This is my story of disgrace and I am bearing it within me without much qualms of conscience because along with disgrace and humiliation, it also fulfilled my long cherished dream.
I am Smriti, aged 32 years, married and mother of a son, who is just 15 months old. I was married to Vikash, at the age of 26. Vikas was then 31, handsome and energetic young man. But even after four years of marriage, I didn't get pregnant. I insisted that we should consult doctor but Vikash never agreed. Perhaps his male ego felt hurt. I was trying my best to adjust to the situation though I longed to bear Vikas' child. In fact, there was no shortcoming in our sex life and we made passionate physical love at least four times a week even after four years of marriage.
The disaster set on at that stage. I was already past 30 years by then. It was a scorching summer day. Vikas was in office and I was alone at home. At around midday, two sages appeared in front of our home. Both had long beard, marks of sandal paste, turmeric and vermilion on their foreheads. They were clad in long and loose saffron robes that covered from their shoulders to the ankles. Their heads, including a part of their foreheads, were covered under saffron turbans. Both looked to be around fifty years of age. They had kamandalu or the metallic water bowl that ascetic's carry in their hands as well as metallic thongs. They asked for some help financial or otherwise.
The grill of the main entrance was locked and we never unlock it unless the person visiting is well known to us. So in their case also I spoke to them from the other side of the locked grill. I told them that it was lunch time and I didn't have much money to help them. They humbly told that I could give whatever I could afford and that they were visiting each house in the locality for help.
I gave them a fifty rupees note, which they gladly accepted. Then they were about to depart when one of them asked if he could have a glass of water as he felt very thirsty. I brought a glass of water for him and handed it over through the gaps of the locked grill door.
The ascetic, who was drinking the water, almost finished it in a moment and then said in Hindi that he felt sorry to disturb but would appreciate if I could give another glass of water to him. I fetched another glass of water for him. This time, he was drinking slowly. The other ascetic with him was conversing with me about the members of my house. When he came to know that I and my husband live in the house, he advised me that it was time to have children. Though shocked internally, I didn't tell him about my failure to conceive so far.
The other ascetic, in the meantime, had finished drinking water and said with a note of appreciation and sarcasm that I was a careful woman and though I gave him water I didn't ask them to come inside adding at the same time that it was very good to be careful now a days as there were too many frauds and criminals in the city.
The other ascetic also advised me to be careful since I stay alone at home during the day time. They were preparing to leave when one of them handed over to me a root like thing and advised to keep it in the bedroom for health and prosperity. The ascetic who had drank water, brought out an incense like item, lighted its tip and still holding it in his hand advised me to keep it near the Tulsi (holy basil) plant that was just near the main entrance. The other ascetic brought out a paste like thing, took a little in his index finger and gestured me to take my forehead near the grill to put the paste on my forehead. I took my forehead nearer from the other side of the locked grill. As he put the paste like a round mark of worship on my forehead, the other ascetic was holding the burning incense near me and involuntarily I smelled the smoke.
I didn't know what happened to me after that. I was in a state of trance like a patient being anesthetized. I faintly remember someone asking me in Hindi when my husband was likely to return, since when we were married, whether I wanted to bear healthy child etc. I was replying without being fully aware of the situation. But even in that state I declined to answer when someone asked me an intimate question about the frequency of my mating sessions with my husband. Even I partially remembered that someone asked me to open the grill gate, which I refused.
But then I had no idea how much time lapsed or where I was. Suddenly, severe pain on my breasts brought me to my surrounding reality. I found myself lying on our bed in the bedroom and the two men were sucking my nipples hard from two sides. It took sometime for me to recover from the disoriented mental state. When I partially recovered, I realised to my utter shock, that I was completely naked on the bed and there was not a single thread on my body. The hands of the ascetics were groping my privates. I screamed in horror but perhaps due to trance like condition, I found my own voice coming from far away.
Realising that I was in danger, I cried and asked the ascetics most pitifully in Hindi, "Why are your doing this to me? Please ler me go."
One of the ascetics started groping my thighs and the mound between my legs and whispered, ""It's your home, why will you go? We will go away once we have finished our task with you."
I replied sorrowfully pleading to them, "Why are you spoiling me? Leave me please. I will not tell anyone."
One ascetic lustily took one of my breasts in his palm and while kneading my boob most brutally said, "Anyway you're not going to tell anyone. We have all the photos of your naked sexy beauty. You will keep mum if you want to keep this a secret."
The other ascetic said, "There is nothing to be ashamed of. We have already seen every inch of your body. You're really sexy and beautiful. See, we could have spoiled you while you were half conscious. But we waited till you become fully aware about what we are doing so that you enjoy it and scream in pleasure asking for more."
I knew with these fake ascetics I had no chance to convince them to spare me. I could see wicked lust in their glances. So I decided to run away from their clutches. Suddenly I got up from the bed and ran fast towards the door completely naked. But by the time I reached the door a giddiness overtook me, I supported by holding the corner of a table. The ascetics were startled at my sudden move but as I balanced my giddy head, both ran behind me. One of the caught me and took my naked body on his lap while the other locked the bedroom door from inside.
The man who took me on his lap threw me roughly on the bed and slapped me so hard on the face that I reeled under its cruel impact. The other man had returned near bed and kept slapping on the buttocks severely for sometime till my butts turned red. I screamed in pain. The man, who was slapping my buttocks, said in a rough voice, "You display a little more disobedience, we will leave such marks on your body that everyone will know what had been done to you."
The other man seemed crueler and suggested, "Let's bite her cheeks and boobs and her inner thighs leaving our marks there. Once her husband returns she could explain what happened to her."