"But I really want this one," said Jenny while flashing Cameron those puppy dog eyes she used so effectively in the two years they have been together.
He stared at the laptop screen for a moment and sighed under his breath, recounting all the things he needed to do to keep her happy and to remain in her good graces; almost since day one of their relationship. He certainly hadn't been thrilled with his situation, and felt that whatever dignity he hoped to salvage had been shredded in this most recent cycle of jumping through hoops and asking, "How high?"
He had no idea why he was putting up with this, and no idea why he felt so paralyzed in this relationship. But deep down he knew. He just didn't want to admit it.
He was twenty-one years old and Jenny was his first, as was he for her. They hadn't gone all the way but blow jobs and some anal action—on those special occasions such as birthdays and relationship milestones—were good enough to keep him locked down, as was the hope that one day soon, she would want the whole smash as much as he did.
He put up with her whining and complaining, the petty arguments, the endless time-consuming phone calls and texts requiring him to profess his love for her, and the constant emptying of his wallet; all in an effort to routinely satisfy his need to bust a nut. Besides, he had no other prospects in the queue, and at his age, jerking off to some porn was good; but a mouth wrapped around a cock was infinitely better. But unlike Cameron, Jenny had options.
She recently befriended another young man at a local club, and Cameron knew he was up against it. He had seen some of the text messages the two had exchanged and although the evidence wasn't entirely incriminating, it was suspect. Even though he didn't have much experience with women, he could sniff out the light flirting and the suggestive overtones of some of their conversations. Yet he held on to what was familiar, having no real desire to go back to using his hand.
He didn't need to turn to face her. He could see her puppy-dogging him through his peripheral vision and sighed once more before purchasing her new music.
She wrapped her arms around him and nuzzled his neck, then kissed him under his ear and said, "I love you," to which Cameron replied in an impassive, monotone manner.
"I love you too."
"You are the best!" she returned, while kissing him on his lips, and moving her hands down his back to his waist. "I think you need some special attention."
Inside, Cameron felt dead; like he had been floating in a raft on a motionless, endless sea of black, with no means of mustering up the fortitude to paddle through the water. He had just spent his last few dollars on her again, and was faced with the cold, hard reality that he wouldn't be getting his checking account replenished for another six days. For a split second, he hoped that his car would run on fumes.
But that thought quickly exited his mind because Jenny had since unbuttoned his jeans and reached inside his briefs. No matter what was going on in his head, the one that mattered at this moment responded right on cue.
She gently began rubbing and massaging his ever-expanding cock and lightly prodded his balls. Cameron felt the thoughts of inadequacy melt away as he leaned back in his chair to give her more room to work. She planted more soft, light kisses on his neck while taking hold of his shaft, still inside his pants, and gently stroking it.
'Talk about enthusiasm,' he thought, as he relaxed into the sensation, while wondering what it would be like to get a real blowjob; like those crazy-ass ones that seemed so routine in the porn he viewed when he was feeling down about his plight. Those girls seemed to be enjoying it.
Jenny gradually pulled his cock free and played with its head with her index finger and thumb.
"You are so lucky!" she said as she moistened her fingers with her saliva, then rubbed it on the underside of his shaft. "I don't even want you to do me today."
'Fabulous. She's saving it for someone else,' he thought, before quickly removing that sobering thought from his brain. The least he could do was enjoy his free pass.
Jenny added more saliva to his dick before getting up and leaving the room. Cameron heard the door of the linen closet open and then close. As usual, she returned to the room with a washcloth in hand. She then sat down on the floor between his legs, placed the washcloth on her lap, and said, "Remember, tell me when you're about to cum."
'Yeah, yeah,' he thought.
Cameron knew the drill. He saw this act each and every time he got blown. It was just part of the territory—required if he wanted to continue to receive head, so he nodded in acknowledgement.
Jenny was a priss to the Nth degree, so it made sense that she had no desire to taste, swallow, or be anywhere near the zip code of Cameron's load. In the past, there had been a few close calls, including one streamer that went directly over her head, one that grazed her neck before landing on the sheets of the bed, and one that sprang forth from the washcloth that enveloped his cock, which was entirely her fault but his cross to bear anyway. She was repelled by the thought of cum let alone the horror she experienced when forced to dodge it.
But what was even worse was that Jenny thought she was the shit, and her blowjobs were top notch. She made it a point to say so herself each and every time Cameron's load was funneled into that washcloth. And as he thought about this, he couldn't help but feel small pangs of resentment intrude on his soul. He'd done everything required of him as a boyfriend, he thought, and yet there was compromise on this one.
Is it really that bad? Is it that vile and disgusting?
Cameron pushed those thoughts out of his mind when Jenny gently placed her lips around his fully engorged head. She lightly circled her tongue over and around it while placing her hand at the base of his shaft and gave it a few good tugs. Gradually, she worked her mouth over his head and partially down his shaft while continuing to stimulate him with her hand.
Cameron felt her tongue glide over the underside of his cock and placed his hand at the back of her head, encouraging her, begging her to take him deeper. Upon feeling this light pressure on the back of her skull, she opened her eyes, stopped her motion, and looked directly into his eyes while holding her mouth on his shaft. Cameron knew exactly what that meant.
"Can't blame a guy for trying, right?" he said as she let out a groan in disapproval. He dropped his hands by his side in compliance.
She then returned her attention to his head in a teasing manner. She knew what he wanted but wasn't going to give it up so quickly. Besides, she really didn't like the feeling of a cock sliding into the back of her mouth and tickling her throat.