Chapter 4 "Bad Grades"
I went to pick Paul up the next morning. He greeted me with a kiss and we drove to school in relative silence.
First period was normal but between first and second John a football player who I've known for years said, "So... Paul huh?"
I didn't know what to say.
I said, "What?"
He said, "He's my neighbor!"
I thought... Fuck what did he see?
I said, "So..."
He continued, "Your car has been at his place every day since Friday."
I had to be red in the face.
I said, "Just studying you know."
He smiled, "That's a lot of studying."
I said, "Studying that's all."
Then I walked away.
Fuck, fuck. Word is going to spread. Should I just come out and announce that we're going out. I really don't want this to get out of hand. Plus with John being a neighbor. He might know even more! I was Fucked. I had to confront him soon.
I grabbed my anatomy notes and headed to class. I sat down and opened my notebook for one last chance to study before the test. But I couldn't even look at it. I kept thinking about what John knew and what he guessed. As the test was passed out. I began to think about the rumors that could be started. Fuck. Rumors or the truth. What could be worse? The truth of my sluttiness and liking it could be worse than rumors. Maybe I should start a mild rumor and Fuck. What am I saying?
After more thought, I looked around the room wondering about who could already know something. When I looked at the desk beside me I saw he was on page 4. Fuck. Fuck. I hadn't even answered one question. I quick tried to concentrate and buckle down and take the test. But with half of the class over already and me on page 1. I was fucked. Plus when I read the question I had trouble remembering what we studied. I kept thinking about being on the table and fucked like a true slut.
I was on page 3 of 8 with 5 minutes left of class. So I quickly answered C for the remaining questions and turned it in.
I wanted to cry. I was a wreck. I put my head down and walked to my locker. Not knowing if I could take anymore of this.
I avoided everyone through 3rd period. On my way to 4th I walked by the lunchroom and saw Paul. I went in and took him aside.
I said, "John is your neighbor?"
He turned pale white, "Oh, yeah."
I said, "fuck. He must know something. Can you talk to him? Or do I need to? We need to know exactly what he knows and then keep it all under wraps. It's ok if it's just a relationship thing. But if he knows more we need to put a stop to it."
Paul said, "I don't really talk to him. So you'll have to. Unless... we could wait until after school and both talk to him."
I said, "Yeah. I'll tell him we need to talk after school. In my car!"
Paul said, "Sounds good!"
I ran to 4th so I wasn't late. As I walked in it seemed like the 3 guys in the back were staring at me. Was it my imagination or did word already spread? Fuck.
Lunch was next.
As I walked toward the lunchroom Ally came up to me and said, "You and me. My car. Now!"
We grabbed lunch passes as seniors can eat off campus. I followed her to my car.
Once inside she said, "You and Paul! I thought you hated him."
I didn't know what to say. I figured half truths would be a good place to start.
I said, "Yeah. I guess I didn't really know him until recently. And yeah. We're now kinda dating."
She said, "why? How did it all start? Last time you got detention because of him."
I put my head down and said, "Well his brother and my brother are friends and well... I had sex with Eric. And Paul knew about it and threatened to expose me to everyone... I didn't want to be known as..."
She said, "So he blackmailed you into spending the last 2
Weekends with him?"
Fuck she knew about the previous week too.
I said, "kinda. But as we spent time together well things kinda... progressed."
She looked at me and said, "So you fucked Paul too?"
I just nodded.
She said, "Damn girl. A family affair! How many is that for you? Five?"
I couldn't say 9. So I just nodded.
She said, "Do you like him? He's well... a loser."
I said, "No he's not. He's nice and caring and well... I got to know him."
She thought and then said, "You fucked him in his bed. Didn't you?"
I didn't think much about that and said, "Yeah."
She said, "Then you spent the night."
I said, "Yeah."
She said, "fuck girl. Now you're a thing. Don't you know that sex in his bed then spending the night, and I would guess naked in his bed, led you to want to become a couple?"
I looked confused as I didn't know about that.
She said, "Rumors has it that you and his friends were there too."
Fuck. Do I lie? Fuck.
I just said, "Yeah. They were there for a little while."
She said, "Girl. You've got to tell me everything. Otherwise I can't stop these rumors from becoming what everyone believes to be true."
Finally I had no choice. I could keep lying to my good friend. She had shared each and every time she had sex with me.
I then told her the truth. The whole truth. The whole gang bang. And even my enjoyment.
When I stopped talking. She looked at me and shook her head.
She said, "girl. What do I say when I hear these rumors then. I mean John I guess heard from outside you yelling and screaming."
I said, "Fuck!!! What?"
She said, "Yeah. He told another guy who told me that he heard you having an orgasm and he knew there was more than just Paul there."
I put my head down. I was done. Maybe the pictures floating around school would have been much better. Now my dignity is totally fucked.
She said, "How about I just deny it and say you were just studying. Even deny about the orgasms he heard."
I said, "Orgasms?"
She said, "Yeah. At least 3 times."
I said, "fuck. Yeah. I don't really care I guess. I'm royally fucked."
She said, "Just deny it. Ok. Got it. Now put your head up and let's go back to class."
I just shrugged and tried my best to put on a smile and keep my head up.
We walked back into school and I headed to my next class. I could hear people whispering as I walked by. I kept thinking. 3 months no 4 fucking months. And I'll be out of here.
The only thing I was happy about was Ally. She was a good friend. She had my back.
I got through the day. I walked to my car and Paul was waiting.
He said, "Where's John?"
I said, "Fuck! I forgot to talk to him. My day has been a train wreck."
He said, "Do you want to talk about it?"
I snapped back and said, "No!"
Paul knew something was wrong and after my rude "No!" he didn't say a word the whole ride home. I didn't care I had too much on my mind. I dropped him off and gave him a quick kiss and left.
At home I felt exhausted, and I was, I laid in bed and fell asleep.
The first thing the next day, in anatomy class, the test was placed on my desk. 42% F!! The teacher wrote "see me after class" on the top.
The room cleared out after class and I walked up to Mr. Hanson. He was one of those teachers who always liked the girls more than the boys. Especially when we wore something showing some skin. He was known for staring at a girls tits if she was showing anything at all.
He looked at me up and down. I was wearing my normal tight shirt and tight jeans.
He said, "Anna, anything going on?"
I said, "Yeah. Just these last few weeks have been tough I guess."
He said, "I can tell. You haven't been concentrating like you used to be. You're an A student with the occasional B but this last test will bring you way down. It's 30% of your grade."
I said, "Yeah. I'm really sorry. Can I retake it? Please?"