality, and the Word. I just need you to understand."
"Are you seeing someone else?" The bluntness of his question caught me off guard.
"What? No! Why would you even ask that," I incredulously snapped. "Oh my goodness Mark, how dare you!"
Seeing his demeanor change, he backtracked off his prior statement. "Look I'm sorry, Kara. You've been cancelling, last minute, on things we've had planned for weeks. It's just not like you."
Feeling the guilt and shame from the night before, with Jamal, I hated lying to Mark. But, now, If this were all exposed, not only would I lose Mark, but my career. Everything I've tried positively changing over the past decade was teetering in the balance.
"I just need space. I have somethings I'm working through. We will still see each other, and do things, but If you love me, I ask you to respect my wishes and slow down," hoping he'd understand. "I'm not asking for a breakup of any kind."
Mark and me decided to have Saturdays as our day, hanging out together, having an early dinner. But I, also, told him I wanted to be home by 7. I would drive into the city for my day with Mark, but after leaving him, I had to pick Jamal up at the usual spot I normally would get him. From there, after we got to my place, he would delight himself between my legs, savagely fucking me senseless. I even started neglecting church, unbeknownst to Mark, as Jamal was with me Saturday night until Monday morning.
Jamal told me he wanted me off of my birth control. Frightened, I knew the last thing I wanted was pregnancy. Not right now. So, after dumping my pills in front of him one Sunday night, he thought he had won that battle.
Informing Jamal I had a routine doctor appointment, I ended up getting Depo Provera, which is the injection form of birth control. Having to receive the shot every 3 months, I could easily conceal that, all the while making Jamal believe I was unprotected. With Jamal pumping load after load into me, he was awaiting the day one of his sperm found that elusive egg.
***********
The days at school seemingly became more tolerable. With Jamal happy with our current relationship, he kept his buddies at bay, so I could actually do my job. Sure, I almost always teach sitting at my desk, as my dress would be up enough for Jamal to see my legs, and the results of our routine fuck-fests.
Knowing he was receiving an automatic 'A' in my class, I would inform Principal Smith, weekly, on the progress I was having with the boys. Telling her of my 'tough stance', the boys are now more respectful in my classroom. As his cum from Monday morning periodically dripped from my overly used cunt, I'd be in Principal Smith's office sharing positive updates.
************
After a long week at school, I had one night that Jamal came home with me. We spent Wednesday night, until 1am, thumping my headboard against the wall. During a break, so he could recharge, he finally admitted what I'd suspected for do long.
"Once I get yo' as pregnant, you dumpin' that motha fucka," the cockiness in his voice, discernible. 'Then, I'm movin' in with yo' ass."
With consternation in my voice, I responded, now submissively, "I don't control that, you do. I did stop my birth control, remember.?"
Lying under him, with my legs pointing at the ceiling, his confidence was astounding.
"Friday night, I'll be fucking more seeds into this incredible pussy," he stated. The disgusting, horrible way he speaks to me, I have since become numb to it.
"I can't wait, honey," I added, as the abhorrence show on my face.