***Session 5
"Well, now, you must beβ"
"The ball and chain, yes!" said my wife to Janet as we entered the reception.
"Golly, aren't you just pretty as a picture!"
My wife and I took a seat. Janet looked as bright-eyed and bushy-tailed as ever. My dick leaped just a bit remembering how it felt being inside her last week. I quickly looked away.
Soon I was hit with another shock: Seema appeared in the waiting room. She wore a tight white button-down shirt that snugly fit her thin waist and flared out at her hips, which were draped with a short black skirt. Even though Dr. Madeline said she had set back my progress, I felt a spike of excitement and arousal at seeing the sexy extern again. But why was she here?
Seema approached us. "It's good to see you," she said to me in her professional voice, revealing nothing about our last encounter. Then, to my wife, she said, "And I'm pleased to meet you. We'll be taking you back separately. If you could please follow me this way, ma'am."
My wife rose and Seema accompanied her toward the hallway. As she left the room, Seema looked back at me over her shoulder with a glint of mischief eyes. She lifted her skirt up, revealing her uncovered dark round ass and a hint of her meaty pussy lips for one brief, tantalizing moment before she disappeared. I shook my head in disbelief. I thought Dr. Madeline had dismissed her!
"I know today is going to be just so darn hard. But I believe in you!" Janet said in her typical encouraging way. "You can head down there now, too."
I went into the hallway and found Dr. Madeline waiting for me. She was wearing a black blouse, more buttoned up than last week, and her standard short black skirt and boots. "We'll meet in here today," she beckoned.
The room we entered was small and dark. Almost like a large closet. As my eyes adjusted, I saw various pieces of recording equipment strewn on tables and an ancient filing cabinet in the corner. One wall was mostly obscured by a large curtain.
"Have a seat," Dr. Madeline was gesturing to two tall chairs that looked like barstools tucked under a table that ran the length of the curtained wall.
"Ok, so where are we?" I asked.
"This is the observation room where I watched your sessions with Seema." Dr. Madeline pulled on a long cord and the curtain lifted. Light flooded the room as a window was revealed. On the other side sat my wife on the comfy brown couch that I had once sat in. Seema was with her in the room, sitting with her back to the glass and a clipboard in hand.
"Don't worry, they can't see us," the doctor continued. "Or hear us if we talk quietly"
"And why are we here?" I replied, still confused.
"We are going to conduct our exposure exercises in this room today to prepare you for the last item on your hierarchy. Seema will be working with your wife."
"I thought you said that Seema was unethical?"
"I said that Seema
did something
unethical, I didn't say she was unethical. She has many excellent skills, and I trust her with today's task."
I looked through the window at my wife. She appeared comfortable and was smiling at whatever Seema was saying.
"Were you able to complete your homework this week?" Dr. Madeline inquired, watching me intently to see if I'd be honest.
"I was, yes," I answered feeling a little embarrassed.
"That must have been challenging," she said playfully. "I think you'll feel better after today."
I sat in awkward silence as I remembered last night's dream. I sure hoped she was right.
Dr. Madeline continued, "In today's exposure we get to use your actual wife as the stimulus. Our goal is to work our way up the hierarchy to determine where the remaining triggers for your panic reside. Why don't you get comfortable? Please remove your pants and focus on your wife."
"This is so weird," I muttered as I undressed.
"You'll get used to it." Dr. Madeline sat in the chair next to me. "Let's begin. I want you to look at your wife. Consider what's she's told you. What she wants. How she wants her belly to swell up."
While these words would have typically prompted panic symptoms in me, today I didn't feel them. It was great to see that we really had made progress in these sessions.
"Very good," said Dr. Madeline. "Let's wait a moment, then we'll try something else."
I looked through the one-way glass. I wondered what they were talking about. Suddenly, my wife's hand went up to her chest. It looked like she was caressing her breast. A moment later, she had slipped her hand under her t-shirt, and it was clear that this is exactly what she was doing. I noticed that Seema too had unbuttoned part of her shirt and was rubbing her own chest.
"What is going on in there?" I asked.
"Seema is helping to create your stimulus for today...and preparing your wife for the final phase of our treatment. Keep watching your wife. Imagine yourself with her and what her body wants."