I never thought what I had done to my husband would come back to haunt me. Yes, I had a boyfriend for 2 years, fucking him every possible way, cutting my husband out, but still, when it finally was over, when I finally got caught, and we reconciled a few weeks later, I thought it was over. Yes, I had agreed to do several things I was not very interested in doing myself, but I had gotten used to them. I really didn't expect my infidelity to ever come back to light again, other than in the occasional fight with Charles. I was wrong.
Years later, I was minding my own business one day on a Sunday afternoon when an email came in from an unfamiliar name. Looking at in on my iPhone, it had a pornographic picture of a nude woman laying on a bed with a vibrator sticking out of her. I deleted it, not really looking at it.
The next day, another one arrived. Similar picture. Something was written there, but I ignored it again, just hitting delete. I get a lot of spam email, and it seems the more I report it as spam, the more I get.
The next day, Tuesday, everything changed. Another email came in, but the picture caught my eye. This time the woman wasn't nude. She was wearing a bright red corset with black lace. The picture was obviously a selfie done with a bathroom mirror. Her face was out of frame, but her blonde hair and large breasts were prominent, and so was a certain necklace she was wearing. It all looked familiar. The picture focused immediately in my mind. It was me.
I had taken that picture myself for my boyfriend, several years before. I hadn't seen it in years. Reading the email for the first time, I saw the words: "Dawn - I know what you are. Answer me."
To say I was freaked out is meaningless. I collapsed onto a the floor, terrified. Who was this? How did he get that picture? What was happening here? The fear overwhelmed me for several minutes, until I realized I had to know more about what was happening to me.
I went back into my deleted emails, looking for the first two. When I found them, I realized what I had missed. The first photo had been taken by my boyfriend one day when we met at a hotel for a day of fun. I had let him take pictures, with the agreement he didn't show my face. I had thought that, even had they gotten out in public, I could easily deny that a faceless girl was me.
The second one was also me. He had taken it the same day. In this one, I was lying on my back, totally nude, my shaved pussy center frame, again showing my (then) 34D breasts and blonde hair. Someone who didn't already know it was me would never have known, but I knew.
Both emails had the same message, the same as the first: "I know what you are. Answer me." Someone else knew it was me in the pictures too. I was paralyzed by fear.
What did this person want? How did they get these pictures? How did they find out it was me? How did they find me? I had no answers. I sat on the floor most of the day while I was supposed to be working, terrified beyond all measure. Nothing made sense here. It took me hours, but finally, I decided there was nothing to be done but to answer.
I really didn't want to answer, but I couldn't see any way out. Surely, if I didn't send a reply, sooner or later, these pictures, and others I realized this mysterious person also probably had, would be publicly posted on the internet, probably with my name attached. I couldn't risk that. The only option was to answer and hope for the best.
I sat down at the computer and tried out lots of answers. After an hour, I finally settled on the simple one. One sentence: "What do you want?" I sat for fifteen minutes before I finally tapped "Send".
It took an hour before my phone pinged. It might have been the longest hour of my life until that moment. I really didn't know what to do with myself. I just sat there, staring into space, not focused on anything. Just frightened beyond anything I had ever felt. Something terrible was happening, and I had no control over it.
The sound startled me from my reverie. Snatching my phone up, I saw the response. I didn't focus on the words at first. All I saw was the picture attached.
It had been taken at the same time as the first two. I was lying on my back, nude, pleasuring myself with a vibrator. You could see how big my breasts really were. But unfortunately, there was something else: I could see my face, or at least part of it. There was enough there that someone who knew me casually, if my name was attached, would have been able to identify me. That would tie all the other pics to me as well, as they were obviously the same woman. I knew my goose was cooked.
The message with the picture was even more frightening. "I want you. Your boyfriend carelessly left these pics and all your emails where I could get them. I took the time to track you down and like what I see. Just do what you are told."
There was a break, followed by these words: "Now, go to the bathroom and take a selfie exactly as you are now. Send it to me."
The fear ramped up to a whole new level. You see, as part of my deal with Charles, I had agreed to change myself. If he had divorced me, I would have had to pay him a ton of money. He had supported me all through school, paying my whole cost - tuition, books, my apartment, the car - everything. So I had stayed. He could have ruined me, especially if word of my affair had gotten out and destroyed my career. But there was a price I paid.
I had agreed to do two things. First, I had my breasts enlarged. 600cc into Ds makes for 34Gs. They were now huge. Second, I took care of my appearance all the time. I worked out at least once a day. I had dropped every excess pound, had even a flatter stomach than when I was in school, and looked awesome. 5 foot flat, 105 pounds, 34G-20-28. I knew what I looked like. I also knew what it would do to my stalker.
Worse yet, I had just gotten back from the gym when this all started. I was wearing a black sports bra from Victoria Secret, trimmed in gold, with matching yoga pants, and that was it. I had pulled my hair down when I got home, so I couldn't have shown myself off much better without working at it. Why couldn't I have been in yardwork clothes?
I didn't know what else to do other than give the bastard what he wanted. A delay to change could be a real problem. Somehow he would know. There was no way out. I got up and headed for the bathroom. Looking at myself in the mirror, I saw a beautiful blonde, enormously top heavy, whose body would excite any man. I thought a moment about trying to look bad, but I finally decided to do it right, turning to the side, emphasizing the size of my breasts and flat tummy, and showing my face fully. He had me, so I didn't want to aggravate him.
A quick snap in the mirror and it was done. I sent it back to whoever this was who had me in a bind, hoping against hope that this would satisfy him. There was nothing but silence for a day. Maybe it was over.
No such luck. Midmorning the next day, I heard my email ping as I blew out my hair after showering when I came home from the gym. In my robe, I picked up the phone, only to see these words: "I like what you have done to yourself. How big are they, really? I know they are bigger than before. Send me a pic in the smallest bikini you have."
I collapsed on the floor. This was getting harder each time. But I didn't have a choice. Saying no would just make things worse. The problem is that I have some very small bikinis. I got them for some trips we made to the Caribbean, and they looked awesome on me. Again, I decided to do this right.
It took me a few minutes to dig through my swimwear drawer (it was late summer), but there was my metallic blue bikini. The cups were barely big enough to hold me, and the bottom was hardly bigger, but I was committed. At the last second, I decided to go the whole hog. I slipped on my 8 inch clear platform heels to stack me up right, then snapped the pic in the mirror again.
This time, as I sent it back, along with the admission that I had 34G breasts, I included a question. "Please tell me what you want." I sat down to wait, hoping for a quick response. Of course, nothing came in that day.
By the time Charles got home, I was completely an emotional wreck. He could see something was wrong, but I told him a BS story about breaking a plate. I actually had broken a plate when I dropped it at the sound of my email (more spam), so he bought it and left me alone. I resolved to steel myself better and not let on what was happening inside of me.
It was not until about the same time Thursday that I received a response. I had come to start to dread this time of day. Sure enough, my email pinged, with this response: "To have you, of course. I understand from what you used to tell your boyfriend in your emails that you have a lot of very small, very tight, club dresses. Put one on and send me a pic. Don't forget the heels. I really liked them in the last pic."
I realized that doing this right had made it worse. I also realized I had no choice now. If I resisted at this point, I would pay for it. But I had to do something, no matter how small. I had an idea.