Henry and I had been friends since we were kids. He lived three houses down from me. He was one grade above me, and never let me live it down. He always looked out for me, and I did the same. But we grew up. I watched him get ridiculously hot, and I got more introverted with time. He shot up in height, which only further complimented his dark hair, and even darker features. His face was chiseled, and his body even more so. I had spent most of high school participating in sports and studying. I kept a great body, but never thought too kindly of my facial features, and I kept to myself. Henry was a social butterfly. He was never ashamed of our friendship, but we did just start to grow apart. It was difficult to explain to whoever his girlfriend was at the time who I was. So he normally didn't, and I didn't really mind. The summer of my junior year, I thought our relationship may have changed. Just for a brief moment.
It was a party at Henry's house. It was mostly seniors, but I normally went under the radar anyway, so Henry invited me. I kept to myself, but one of my teammates from the volleyball team was there. She kept feeding me drink after drink. Probably some form of hazing, as she was a senior. I started to feel queasy, and I decided to stumble my way inside the house to find a bathroom. The house was empty and I welcomed the quiet. My head felt like it was pounding. As I made my way to the bathroom I realized I wasn't alone. Some senior I had never formally met, had come into the house. My heart sped up a little as I tried to ignore it as a coincidence. I kept walking to the bathroom, he followed. I put my hand on the door handle and I could feel him behind me. He planted his hand above my shoulder, pinning me to the door. His mouth came down on mine. I tried to push him off of me, but I was already too off balance. This guy had at least 50 pounds on me. Then just as soon as it began it was over. The pressure of his body was gone. There was a flash of bodies on the floor in front of me. Someone had tackled the guy. I flung the bathroom door open and closed it behind me. I sunk to the floor and leaned against the cool tile of the side of the bathtub. It was a few minutes before I noticed the house had gone quiet again. The handle turned and I felt a wave of relief when I realized it was Henry. He closed the door behind him.
"Are you okay?" Henry asked.
"Yeah. Thanks for your help. I am super lucky that you were here."
"It wasn't luck. I watched him follow you in. I don't know who invited him, he's a fucking creep."
"Still, lucky that you had your eye on him."
"He wasn't the one I was watching."
"Yeah I guess I was stumbling a little. I was probably making a fool of myself."
He closed the distance and sat on the bathroom floor with me.
"Do you really think that was why I was watching you?" He asked.
I didn't reply. I just rubbed my temples to attempt to alleviate the pounding in my head.
Henry wrapped his arm around my shoulder. It was platonic. His fingers drew small circles on my upper arm.
"I've missed you." He said.
I looked up at him.
"Me too."
His hand came to the side of my face.
I felt heat rise all over my body.
He brought his lips to mine. It was gentle at first. Then it became needy. His hands found their way to my hips. He brought me onto his lap so I was straddling him. I felt how hard he was. I wanted him. I needed him, but I couldn't lose him. So I pulled away.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"We shouldn't. It just isn't right." I told him.
I stood up and went to the door.
He grabbed my wrist and turned me to him.
"You can't tell me you didn't feel that."
I felt everything. I felt it all.
"No. I didn't. I'm sorry."
His face dropped. He looked defeated.
I ran out of the house. Fortunately it was a stone's throw home.
Ten years later...
I was a second year surgical resident at UVA. This week I was assigned to the trauma bay. I loved trauma. The excitement and the constantly changing dynamic. I hate to use the cliche' that you never know what can happen, but it's true. The problem with working at a reputable hospital is you are bound to run into people you know. If you work in the E.D. or trauma bay, you are seeing those people in conditions that are less than favorable.
I was charting after sending a patient through to surgery, when he walked in through the double doors. Henry had aged way better than most people. He didn't see me over the monitor. I got up to go hide in the doctor's lounge. He saw me. He looked at me. Then nothing. No emotion. No rush of feelings. He looked at me like I was any other person. My hair was blonder, curlier, and I had finally grown into my curves, but I wasn't unrecognizable. Henry and I hadn't spoken since that night that we kissed. He acted as I never existed. I watched him go through girl after girl his senior year. Then he went to college. I continued to exist as a fly on the wall. I went to college at Yale, and found myself finally flourishing. I had great friends. I was doing fantastic in school. I finally found a decent guy to have sex with. He looked nothing like Henry. He was blonde, tan, and built like a truck. We were friends with benefits. He was a graduate student on campus getting his PhD, so he was there for my entire undergrad. He asked me to stay for residency. So naturally I moved about a thousand miles away. Eight years in one place was too long anyways. So I left. I went back to my home state, because the residency program at UVA was sought after. I knew Henry lived in the area, only because my mom used to keep me informed on his whereabouts. I think she secretly wished I would have married him. Ironic.
I started to walk out of the bay, towards safety when a hand came down on my shoulder.
"Dr. Pike?"
"Fuck." I muttered under my breath.
I put on my best patient smile and turned around. Thankfully it was just the head nurse.
"That man is asking specifically for you."
"Fuck." I didn't mutter this time.
"Should I tell him to wait?"
"No, thank you it's fine."
I walked over to Bay 1, which suddenly felt like my own personal hell. He was sitting on the bed. He looked uncomfortable, but not emergent.
"How are you doing today sir?"
"Do I look so bad that you don't recognize me?"
"Nice to see you, is there medically anything you need help with?"
"Yes, but you can't report it."
I reached behind me to close the privacy curtain.
"What do you mean?"
"Just don't report it."