Although I was no longer focused on learning cocksucking tricks to teach a future girlfriend, I did not mind at all learning new tricks I could teach myself to feed my desire to be even better at sucking my dildos. By now that was essentially all I was doing. And that which I learned from the pornos I watched I tried to implement myself when I sucked on my own dildos and I was doing pretty good at it I thought!
Then one day while I was watching some cocksucking pornos I stumbled across my first shemale video. In the video there was a very attractive, very shapely woman, a very beautiful woman... and she had a very large, hard cock!!! Her cock was being sucked by a guy who was bound to a bed in a submissive fashion. This was my first exposure to shemale porn. The girl turned out to be a popular shemale porn actress named Mia Isabella and the movie was a TS Seduction film of some name. I could not tear myself away from watching the video and watched it until I reached the very end. I even watched the next video that auto-started where the star, again Mia Isabella, was solo and stroked her beautiful cock (which was quite large) next to a pool until she came. From then on I included shemale porn when I searched any porn films. There was something about seeing such a beautiful woman with a large cock!! I remember even thinking once as I 'Practiced' if sucking a shemale cock was anything like sucking the dildo I had between my lips at this very moment?
Anyway, between 'Practice' and looking up cocksucking, shemale, and other associated porno, something else unexpectedly occurred. I stumbled onto Hypno Encouragement videos. Specifically Cocksucker Encouragement Hypno videos (and later Shemale Hypno videos). The videos were incredible as the encouragement messages the videos had were subtle but powerful. I remember the first one I came across was called 'Turn Into A Cocksucker' (or something close to that). I remember thinking it was a regular cock sucking video and started watching from a few minutes in. There were beautiful girls on the video and women speaking in a soft voice in stereo. They were talking about how nice it would be to suck a cock and how good it would feel. The soft, slow, dreamy way the female narrators were speaking was truly very hypnotic as I continued to watch. Before I realized it the women had cocks in their mouth and the accompanying narrators were saying, "You want cum. You are going to swallow the cum! At the count of ten, swallow." And the other female narrator's voice was saying, "No, don't suck the cock." Almost as if the two female narrator's voices were two sides of one person's internal mental struggle. Then there was a countdown from 10 to 1 as a female narrator was saying, "Swallow the cum! You are a cocksucker now! I warned you!" And it ended with, "You loved cock! You need cock now!" It was very powerful! Almost scary!
But I was intrigued and watched one of the next Hypno cocksucker movies as well which was almost as powerful! I had not expected to seek these videos out but the next day, when I started looking at more cocksucking porn I searched out the same 'Turn Into A Cocksucker' cocksucker encouragement Hypno and watched it again. I was once again equally astounded by the power of the message. In fact I watched several more cocksucker encouragement Hypno tubes as well as one shemale encouragement Hypno tube. Some were good, some were bad, but some were very powerful. Especially one about 'Cum to Cock'.
Watching the Hypno cocksucking encouragement films found me wanting to suck on my dildo so I decided to 'Practice' for a while. So I went into my bedroom and got my fat, dildo out of its hiding spot and stuck it against the mirror so I could suck on it while on my knees. I began to suck on my fat dildo... deepthroating it over and over again. Soon my mind wandered to the cocksucker encouragement Hypno video and the words of the film, "you want to suck that cock... take it deeper. You are a cocksucker." I kept hearing these words in my mind as the dildo went in and out of my throat over and over as if there were some kind of subconscious correlation between the phrases and the actual practice of filling my mouth and throat with a cock-shaped object!