Rick and I have been at a client dinner after a long day of meetings. We are both staying at the same hotel and when we get back to the lobby, I ask if he wants to get a drink. I've been fantasizing about him for months and I am hoping something might happen on this trip. He seems to be attracted to me, but despite my subtle flirting, he has never made a pass at me. I think maybe he was just being careful since he's a senior VP with the firm. Technically, we shouldn't date, even if we tell HR about it, since I'm his subordinate. But I wouldn't tell them either way since I'm married and wouldn't want anyone to know if I sleep with a coworker.
When I suggest a drink, he glances over at the hotel bar says "Sure, but let's have a drink in my room. The bar is crowded and noisy and I'm exhausted."
My heart leaps. Was this a ploy to get me alone in his room? Was he finally going to take advantage of my clear interest in him? "Sounds good," I say, casually.
Back in his suite, he pours us both a drink. Whiskey, neat. It burns my throat, but I enjoy the near immediate buzz I get from it. He makes small talk, but there is a tension in the room. I feel like he is toying with me, waiting for me to make the first move. But I won't. I don't want to make a fool of myself if I have misread his interest. Feeling frustrated, I decide to move to leave. Maybe he'll kiss me goodbye and that will segue into something more.
"I should probably get to bed," I say, standing up. He stands up, too, as if to walk me to the door. I stand facing him. He just says "Jane." His voice sounds thick, as though he wants to say, or do, more.
I look up at him, hoping he'll lean down and kiss me. He places his hands on either side of my head, tilting my face up and looks at me. "What do you want?" he asks.
I look confused. Isn't it obvious? "I want you."
He grabs my hair, pulling it down to force my head back further. "Tell me what you want." This time his tone is rough, demanding. The way he pulls my hair excites me.
I swallow. "I want you to throw me on the bed and fuck me."
He moves a hand to my throat and squeezes lightly at first. "Do you want me to choke you?"
My heart skips a beat. "Yes," I whisper. He squeezes tighter and I feel the pulse in my neck beating against his fingers.
"Tell me," he demands.
"I want you to choke me. I want you to hold me down and use me."
He growls and pulls my shirt over my head. I gasp in anticipation. He loosens his tie and pulls it over his head. When he reaches down, I expect him to embrace me and finally kiss me. Instead, he brings my hands behind my back, loops his tie over my wrists and tightens it, binding my hands together. He wraps the ends around my wrists and knots it again to create a more secure binding.
He seems to know my darkest desires. I feel myself growing wet at the thought of what he will do to me. He still hasn't kissed me and has barely touched me. I want to feel his fingers on my skin, to feel his hands on my breasts. But as he's securing the tie around my wrists, there is a knock at the door. Damn it. I curse the timing of whoever has come to his room.
He doesn't move to answer it right away. Instead, he tells me "I've worked too hard to get where I am to risk my position with a sexual harassment suit." He pushes me down to my knees. I try to explain that I'd never file a complaint, but he cuts me off as he continues "But you clearly aren't getting your needs met at home and I'm sympathetic to that. I owe a favor to a client and I've invited him here tonight." He begins to walk towards the door. "He can give you what you want, while you provide him with a pleasant diversion. It's a win-win. And I get to watch."
I'm horrified. Not only is he not about to fulfill my long held fantasies, he wants to pimp me out to a client, a stranger I have no interest in. I've been faithful to my husband all these years and only considered sleeping with Rick after slowly falling for him over the past year while working closely together. I've had men hit on me many times during my marriage, but I'm not interested in just anyone. Rick is one of very few men I've wanted to be with outside my husband, and the first that I've actually considered following through with.
I watch Rick dumbfounded as he goes to open the door. I start to tug on the tie around my wrists. I hadn't expected to need to untie it myself, so I wasn't paying attention when Rick secured it. It is very tight and although I may be able to get loose with some manipulation, I can't get loose before he lets a stranger into the room to find me on my knees in my skirt and bra, with my hands tied behind my back. I try to stand up, but with no leverage to pull myself up and restricted by my short skirt, I nearly fall over and decide to stay on my knees. I stare down at the ground, mortified as Rick brings in his client. I hear them talking in low tones by the door before I see them.
He introduces me to Victor. I glance up at Victor who looks to be in his mid-50s, with grey hair, but fit and tanned like he has an outdoor hobby. Maybe mountain biking, I think. He flashes an impish smile at me.