Since my evolution from alpha man to pussy boy over what amounted to a month or so, it became readily apparent that Vicki and I had no "relationship" left other than me simply being her sex toy. As a result she informed me that she was not going to pretend anymore and I should pack my things and leave.
I must say that part of me was very relieved given what looked like increasing levels of humiliation by Vicki and her trio of sex crazed girlfriends. However, I also new that another part of me had been extremely turned on being dominated by these women who were all hot in their own unique ways.
In any case I packed up and left while Vicki was out for the evening again and tried to get my head around starting a completely new chapter as a singly guy again.
Weeks went by and I focused on work and went out with the boys but my head just wasn't into the pick up routine in the bars and I seemed to have lost my macho mojo so anything that happened was only because someone came onto me in a strong manner.
I had some flings with some of these women and while they were the ones who initiated sex and seemed comfortable with that role, my passivity seemed to not be what they were looking for so they were all short term hook ups.
I started getting immersed in porn and taking care of my own sexual needs rather than going through all the hassle that went with new relationships. I would typically smoke a doobie and get lost in various fantasies through erotic stories or Pornhub clips. I seemed to gravitate to stories of dominant women again who wanted me to service them or scenario's where my partner wanted to have sex with other men and got off on me either hearing about it or watching them get fucked.
I became reclusive socially and I believe addicted to both getting stoned and jerking off to porn. I only socialized at work and minimally with the lads any more since they were either in a relationship or trolling bars for a hook up. I didn't have much interest in either scenario.
One day as I was strolling through a local mall, I ran into Sherrie and Suzie who I hadn't seen since they had made me their sex toy. It was awkward for me in the moment and they seemed to enjoy my discomfort. Strangely I was getting hard just being in their proximity and I think they may have noticed and peppered me with questions.
"What have you been up to David?" Sherrie said and Suzie added: "Are you seeing anyone, we haven't seen you around any of the usual haunts?"
"Uh no, I have been keeping a pretty low profile and really just focusing on my work" I offered.
They glanced at each in that conspirative way and Sherrie said that they were getting together for some drinks this coming Friday at her place and I "should" join them, that it would be good for me to get out for once.
I said that thanks but I think I am busy this Friday which we all knew was bullshit.
Suzie said that's too bad since they might be reviewing the recordings they still had and perhaps I wanted to take them back for my own interest and piece of mind.
"You still have those?" I gasped, although I had wondered on many occasions what became of them, which caused me great anxiety and only contributed to my evolving reclusive behavior.
Again the conspiratorial smirks, and Sherrie said that of course they hadn't thought of them for some time and didn't want to cause me any embarrassment, that all they were interested in was for me to join them for a few drinks and have some laughs about old times.
There was an uncomfortable silence that was likely much shorter than it felt like and Sherrie said "Great, see you this Friday at my place, anytime after 8 Dave.", and they were gone leaving me there trying to figure out what just went down.
Needles to say I spent the next few days ruminating on what to do, thinking that I desperately wanted those recordings and wanting to believe that they would simply hand them over as we have been friends for a number of years albeit through Viki. On the other hand I had these complicated feelings of sexual excitement again with these women, that simply being in their presence made me hard and knowing that going over to their get together could lead to replaying "old times" and that was both exciting and very scary.
Friday rolled around and in my head I still didn't know what I was going to do and got home from work, had a beer and thought I would smoke a doobie to relax a little. This of course was a mistake and at a subconscious level I knew this because smoking a doobie is associated with porn and I immediately became horny as my monkey brain roamed around from pillar to post about my dilemma.
I was going to go over to Sherrie's, convincing myself that I would just have a few drinks, some laughs and I would bring home the embarrassing evidence of my submission to these women.
I knocked on the door and Sherrie greeted me with a big smile and hug. Given her huge breasts that were filled into a little t-shirt, it was a very pleasant experience.