I didn't know where to start. Most men were busy either fucking someone, or in conversations with other people. I spotted a caucasian man sitting alone by himself smoking a cigar. He looked to be in his late 40s, early 50s, a bit overweight with a beer belly, bald with a smooth shiny head, several tattoos on his arms. He looked dangerous, but he was alone so I decided to take my shot.
I crawled to him, mouth wide open, drooling. His serious look didn't change much. Of course not, I'm sure having a sissy fag crawl up to you here was completely normal. He blew a puff of cigar smoke right at my face, "What do you want bitch?"
"Please sir, would you be so kind to follow me back to my owner, and fuck my throat as he fucks my ass?" I tried to smile and be bubbly, like a good whore, but I knew I was failing miserably at it.
"I don't know slut, are you any good at using that mouth? Open up."
I opened up while staring at him. He then spit directly into my mouth, took the cigar he was smoking, and ashed it right into my mouth along with his spit. I could feel my eyes bug out in shock. I could tell this amused him as he chuckled, waiting for me to swallow.
I wanted to spit it out immediately, but I knew that wasn't an option. I closed my mouth and swallowed. I then gagged, and had to close my eyes in order to control my gag reflex. The ash and slimy cigar spit tasted horrendous. Once I swallowed I opened my mouth back up and showed it to him.
He grinned, "I don't know. I'm still not convinced of how good that mouth is, you nasty pig."
He then lifted his foot, and took off his dress shoe. He then used my back like a foot rest and placed his newly shoeless foot on it, which I couldn't blame him for. I could tell with my hands and knees how wet, sticky, and dirty this floor was.
He then handed me his shoe, and I took it looking at him with pleading eyes. Then my worst fear was confirmed when spit on my face and said, "Use that dirty whore tongue you want to taste my cock with, to clean the bottom of my shoe." I looked directly at the sole of this wet dirty shoe in front of me as I felt his spit slide down my face.
I just stared at it. Then I felt him give a light tap on my back with his foot. I just stared at all the dirt, grime, some hairs, and god knows what fluids all caked on the sole of the shoe.
I wanted to put the nasty shoe back on his foot and go back to crawling around to find another cock, but I was in too deep. This is the man I've asked to help me get spit roasted. I could feel the tears in my eyes forming as I stuck out my tongue slowly, and hesitantly moved the sole onto my tongue.
"Oh for fuck sakes!" He grabbed the back of my head, "Stick your goddam tongue out dumb fuck faggot!"
I stuck out my tongue completely and he smashed the shoe on my face hard, as he moved the shoe down my tongue, "There you go you nasty skank."
He kept scraping my nose, chin and tongue with the sole of his shoe, over and over. Periodically he would spit on my face and tongue to 'help me' spit shine the bottom of the shoe.
I kept licking till the bottom of the shoe was spotless; and my face stinking of cigar spit. It was hard to believe how much I was forced to be degraded just to suck a cock. If I were actually gay I would absolutely have no problem getting dick, just like I had no problem getting pussy in my old life.
As soon as he was done using my tongue as a goddam doormat to clean the sole of his shoe, he put his shoe back on, and placed his foot back on the ground.
I then felt stupid and dumb, because it hadn't dawned on me that there really was no point to me licking the sole of his dirty shoe clean. It was just as dirty again now as before when he scraped my face and tongue with it. He just did it to completely humiliate and degrade me; but he clearly wasn't done yet.
He then told me to turn around, and spread my legs. I found this weird since I was offering my mouth, not my ass.
Then all my confusion was answered when he gave a hard swift kick to my nuts. I instantly fell on my side grabbing my hurting nuts.
He then stood up and kicked me even harder on my ass and spit on me, "Too bad I don't fuck around with pathetic dumb faggots. Keep crawling dumb fuck, and see if another man is willing to shove their dick in that disgusting cock sucking sissy mouth of yours." He then kicked my ass again, "I said start crawling faggot!"
I let go of my sore testicles, got back on all 4s, and began crawling away as fast as I could. I'm sure his next kick would have been much worse. When I was away from him, I had to stop and compose myself. I was on the verge of breaking down crying.
I felt so used. Which I guess was the point, it's what I am, my only purpose is to be a set of holes. Wait, that's it. I needed to enjoy this. I needed to be put in that mental pink fog again.
