Day 4
Darkness was her first enemy to overcome. It wasn't that Sarah was afraid of it exactly, and it certainly would have bothered her more in a larger room. There she wouldn't be able to see what might be lurking out there, leaving her imagination free to fill in those gaps with the worst sort of night terrors of course, but she could deal with that. In here though, the combination of silence and darkness made it impossible to keep track of time. It was impossible to tell one hour apart from another, and soon it would be impossible to tell one day from another. Until now she'd kept track of her captivity by sunsets, and knew this was her fourth day of torment, but if he kept her in here too long, she would have no idea if it was her fifth day, or if a whole week had passed her by. The thought was unnerving.
As time passed, it didn't take her long to realize that this room was colder and damper than the one she'd been kept in previously. Despite his monstrous behavior, he'd kept the room he forced her to live in naked at around 70 degrees, but this tiny closet had to be closer to 60 and falling. This left Sarah one of several bad choices, as the tiny blanket in here was not big enough to both wrap herself in and sit on. She could either sit on it to keep the ground from sucking out her body heat, or she could wrap it around her body and sit on the cold concrete. There was no other choice.
What would possess one, she wondered while she wrapped her arms around her body and tried to stay warm, to build a dungeon for your dungeon? Surely most kidnapers and rapists would be content to have one dark and terrible room to keep their victims; why would you need a second, worse one too? The answer seemed obvious after she thought about it for a bit: to break them faster. If you wanted to make a hell seem appetizing, then simply build a worse hell next door and see how long it took your captives to beg to be allowed to stay in the least worst option. She couldn't deny the logic, or the appeal; a couple more hours in here and she would gladly beg her rapist to go back to her own bed.
The thought shocked her. Her own bed. She couldn't allow herself to think like that. This wasn't her place. This wasn't her life. She wasn't going to stay here. She was going to get home, and soon, and then she would make this asshole pay for every moment of suffering inflicted on her.
It was only after a couple hours that she realized the worst part of the room wasn't the darkness as she had first thought, or even the cold. It was the size. It was just small enough that she couldn't lay down in any direction. Not even diagonally from corner to corner. Likewise she couldn't stand. She could squat over the bucket and use it as the toilet it was no doubt intended to be, but there was no hope of finding a comfortable position to sleep in.
At first, she tried to sit in the lotus position on her little mat and meditate away the discomfort. That worked for a while, but eventually the cold was too bad, and it gnawed at her every thought. Hour after hour she imagined this room slowly sucking the life from her. In the end, if her captor left her down here too long, he'd come back to find nothing but a freeze-dried corpse. That thought didn't terrify her as much as it probably should have. In some ways it qualified as an escapist fantasy, she thought. At least until she realized that if she died in a hole like this, not only would no one ever know the truth about her, but he would just go out and steal another young woman like her.
Did that make her responsible for staying alive so no one else would suffer this fate? She couldn't decide and decided to try to cum a time or two to keep herself warm instead because thinking was too hard. Sarah had to stop after only a couple of minutes though because as she fantasized about making love to her boyfriend Rob, her fantasies kept morphing to being taken by her rapist instead and it disturbed her more than she could say. He might not have conquered her yet but he had certainly invaded her, and was laying siege to her subconscious.
She was shivering intermittently now, after who knows how long in this awful little box. Who knew how much longer she would have to stay here? A few more hours? A day? A handful of days? Certainly it couldn't be more than three or she'd die of dehydration, and he didn't want her dead, did he? Sarah tried to remember how many times she had napped, or how many times she'd used the bucket, but couldn't be sure of either number. It had been longer than hours, but less than days she was pretty sure.
Sarah folded herself into a little ball in a fetal position in the center of her small world, careful to avoid touching any of the walls to avoid the cold. In this position she had the smallest footprint she could manage, and if she folded it just right she could lay on her quilt and fold it over her. It wasn't a blanket that kept away the cold like this... it was a taco that kept the cold from becoming freezing. That was all. This gave her just enough warmth to fall asleep fitfully, but that was an awful experience too, because each time her muscles would start to cramp too much her body would stretch out an arm or leg in her sleep, and touch the frigid walls or ground, waking her back up again.
It reminded her of the time she had gone camping with the girl scouts when she was a kid with a cheap sleeping bag not meant for anything close to cold mountain nights. It had been enough to keep her alive and miserable, but not much more. In the pitch dark of this stupid little room, it was doubly bad though. Every time she woke up she had no idea if she had fallen asleep for 10 minutes or two hours. It made time warp in all sorts of unfortunate ways. Was night over yet? Was the week over? God she was thirsty. This was impossible.
Sarah alternated her bouts of terrible sleep with her desire to get things back under control. She counted, she sang, she screamed, and she cried. She mostly cried as this tiny little hell of her own making slowly began to consume her. She read once that sailors stranded on desert islands began to hallucinate after 24 hours as their minds broke down. What did that mean for her, she wondered, between bouts of sleep. Which would fail first? Her rape traumatized mind or her hypothermic body? Sarah noticed she'd stop shivering, even though she was still very cold. Did that mean it was daytime now, or that she'd gotten so cold her body no longer considered shivering to be a good use of calories?
Day 5