This is never where I saw himself.
I was the Vice President of my own finance firm at 40. I did what I wanted, when I wanted, and I had the background and self-awareness that made me successful at every venture I attempted. When I met Lucy that was never truer. I had always been happily detached from relationships, wining and dining plenty of beautiful women over the years. I was content with the setup, but Lucy changed the game on me. A corporate HR rep at my friend's firm, I met her by chance at a dinner party. It wasn't long before we were scaling mountains, taking road trips, and grabbing life by the balls. We were so in our own world that it completely caught him me guard that when, 3 months in, she mentioned she had a daughter.
Jasmine didn't look a whole lot like Lucy, and I always had trouble relating to her and sizing her up. For reference, I stand 6'4", Lucy stood about 5'8", and Jasmine was only about 5'3". I met her when she was 17, so I cut her some slack, but she was just... distant. Not necessarily different than any other 17 year old girl, but we sort of just had this unspoken understanding about what each of us were in each other's lives. And that was just fine for a while. Two years later that wasn't an option.
Lucy died in a car accident 3 months ago. The one thing both Jasmine and I had in common was the way we coped. We got a little closer, but we mostly were shells of ourselves for about a month. When I had to settle some of Lucy's affairs, I was forced with some very confusing decisions. When we married we merged all of our assets, including insurances and dependencies. I was fortunate enough to have a pretty large home, and it became clear to me that I was actually the closest thing to a family member that her daughter had. I really didn't thing I was cut out to be anyone's step-father, and to be honest I didn't want to become her legal guardian. I didn't think I had any legal obligation now that she was 19. But she still lived in my home, and she was doing a post-grad year at a very prestigious all girls school. At the end of the day I felt that, because I had the means, I needed to honor Lucy's memory by giving her daughter a home where she could cope with her mom's passing at her own pace and with someone who had an idea of what she was going through. So I thought that was the arrangement, that Jasmine would live here until she finished college and I would cover her expenses. One daughter, in name if not blood. That was the deal.
What I had never considered was the storms that Lucy weathered while I was working. Jasmine had four really close friends who I knew spent a lot of time at my house. I didn't have many interactions with any of them until a little before Lucy's death, but in that short time I got the lay of the land. All five girls went to the same school and were also doing the post-grad year with Jasmine. I assumed they came from similar backgrounds. I assumed they were as equally adequate as Jasmine. But with Lucy gone, my whole view changed.
Being a legal guardian wasn't very fun, and I came to realize that I may as well have been the guardian for the other four girls. Every night I came home they were there making themselves comfortable. Not bad girls by any means, but not respectful at all of my home or my rules. Over the last two months I had to bail them out of trouble with the authorities six different times, for a variety of offenses. Noise complaints, parties, breaking curfew, drug and alcohol stuff, you know the drill. Every time I tried to contact each girl's parents to have them take responsibility for their girls and explain to me why they always slept at my house, I got nothing. I realized I was being a pushover, so this morning before Jasmine left for school I told her we needed to have a talk about expectations going forward. It was going to be pretty easy I thought. If she was going to do stupid crap with her girls, then just be smart about it. Give me a heads up, ask for permission to do things, etc. I thought I was being extremely reasonable given the circumstances.
"Why?," was all I got from Jasmine. I used a little more force when I told her it was because I said so. She complied and left for the day. Not so bad I thought. I got to work around 9 and planned on staying until 5, my first "normal" work day since Lucy's passing. I was lucky to have some top lieutenants to hold down the fort during our grieving process. As much as I appreciated their help, I needed to lead myself. We had a big client, a huge local real estate company, to discuss a five year partnership. I was on my game, it was Friday, and we nailed our pitch. Just like that, we're inking the deal and everyone is celebrating. Tony, my assistant VP, wanted us all to go out for drinks later to celebrate. I hadn't had fun in months and was looking forward to it. On my way home I forgot I had told Jasmine we needed to talk. I figured it would be fine and take 10 minutes. It would take me another 10 to change and I'd be on the way to Tony's by 6. Simple enough.
When I walked through the door, any good feeling I had left was gone. My downstairs was trashed. Wrappers and bottles everywhere, the distinct smell of vodka and weed permeating through my den and into the kitchen. My neighbor Mrs. Gordon must've noticed me get home and told me what she saw. Tons of kids were here and hightailed it out of here about an hour before I got home. In my head, I was screaming and cursing, but I kept that below the surface. I thanked Mrs. Gordon for her report and proceeded up the stairs.
I heard some giggling coming from Jasmine's room, and I had an idea of what I was going to have to do. As I opened the door the five girls were as comfortable as could be. They were all still in their school uniforms just without the socks and heels. Lounging around, painting nails, working on their laptops, without any sense of worry or concern. Jasmine was laying on her stomach on her bed when she turned around. "Hey Roy, what're you doing here?,". What?, What am I doing here?
At that point any chance of this being pleasant for these young ladies was gone.
I locked the door behind me and grabbed Jasmine off the bed. "ROY WHAT THE FUCK?!?!". Now that I had all the eyes in the room on me, I needed to act fast. I needed to show these girls that under my roof you obey my rules, and I needed to show them that I had all the power.
When I saw them in these barefoot schoolgirls still in their uniforms, I decided in my head that a spanking was going to be the price these girls paid. But it needed to demonstrate my absolute control more than anything. When I saw the footstool next to Jasmine's bed I knew what needed to be done. I grabbed it, placed one leg on it and hoisted Jasmine over my knee. I figured that there was no more submissive or humiliating position for a 19 year old girl to be in than over her step-dad's knee suspended four feet off the ground.
I think it worked, because the other four girls' jaws were basically on the floor over in the corner of the room where they had retreated. At this point Jasmine was kicking and screaming like a child, screaming my name and begging me to put her down. I was doing a good job of keeping my composure when I started to get some fight from the girls in the corner. When I shot them a stink eye, three of the four shamefully looked down. I decided who was going to go last off of that.
Back to Jasmine, I lifted her skirt and yanked her panties off and threw them on the floor. Without hesitation I started working her big round ass over. She was screaming and crying and begging for relief for the entire 5 minutes I kept pounding. Her light tan cheeks were now rosy red, and I was starting to feel her weight. Jasmine, like I said, didn't look a lot like her mom. Lucy was sexy and lean. Jasmine was a cute girl I guess, but she couldn't keep up with Lucy. She was healthy, probably about 120 pounds when I first met her, but over the past couple months she ballooned a little. I would guess she was maybe 140 or so now, with shoulder length blonde hair. She continued to scream. "Please Dad, please stop!" Never thought I would hear that, and gave me a twinge of guilt. But I cared about her and she needed to be disciplined. As I finished my work, I let her breathe a little as she continued sobbing. But what I noticed next kind of freaked me out.