I tried to recall the exact moment it had happened. After a bit of thinking I thought I was sure what it was. It was simple if I was right. I think I just needed to be asked directly what I was. It was degrading, but effective, and I knew this feeling of being broken would disappear. I am sure in the mental pink fog I would've loved to have used my mouth hole to clean that fat slob's shoe.
I knew this was a dangerous path to go down on; because, even though I was feeling terrible, at least I was clear of mind. I shouldn't enjoy licking a nasty shoe, it was disgusting; however, I knew in that mental pink fog -of being a set of holes- I truly wouldn't be in my real state of mind. I was seeking a hit like a drug addict. But hey, if all I am is a set of holes, I may as well be hedonistic about it and enjoy it, right?
I looked around and luckily a few more men seemed to be alone now. I had my pick. I didn't want any of their cocks, but if I played my hand right I would wouldn't have to feel this utter humiliation for long.
I crawled towards a man at the bar. He was a brown Hispanic looking man in his mid 30s, very muscular in his tight polo shirt.
He looked at me and smirked at my open mouth, and protruding drooling tongue. I got about an inch away from his crotch and looked up with plading eyes. I dreaded having to beg and act like a cheerful dumb sissy fuck puppet, but I had to try my best, "Please sir, I beg of you, would you please come destroy my sissy fag throat as my master savagely rails my ass pussy?"
He let out a laugh as he caresses my cheek and said, "Holy fuck, you really are a dumb bitch aren't you?"
He then shoved his middle finger into my mouth and I automatically started sucking it. I even let out a moan, pretending even sucking his finger was a sexual thrill. I knew I had to act as convincingly as I could. That alone filled me with shame, but I was so close to the pink fog I could taste it, "Oh yes Sir, being a dumb,cock hungry, sissy fuck puppet comes so easily to me, because of what I am."
I started sucking his finger like me life depended on it. Now all he had to do was ask....
"Oh Really? Are you a urinal?"
Wait, that's not what he was supposed to ask. I had set him up so easily to ask me what I was, but he didn't.
A feeling of dread and disappointment came over me, but now I got my wish: I was still in my right state of mind. I tried to keep trying to get my mental pink fix, "Well, I'm many..."
He took his wet finger out my mouth and smacked me hard on my face, "It's a simple yes or no question you air-headed slut. Are. You. A. Urinal?"
I let a quiet whine, my fake slutty enthusiasm completely crushed as I meekly answered him, "Yes Sir".
He put on a huge smile, "Well then open up that gutter mouth of yours sissy fuck puppet," he said as he unzipped his pants, lowered his underwear, and brought out his brown cock. It looks like a regular flaccid 6" dick.
Me eyes were starting to water as I approached his cock to take it in my mouth; knowing I was about to swallow another man's piss. Just another degrading act for the whore faggot clown I was.
He then slapped my face, "What the fuck do you think you're doing? Jesus, whore. I know you want to taste my cock very badly, but control yourself a little bit."
For a moment I forgot how sad I was, and the feeling was replaced by angry indignation. Which he noticed and let out a small laugh.
This asshole really thinks I wanted to have his cock in my mouth? or drink his piss?
Although, I understood why he did. I was presenting myself exactly the way; a scantly clad slim built fag slut, in stockings, high heels, smallest skirt possible, labeled 'sissy fuck puppet', face probably all red and dirty from just having let a man scrape my face with a shoe, and literally just told him it was easy for me to be a dumb,cock hungry, sissy; but fuck man, I was trying my goddam best, and that wasn't even good enough.
My anger though quickly faded as he kept talking, "I didn't ask if you could drink piss. That's clearly a goddamn given. I asked if you were a urinal. So keep looking up at me whore, and open that cock sucking hole of yours as wide as you can."
Just when I thought I couldn't be more degraded I opened up my mouth as wide as I could.
I felt so stupid. Having my mouth as wide as possible so a man could just piss in it. Out in public, in front of a bunch of random club goers. I couldn't help but let out a sob and a tear, which made him chuckle, "Oh, what's wrong faggot? I thought you said you loved this. Don't tell me you got any shame."
I noticed that my clear anguish, and his verbal abuse were turning him on. I notice his cock was getting harder and bigger. Then without warning, he started to piss in my mouth.
"Only stupid shameless whores allow this."
I felt like I was thrown into the deep end of a pool at how frantic my brain tried to comprehend what was happening and what to do. Theory is one thing, practice is another.