This is a story I never imagined that I would write. Over forty years after the event it is still embarrassing but clear in my memory. What makes it so dramatically out of character is that in those days I was a borderline homophobe like most of my jock friends.
It happened when I got my first full time summer job.
It was at Long Term Care facility working in the kitchen. I remember being elated at having passed the interview process. I was quite shy and usually terrified of doctors but even being told to report to a doctor's office on the far side of the hospital for a pre-employment physical didn't dampen my spirits that day.
I had quite a bit of trouble finding Doctor Kendrick's office. The corridors on that side of the hospital were completely disserted, to this day I don't know why.
I finally found the door with his name on it and went in. All I saw was a desk and a couple of chairs—no people. There were two other doors leading off that room so I knocked on one of them and a deep male voice answered.
"Come," he said.
I opened the door and saw an older, balding, somewhat paunchy man in a white coat sitting at a desk. There was also a standard examination table in the room but little else.
"Can I help you?" he asked removing what I assumed were reading glasses.
"The Personnel Office sent me over here for a pre-employment physical," I informed the man I'd come to assume was Doctor Kendrick.
"Very well," he said. "Remove your shirt and have a seat right here."
He indicated the chair beside the desk, opened a desk drawer and began rummaging through it. Then he opened a second drawer and produced a stethoscope and a blood pressure cuff which he laid on the desk.
I should mention that by this point I would normally have been a nervous wreck. I've never known why, but medical examinations make me extraordinarily nervous and anxious, but for some reason I wasn't this time.
I had removed my shirt and taken a seat. He proceeded to listen to my chest moving the metal disc all around. Then he asked me to lean forward, he shifted his wheeled chair a little to the side and listened to my back.
He asked me if I smoked, which I did at the time. I told him so and he asked how many.
"About eight or ten a day," I replied truthfully.
"Oh well that's not too bad," he responded, which surprised me a little.
It was only 1966 but smoking was pretty universally condemned by the medical establishment. I was relieved not to get a lecture on its evils and it made me feel even more relaxed in a situation that should have had me mortified.
While he was putting the BP cuff on he asked if I was involved in sports. I told him I was. I played pretty much any and every sport with my friends and since I had just completed my first year of high school I played football and ran track in the intramural league.
I want to insert at this point that I was so shy that I used the washroom to change, being too embarrassed to get naked even in front of my male class and teammates.
He asked if I had a girlfriend and I replied that I didn't. As a matter of fact I hadn't really been on anything that could be called a 'date' up to that point. When he was finished taking my blood pressure he said,
"Okay stand up."
Obviously I complied, but then he said,
"Drop your shorts."
Needless to say the command took my breath away. It was mid June and I was wearing a pair of white cut-off denim shorts and running shoes. My T shirt was already off, so lowering my cut-offs would leave me in just my briefs. Even though panic had begun to set in I did as I was told.
I was still holding on to the waistband of the shorts, which was the only thing that prevented them from falling around my ankles, when the seated man sort of plucked the elastic around the top of my briefs and said,
"These too."
I remember feeling my rectum clench and my balls sort of jerk. This was my worst nightmare and it had all started so innocently without warning. I had no time to get stressed out about a medical examination because I didn't know there was going to be one. I had always feared being made to get naked in front of a doctor but amazingly it had never (in my memory) happened up until that point.
What could I do?
I guess I could have pulled up my shorts, grabbed my T and run out the door. That would understandably have negated the employment offer, not to mention making me look like a real baby, so it was unconscionable. I did the only reasonable thing. I released the cut-offs and let them fall, and then lowered my underwear to my knees.
I was now standing all but naked in front of this strange man and I realized that with him still seated my genitals were right about eye level.
As any guy who wears jockeys will know the crotch of the underwear causes your penis to sort of nestle into your scrotum. So that's the display I was putting on; my uncut dick not quite hanging free.
When the seated man reached out and cradled my balls in his left hand I was surprised that his hand actually felt quite warm. Then he pulled my penis free of the nest with his right.
"Hmmm, uncircumcised," he observed. "I'll need to retract your foreskin to have a look at the meatus and corona."
Holding my dick with the thumb and forefinger of his right hand he pulled the loose skin back, while his left hand was still sort of supporting my balls.
I was praying for the ordeal to be over with but couldn't help realizing that this was the first time since I'd reached puberty that anyone had seen my genitals much less touched them. I tensed up as I felt the head of my penis become exposed and there was a sensation in my anus again.
In the flaccid state it's not that easy to get the foreskin all the way back, especially with one hand. The balding man gripped the end of my cock with his left hand, having taken it away from my nuts. By squeezing the head between his thumb and forefinger he was able to completely expose the corona.
I was absolutely shocked at my physical reaction.
Under the light pincer pressure I felt the head beginning to grow. The more it swelled the tighter the seated man's grip seemed. He was looking very carefully at the inside of my foreskin and at the point where the head joined the shaft. If he was aware of the swelling he gave no indication.
"You must be sure to pull this all the way back when you bathe," he instructed at the same time he moved his left hand back under my sack.
That's when it became undeniable—to my horror—that I was starting to get hard.
"Do you ever have any trouble getting it all the way back?" he asked and he tested for himself by moving the skin over the head and back several times.
He was still holding me with two fingers but other than that the motion was mimicking only one thing, and my cock recognized it even before my mind did.
"How often do you masturbate?" he asked while pulling the skin back as far back as it would go.
The question was not only embarrassing; it was shocking. I couldn't be sure but it seemed like he was holding my nuts a bit tighter than before, and I noticed for the first time that his face was so close to my rising dick that I could feel his breath on it.
I couldn't seem to think.
'Should I tell him the truth... should I lie... should I say I didn't do it at all?'
He looked up at me as my silence continued. I can only guess what kind of horror struck, embarrassed to death expression must have been embossed on my teenaged face.
"Come on! You said you don't have a girlfriend... and even if you did everybody does it you know."
As he spoke there was a change in the way he was holding me. A second finger had joined in his grip on my shaft so he was now moving a half an inch or so up and down, pulling the skin back and forth just slightly with his thumb and two fingers.
Again I couldn't be sure if he had increased pressure or if it was because I was swelling—there was no doubt about the swelling. I was about half way erect and praying for it to go down.
"Uh... sometimes," I managed to choke out.
"That's not really what I asked," he replied.
"I'm going to check the entrance to your urethra for inflammation."
I didn't know it was intended as a warning.
He put all his fingers from both hands behind my semi stiff cock and used his thumbs to pry open the slit in the head. He peered into the depths of my pee hole and then repositioned his hands. He now had a full fist grip with his right hand and pushed his thumb up the underside forcing the slit open again, and he didn't stop there. His thumb continued to move up until he was pressing very firmly into the narrow little crease.