It wasn't that long ago that we'd parted ways with one another once and for all. This may have been the fourth time in the past year and a half we decided to call it quits. We had good reasons why the relationship shouldn't work, wasn't working. We were twin flames bringing out one another's best qualities and worst tendencies. We were too dissimilar to be grounded. Our charges, in perpetual opposition, caused sparks that would burn our passion to the ground. I lived for those good times, those times of intense joy and lust. But whenever things got real, too intimate, too raw, and too vulnerable, we both ran. We shared a self-protective instinct. We also shared the instinct of a primal attraction that would bring us back together again and again.
You had stayed at my place almost every day for a month. You had your essentials in my house. A toothbrush, razors, extra clothes, your laptop. We didn't officially live together or have any type of spoken commitment sexually or emotionally. But if you asked our friends, they'd tell you we were as attached at the hip as any committed couple. The conversation we had the previous night, the night before we both agreed things had been too intense the last four weeks or so, involved my need for space and feeling that I wasn't spending enough time on my personal growth and projects. Or so was my rationale. I am my own saboteur at times. I more or less tossed you out in a hurry because I knew if I did not, I'd have to face the reality that I'd gladly tie myself to you forever.
A long two weeks had passed since your departure, and I quickly began to realize that my place felt the lack of your presence. My pride would not allow me to admit it to you directly, but I wanted you back. The bed felt too empty and my days felt barren without you in them. When I saw that you had left behind the dog-eared copy of the novel you'd been reading it was the perfect excuse to plot your return. I had found it tucked between the mattress and the bedframe as I was changing the linens. why you had stashed it there was a mystery to me. I held onto it for a few days as I went about my business, calculating in my spare moments how I might win you back. When I was ready, I phoned you to come for it. We made arrangements for you to stop by the following day. But this was really just a ploy to capture you, to make sure you stayed for good. From experience, I knew your every button. I knew how to make you mine and planned how I'd seduce you.
The day arrived. I was expecting you as you let yourself in with the key I had given you months ago and that you had used during those times when you just couldn't seem to part from me. I readied myself for your arrival. I carefully considered what I would wear and came to the conclusion that nothing would be best. After all, you loved my nudity better than any sexy outfit I'd ever worn. I had told you to just let yourself in and was even sure to mention that I wasn't certain if I'd be home. I'd just leave the book on the nightstand where you could easily find it. Little did you know what I had planned for you.