It has been twenty years since I was violated against my will by six strangers and although I am ok to talk about it I have never taken the time to write the experience down. A friend suggested it a few years ago, saying it could be therapeutic but I had not gotten around to it until now. If you find this a little disturbing you can imagine how it must have been for me and perhaps by reading this you can appreciate what women go through during a rape.
It was actually 24 years ago when it happened. I was in my late thirties and all was well with my world. My husband, an oncologist, had a very advancing career and was doing well. Our marriage, like any other was ok, but not great. Sex was limited to two or three times a week and for those that know me you can appreciate with my high libido that I require more.
I have two sons 8 and 10 at the time and I had been working at my job (I am currently still there) for at least 15 years. We were a small company and my boss, the owner, was a friend of my husband from college. In fact, I met my husband because of my boss and we are pretty good friends. It was quite difficult during a business trip when my boss and I had a fling, but that, as they say, is another story.
We lived downtown at the time, about a twenty minute walk from our condo to my office. My morning ritual was pretty structured. I walked to the gym (about 10 minutes away) and did a rigorous aerobic routine for about 30 minutes. The irony is that I still do the same routine religiously every weekday. I am very vain and somewhat shallow and need the reassurance of knowing that I can still turn heads.
Although my breasts have sagged from a 36C to a 36D they are still firm and somewhat perky. My tummy is tight and my butt has not yet fallen, like it has in so many women. I began a demanding excessive program after the birth of my first child and have not let up. 24 years ago my body was quite amazing (allow me a little self-promotion here, as I work hard to stay in shape). I also believe that 'if you have it, flaunt it' and I wore and still wear somewhat revealing clothes. I dress in business suits most days with ample cleavage visible to anyone who wants to look.
My sexual promiscuity has, unfortunately, got me into trouble on more than one occasion and I think it is really unfair that men cannot not stop thinking with their dicks. Sure I could dress like a nun, but hey, that is just not me.
So, back to the day in question. We had just had a time change and it was getting dark early again. My route from work to home took me through a park. I could bypass the area, but that took 15 minutes longer so I never did. I had been cautioned by my boss not to walk through the park and I finally told him that I didn't anymore. I was tired of the nagging. My husband was even worse. He forbade me to take that route, reminding me constantly of the unsavory characters which hung out there. I told him the same; that I stopped walking through the park. It was like having two fathers telling me what to do.
On this particular day I was sitting at work when a delivery came. The courier, a tall, quite muscular black man with a goatee walked to my desk and handed me a package. I noticed him staring at my chest, which I always find flattering. I was wearing a blue suit (jacket and skirt - a few inches above my knee) and a white 'V' necked sweater, perhaps a little too tight. I was wearing an open cup bra so my nipples we quite visible. It was also a little chilly in the office, which accentuated the situation.
I was about to sign for the package when I realized it was the wrong address. The courier looked at it, grunted and more or less left without saying much. I continued with my day and never thought any more about it. I left the office around five and began my walk home. I decided to stop and get some take-out food, as my husband and kids were away for a few days on a 'bonding' trip, which was really an opportunity for a little 'me' time.
I had just entered the park, the way I always do and walked briskly, as it the fall air was getting quite chilly. I thought I saw some movement ahead, but it was dark so I could not be sure. A moment later I felt an arm around my waist and another over my mouth. I tried to scream but his powerful hand cupped my mouth. Suddenly I felt two hands on my ankles and I was swooped up and carried through the darkness. They set me down and I felt tape of some sort bind my wrists from the back. A bag was placed over my head and I heard a car door open. I was pushed in and I could feel one of the men slide in beside me. I heard the front door slam and assumed the other was driving. We drove about 45 minutes and I was quite frightened at what was happening to me.
The man beside me was uttering comments about my body. He said I had nice tits and suddenly his hand groped them. I tried to shrug away but there was no use. He also started to feel me up pulling at my panties and crudely sticking his finger inside me. It was disgusting and I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. We finally came to a stop and I was dragged from the car. I was taken through what seemed a door to some sort of room and when I heard a door behind me close the bag over my head was removed.
