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Flight
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Sarah took a long drink of water, refreshing her after her workout. Watching the TV screen she admired the bubbly Asian woman as she talked about cool downs. The young woman was lithe and fit, small waist, small breasts, dark hair and deep warm beige skin tone. She was peppy, and closer described as cute than sexy. She wore very modest workout clothing. Only showing bare stomach in the thumbnail of her video as proof that she could do this for you too.
Sarah took another drink and scrutinized the workout bunny in front of her. She hit subscribe on the young woman's youtube channel. Sarah scanned the woman's page of videos, and bit her lip in appreciation at the thumbnails. Tantalizing herself. Sarah harrumphed and unplugged her computer from the TV, and placed it onto her desk.
Sarah was in great shape for a 25 year old woman with shoulder length blonde hair, and large shapely breasts. Often her looks had drawn envious glances from girls in college. They needn't have bothered, she was not interested in competing for drunken frat boys. It had been years since Sarah had even tried to be with a boy. Now and then, Sarah might see a man that would arouse her interest. However, more often than not, it would be a woman that would make her pay attention.
Much of the time this would lead to a couple of hook ups. Sarah would then get caught out by some unwritten social rule she should have known, but didn't. This had dogged her for years, unable to form many close relationships. At least not the types of relationships she saw in movies, read in books or observed from her classmates. So much of it seemed so arbitrary.
A long time ago when Sarah was 8 a classmate, Cho, had described Sarah as like a sandwich but without any mayonnaise. Another classmate had to tell Sarah that it was because she was hard to swallow. Sarah didn't understand why it made sense. She did understand that she was different, and Cho had mortified her by pointing it out. She had cried that night, dreading going back to school. Where others could understand situations through instinct, Sarah would have to study. Cho remained at the same school and always tormented Sarah. Years of bullying, stress and isolation followed, until collage came.
Sarah took her mind off the past, no point dwelling, nothing changed there. All you can change is the future. Her breath tightened and she pressed her tongue into her canine. She can have control over the future, if she dared. Her eyes flickered as she started to formulate a plan. She entered the kitchen to fix a salad as she contemplated her options.
As she got older the social scene at school had remained tough. Schoolwork came as natural for Sarah, she had a gift for technical subjects. Sarah had won several prizes at school in Design and Tech, and computer sciences. She would get flustered trying to explain her workings to others, but they always worked. Homework took minutes, and she never had friends to came round and 'hang out', whatever that meant. It gave her a lot of time to study extra-curriculars. A chance to indulge in her dual obsessions of computers and social interactions. This had led her down the, very lucrative, path of computer programming for a career. Sarah rejoiced in having languages and relationships that made sense to her. She would write a line of code, which when added to other code has a strict, defined outcome. She loved the determinative nature of the code she wrote, it clicked in her like the last puzzle piece. It provided her with a map that she could apply outside of computers.
Inputs, salad and regular workouts: outputs, healthy body and mind.
Sarah had begun to apply the logic of programming onto social interactions. She would write her daily conversations, to study the inflections and contexts, subtexts. Sarah's hope was that she would find an underlying logic. She failed to create anything cohesive, but couldn't. The obsession was the thorn that kept her tossing and turning on worse nights.
At college, she studied computer programming and linguistics. Sarah had begun to fantasize about the complexity of language, awed and scared by it - excited by it. The power or words. She started to see that for every conversation there is a near infinite response option. Those responses create reactions in the conversational partner. Determinative.
Someone asks, "how are you?". There are a very large number of pro-social responses. "Doing well", "Alright", "Okay, how about you? ''. And, there are a large number of non-social responses. "None of your business", "Get lost", "Screw you". The pro-social responses are normal in most situations, and the anti-social in few.
If you imagine telling someone to "get lost", their response to that might be verbal or physical. They have a large number of responses, but most people are predictable.
The eliciting of response can go further when you add considerations of language use. Sarah theorized, in all interactions there are specific word choices that would elicit a desired response. If you want to borrow a book, there are a very large number of ways to ask such that you will borrow that book from someone. If you want a sweet, there would be a large number of options. And so somewhere in those words are a combination which turns a situation sexual.
In collage, being a blonde, with large breasts responses are easy to elicit with male classmates, "doing well, would you like to come back to mine and fuck?". Sarah loved the feeling of control she had whenever she did this. With females it was sometimes more difficult, but her theory held. She added more to her desire now. What teased Sarah the most was that there are words that would allow her a backdoor into other's minds. To take them under her full control.
She finished her salad and stripped her gym clothes off, entering the shower - her heart rate elevated. The warm water soothed her muscles, as steam filled the bathroom. Her programming job was well paying, and she spent that money on kitting out her home. The first room she had changed was the bathroom. All the old fittings got dumped, and she had the contractors convert it into a full wetroom. Inbuilt speakers played music as she locked herself away from the world in pure warm comfort. She loved her tech too, it was all the highest quality.