MONDAY
Alicia heard her cell phone's annoying alarm go off.
"Fuck..."
Groggy and very sore, she rolled out of bed and walked into the living room. She had slept next to Tommy last night after the party. Still nude, she walked around trying to find her clothes. She found her shorts and panties in front of the couch. Her shirt was jammed in a couch cushion with her bra.
After she got dressed, she felt strange. She was so used to being naked, that putting on clothes seemed foreign to her. She was still dressed in Tommy's shirt that she had worn before. Before she left, she remembered to grab her other shirt. The front of it was still covered in dried cum.
It was 6:04am when she left Tommy's apartment. She wanted to make sure she had her father's truck back to him before he woke up. This was the second time in two days that she's left Tommy's apartment without waking him up. This time, however, she slept in bed with him instead of on his couch.
The ride home was very relaxing. There were barely any cars on the roads; the air was cool; the sun shined through the passenger seat, warming her bare legs. She couldn't help but smile. This morning felt absolutely perfect to her.
She also thought about the events of the weekend. She had gone from a mild-mannered and shy, nerd to arguably the biggest slut in town in a matter of three days. She left a trail of pleased men in her wake as she went on a sexual rampage having sex with twenty-four different men.
Her sexual activity and "slut" status didn't shake her. She wasn't ashamed by it all. "This must be how girls like Susie Decker feel," she thought. "It must be so liberating to be like her." Alicia didn't look up to Susie, but she admired her resolve. The entire town called her a "slut" and a "whore" and people went out of their way to shame her for being promiscuous. Despite their attempts, Susie still looked confident and kept doing whatever (and whoever) she wanted.
She wanted that kind of freedom. She never knew that she wanted this newfound sexual freedom until the gangbang at the bar Friday night. It awakened something inside of her - a burning desire to explore her sexuality as often as she wanted without shame or guilt. So far, she feels that she has been able to do that. She wasn't sure if Tommy would care if she fucked other guys because they were now dating. That question would have to wait to be answered.
She was home.
Alicia slowly turned the doorknob and walked inside. She didn't want to wake her father if he was asleep. She set the keys down on a night stand as she tip toed toward her room.
"Alicia?" she heard her father call out.
She backed up and looked in the kitchen to find her father seated at the table, disheveled and drinking a large cup of coffee. He looked like he had not slept in days.
"Hi daddy," she greeted him and gave him a hug. "How's your morning?"
Instead of immediately answering her, he looked up at her. The expression on his face answered her question. He looked like he was grieving. Concerned, she sat down and asked him, "What's the matter, daddy? Are you OK?"
He took another long sip of black coffee and responded, "No. I'm not OK."
His tone was deep and foreboding. She wasn't sure why he was so upset, but she felt that she would soon find out.
"Tell me what's wrong..." she pleaded.
Her father took a deep breath and answered, "You."
Offended, she asked, "Why am I the problem?"
"Where have you been all weekend?" he asked with accusing tone.
"Why does it matter where I was at? You said it was OK for me to out as long as I had the truck back to you this morning!"
He shook his head and took another sip.
"You don't get it. You just don't get it."
"Well? Help me understand it then. Why are you so upset with me? Why does it matter what I did all weekend?"
"My little girl is gone."
That remark broke her heart. She had never heard her father speak to her that way before. She had always been daddy's little girl and now it was clear that her father no longer saw her that way.
"No she's not! She's right here! I'm still here daddy!" she shouted, with tears in her eyes.
"You don't get it," he repeated.
"Help me! You're not saying what I don't understand! You're not making any sense!"
"My little girl...was supposed to pure and innocent...she was supposed to stay that way..."
He was talking about what happened Friday night.
"YOU were the one who asked me to be in the show Friday night! Remember?"
Solemnly, he answered, "I know...I've regretted that decision for three days. That's how long it's probably been...since I had a good night's sleep."
"What are you so pissed off about? That I had sex with those guys? Is that it?"
"Yes. That night changed you, Alicia..."
He was right - it did change her. She thought that it had been a positive change, but her father felt differently. He felt it had ruined the image he had of his beloved daughter.
"Not really? I'm still basically the same girl I was before!" she stated, defending herself. While she did undergo a change, at heart, she was still the same as she was before.
"Everything has changed now. I can't...even look at you without...thinking of you and those guys. I haven't been to the bar since Friday night. I don't know if I can go back, knowing that my baby girl was gangbanged there by thirteen guys!"
He was raising his voice and starting to match his daughter's frustration and intensity. They didn't fight much, but she felt that they were about to.
Upset and offended, Alicia replied, "So what? I fucked thirteen guys! Big deal! I don't care! And neither should you! I'm STILL your baby girl! Are you not going to get over this?"
He shook his head again.
"What have you done all weekend? Have you been..."
"...been what, daddy? Whoring around? Is that what you want to know?"
"You're never gone a whole weekend. You're always here. After what you did, you're conveniently absent from home," he stated.
She was getting more upset by the minute. Her father no longer saw her as his little girl anymore, which was worse enough - now he was basically calling her a whore.
"That's none of your business!"
"It's not? It's none of my fucking business?" he shouted, slamming his fist on the table, shaking his coffee and startling Alicia. "It's MY house you live in! What you do is MY business! Now what have you done all weekend?"
She wanted to burst into tears. She wanted to be anywhere but here. This conversation was not something she expected. She thought that her father would have gotten over what happened at the bar and that he wouldn't care where she had been - she was wrong.
This conversation felt like the one she had with Peter yesterday morning. The same anger. The same accusing, judgmental tone. Everything matched.
"If he's going to treat me this way, I might as well tell him what I've been up to. I'm already a whore to him, so what's it matter?" she thought.
"You want to know what I've been doing all weekend? Huh!? I'll tell you what I've done. Or rather WHO I've done! I fucked Tommy, his roommate, and TEN of his friends! I was gangbanged again! Your little girl WAS whoring around! How do you like THAT!?"
Her father was stunned. His face registered nothing. A minute ago, he was full of rage - now he's void of emotion. Her father was hoping that there was still a fragment of the little girl he knew inside of Alicia, but what she just said crushed all hope that he had.
A moment, which seemed like a thousand moments, passed until he finally spoke up.
"You've...become like your mother."
It was Alicia's turn to sit in silence. It was as if the two of them were trying to out-do one another by seeing who could hurt the other more.
Alicia stood up and stormed out the door.
Outside she sat down below the steps to their apartment and cried. Tears ran down her face and fell on to the concrete. She sat with her head resting on her forearms so that no one could see her. No one could see her face, but they could hear her crying.
A woman approached her and asked, "Honey, are you OK? What's wrong?"
She looked up to see the woman holding a tissue. She reached forward and took it from her.
There was no way she could tell a complete stranger about the conversation she just had with her father, so she said whatever she could to get her to leave her alone.
"I'm...fine. Thank you. I just found out that...my uncle died."
"Oh you poor dear! I'm so sorry. Is there anything I can-"
"No! Just leave me alone please!"
The kind stranger frowned and walked away. Alicia felt bad for lying to her and shouting at her. She wasn't sure what to do next. She didn't want to stay with her father, but she couldn't just leave - she had no transportation.
Then it her - she'd call Tommy.
She sat up, wiped her face with her sleeve and took her phone out. Just before she could find Tommy's number, someone familiar pulled up in the parking lot.
It was Peter.
Alicia's face wore a mixture of confusion and defeat. Peter's was the same angry face her father had.
She wasn't sure what Peter wanted. All she knew was that he couldn't have come at the worst time.
"What do you want?" she asked.