It took me a few minutes to become accustomed to the light and I realized I was in an old house. I was staring at four men, two seated on a couch and two in chairs. They were smiling and one made the comment that 'Lionel' did well. He had a greasy smirk on his face and the thought of his filth turned my stomach. One of the men behind me grunted and I assumed he was Lionel. I turned and was shocked. It was the courier who earlier that day had stopped in my office. I tried to speak, but as soon as I opened my mouth the back of his hand swung across my face. He told me to shut up. I obeyed.
The other man, who had taken me was smaller in stature than Lionel and had funny, pointed hair and a very pointed beard. He resembled a black leprechaun. Two of the men in front of me were also quite large and very black skinned. They smiled and their teeth sparkled. One was totally bald and the other looked like Sydney Portier. The two on the couch just sat there. One was white and one was black, but they were much younger than the others. I looked around, as much as I dared and saw only blackness outside. I was told that I could scream all I wanted to because we were on a farm and no one would hear.
The man who resembled Sydney Portier seemed to be in charge. He looked me up and down and explained that all they wanted was to have a little fun. He said that Tyrone, the younger black on the couch was a virgin and I had been selected to initiate him into manhood. I shivered at the prospect and stared at Tyrone. He looked back but said nothing. Sydney told me that they wouldn't hurt me if I obeyed. The more I struggled and opposed the worse it would be. I wasn't about to give in so quickly and when the leprechaun moved in front of me I spat on his face. I could see the flare in his eyes, but the laughter from his friends was humiliating and he slapped me across the face. He called me a bitch and hit me again. I began to cry and just stood there. He reached down and slowly lifted my skirt. I wore (and still wear today) stay ups, which he knew from his little feel-up in the car. He rolled one down and then the second. He told me to step out of them but put my heels back on.
Next I felt Lionel cut the tape which bound my hands, but he held them tightly. I could feel his strength and was not about to try and pry free. The leprechaun unbuttoned my jacket and slipped it off. Lionel again using tape bound my wrists behind me. I saw the men staring at my chest as my breasts pushed forward because of my arms tied behind my back. I also knew my nips were poking forward and wished now that I was not a large as I was.
The leprechaun sat down and the bald guy stood and walked toward me. He showed me a sharp knife and smiled as he brought his face closer. Using the knife like a surgeon he began to cut my white sweater from the bottom to the top. He then opened it up and rolled the sleeves down my arms and cut them until they fell to the floor. I was shaking as I stood in my bra before these animals.
Next he moved behind me and unzipped my skirt letting it fall to the floor. I was cold and scared and stood there almost nude wearing nothing but my bra and panties. Sydney asked the white boy if he liked what he saw and he eagerly said yes. "Maybe, if there is still some left after Tyrone is finished you can have some," he smiled as he spoke and nodded for the bald guy to continue.
He moved behind me and I felt his large hands unclasp my bra. Using his knife he cut the straps and slowly the undergarment fell to the floor. My breasts fell free and the groans and remarks from the men meant they were enjoying the sight. I did notice that Tyrone quietly looked on. "What do you think, Tyrone?" Sydney asked. "Like to see big titties?" I watched but Tyrone just nodded shyly.
A moment later I felt the bald guy pulling my panties down from behind, exposing my womanhood to the onlookers. He walked around the front and stood beside Lionel, who had moved in front of me for a better view. I was sobbing as I stood humiliated, wearing nothing other than my blue pumps. "Nice cunt," Sydney said, "But it's so hairy." Lionel walked closer to me and looked down. He reached his hand and rubbed my pubic hair. He grunted and I screamed when he took it in his hand and pulled hard. He smiled and I watched him yank a long piece of duct tape from a roll. He held it out and pushed it against my groin from just below my navel to underneath, between my legs. I screamed when I felt his fingers push the tape hard against me, especially around my vagina.
Lionel turned to the others and the white kid was the first to yell, "Do it!". The bald guy and the leprechaun nodded and Sydney smiled, motioning his hand. Lionel turned back to me and I felt his hand fumble with the bottom of the tape, far between my legs. He counted slowly... "One... Two... Three."
Suddenly, all I could feel was a shattering pain riveting through my body as he quickly pulled the tape from bottom to top. I screamed an ear piercing scream and tears ran from my eyes down my face. Lionel held the tape up for me to see and all I saw was most of my pubic hair attached to the tape. I continued to cry and Lionel came closer and began to lick the tears from my face.