It had taken only a few days for the fever that took hold of Tara's mother's body to take her life as well. Tara had seen her Master at the cremation and had so badly wanted to run to him, to feel his arms around her, but his face had remained like stone and he had looked right through her. He was not there when the collar bearing the Blackmore crest was fixed around her neck and over the next year, he visited his country home less and less. Tara kept the house as best she could and numbed herself to the outside world. When word came that her Master had died, she felt a fresh wave of sadness wash over her and feeling truly alone in the world, she had taken to her bed with no intention of getting up again.
Tara's first thought when she awoke the next day had been that the house was being robbed. The sound of horses outside her window, a clattering from the kitchen below, and most alarmingly, the voices of strange men approaching her bedroom filled her with panic. Frantically, she had searched her sparsely furnished room for anything that could be used as a weapon and that's how the two Stewards of Blackmore Estate came to find her - a wisp of a girl in a white cotton nightdress, blonde hair hanging loose in a tangled mess of curls, wielding a wooden hairbrush.
"Well, what have we here?" the dark haired Steward had said. "It looks to me like a little bird from the village thought she could make a pretty nest in a big empty house. Tell me, are you a friendly bird?" He reached his hand towards her and Tara swung wildly at him with the brush. He easily ducked her swing and grabbed her flailing arm, twisting her hand behind her back and turning her around so that her back was pressed against the wall of his body. With his free hand, he roamed the length of her through her nightgown.
"Not much in the way of tits on this one... Let's see what else you have to make up for that."
Tara could feel a growing hardness through his tunic and although she fought him with all her strength, her writhing only served to excite him further. "Does the bird have a name?" he asked, as his hand went to lift her gown. In response, Tara turned her head and bit him.
"Ow!' the Steward cried out, more from surprise than from pain as Tara hadn't done him much damage at all. He gathered up her hair in his fist and pulled her head back sharply. "None of that, wild little bird," he growled. "Or I'll have to cut your wings."
"Lucas, stop." The other Steward who had been casually watching his friend play with the girl suddenly spoke. "She's collared."
Lucas let go of Tara's hair and spun her around roughly so that they faced each other. His eyes fell on the steel collar around her neck and he ran his thumb across the markings it bore.
"It looks real," he said.
"I thought the old man didn't believe in the keeping of slaves," the other steward replied, moving closer to get a better look at Tara himself. "Besides, look at her. Does she look like a slave to you?"
Tara had all but forgotten about the collar she wore and what it signified. Words from a different lifetime came rushing back to her. What had the Slave Mistress said...
"In your Master's absence, or if he is indisposed, he may grant permission for you to be used by others as he sees fit. This may include guests of his house, members of his family, or those stewards, guards, or groundsmen he employs. Remember that even the lowliest stable boy has the right to take his pleasure with you if it serves the pleasure of your Master and you must strive to serve everyone with equal obedience and humility."
Under the gaze of the two young men, Tara became very aware of how far from the mark of what she was supposed to be, she must actually seem and her face filled with colour.
"Well at least she has the good sense to blush!" Lucas had laughed.
"What do you want to do with her?" his red-haired companion had asked.
"Load her onto the cart and take her back to the Young Master with the rest of his father's things, I suppose," Lucas replied. To Tara he said, "Collect your things, slave, and present yourself within the hour at the front gates." Turning on his heel, he called, "Come on, Liam, let's finish clearing the other rooms. At this rate, it will be midnight by the time we're home."
Liam turned to give Tara a last glance and said, "What if she runs away?"
"I wouldn't worry about that," Lucas had said. "One look at her collar and anyone from any of these parts would know exactly where to return her. Where could she possibly go?"
Tara had listened to their voices fade down the hallway and then sat heavily on her narrow bed. She could easily slip through the garden door and hide in the woods, but what the Steward had said was right. If she ran now, she would have to live as her mother had done - in constant fear and hiding. And yet, if she went with these men, there was no telling what lay ahead. It could be they offered her a chance to join the world for which she had been trained. Or it could be they would slit her throat, throw her lifeless body in the river and no one would ever be the wiser. Tara made up her mind. It's a chance I must take, she thought. Besides, she couldn't deny that the Steward's rough hands on her body had filled her with fear, yes, but also a breathless rush of excitement. She began gathering her meager possessions - the hairbrush flung into a corner, the doll given to her once upon a time by her Master, and a few items of clothing. She got dressed, twisted her unruly hair into something resembling a braid and wrapping her mother's shawl around her shoulders, made her way into the early afternoon sunshine.
Lucas and Liam were hoisting two remaining trunks onto the wooden cart. When they noticed her standing there, there was a brief discussion of where to put her and a hasty rearranging of things to make a space for her to sit. Standing in the cart, Lucas offered her a hand to help her up. She took it, but hesitated as she looked at the space they had made. The wood was splintered and caked with dirt.
"Wait," Lucas had said. He jumped down and after rummaging around the front of the cart for a few minutes, had returned with a worn looking blanket which he spread out for her to sit on. The unexpected act of kindness caught Tara off guard and she felt tears spring to her eyes.
"Thank you," she whispered. And then remembering herself, she said louder, "Thank you, Sir."
"Ah, she speaks," Tilting her chin up with his thumb, he gave her a long look. His eyes were dark, his skin tan, his mouth turned up at the corners. Tara felt her stomach flip-flop and she found she could not hold his gaze. Lucas cracked a wolfish grin and gave her bottom a sound smack as he hopped off the cart and mounted his horse.