Maybe I am pent up. That would explain everything. I'm just really pent up. Or maybe I've spent too much time by myself that I'm going stir crazy. Or maybe when I wake up tomorrow, I'll realise that this was all a bad dream.
Which makes it more annoying that I can't get to sleep. Again, I swat my hand away from my sore clit. This has been happening all day. First, it took ages mopping the floor, because I couldn't stop grinding on the handle. Then, my legs wouldn't stop rubbing themselves together while I was changing my cum-stained sheets.
But you know what the worst part of it was? I still had to wear those ridiculous clothes after my shower. Seriously, I don't know what's wrong with me. One second I was ready to throw them in the laundry, the next second I found myself pulling up the tights. Believe me, I tried to wear anything else, but they practically bonded to my skin. So I had to walk around for the rest of the day with a wedgie.
Well, up until I went to bed. Then, I was able to put on some normal pyjamas and a nice pair of knickers. Hopefully, that's a sign of things returning to normal tomorrow.
Spoiler alert: it wasn't. I woke up feeling like a zombie, lying there for a solid 30 minutes with my hand in my underwear before I realised what it was doing. Yes, really, I was so groggy this morning that I didn't even realise I was fingering myself. A great start to the day.
I plod downstairs to eat some breakfast and watch a little telly. Thank God for telly, because more time watching complete gibberish means less time with the jumbled thoughts running through my head. It truly is a gift. Unfortunately, its effect wanes over time, and I find myself thinking back to yesterday. Which one is worse: the fact that a stranger waltzed into my own home, completely uninvited, or the fact that I proceeded to have sex with him, completely unprompted? Or the fact that both of those happened, and I
enjoyed
it? "It was the best I've had in a while," I hear myself whisper, and as much as I want to slap myself, I know it's true.
Well, I guess I did ask for company
, I think while frowning.
You know what? Fuck it. My clit is aching, but fuck it. I can't live like this, scared of my own bedroom. So, whether it turns out good or bad, I'm going to head upstairs and change my clothes. I'm thinking a sweater and some joggers, but if that doesn't work, then oh bloody well, I'll learn to live with it.
Okay, I'm at my wardrobe. Here we go, deep breaths and small steps. Breathe in... then out... in... then out... okay, first, let's reach for the joggers. I open the drawer, look directly at the ones I want, slowly guide my hand towards them, and clasp.
Phew, so far so good. Joggers down, time for the sweater. I open the door, reach out... and grab that too.
Okay, okay, this is going great. The underwear is the last step. I open the bottom drawer, hold out my hand and... damn, it was going so well. My hands slide right off every normal bra I have, and there's no way in hell I'm going for a lacy one again. Weirdly, I can take some knickers out just fine, it's only bras that I'm having a problem with.
Fine then. Seems I'll have to do without. My nipples poke a little bit through my top, but it's not too bad. Certainly better than what I had on yesterday. "Alright then, back to
watching TV
fingering myself!" Wait, what? That was not what I wanted to say. God damn it, now my hand is back in my trousers. I use my other one to try to pull it out, but it refuses to budge. If anything, it speeds up, nearly bringing my knees to the floor. One last try: I grit my teeth and give it one last tug.
Yeah, it's not coming out.
"Okay, okay, you win," I groan. "Just let me put a towel down." My hand eases up a bit, so I take that as cooperation and roll out a towel to make sure that my bed doesn't get dirty again. The moment it's laid flat, my hand ramps back up again, so I lie down and let it do the rest. You know what, this isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Perhaps it's a bad idea to indulge this, but resisting hasn't helped either, so maybe I should compromise instead. Besides, my sporadic masturbating has left me perpetually horny, so why shouldn't I enjoy the ride? Just this one time?
And, damn, does this one time feel so good. I've never aggressively fingered myself like this before, but I can't say that I'm not... "Hey, why did you stop?" I ask after my hand starts fiddling with my trousers. My best guess is, they're too tight. Fine, I'll shrug them off, even my underwear for good measure. "They're off now, alright? Just get back to--" I don't get to finish that sentence before I'm dragged back into sweet bliss. My words become mush, as my hands expertly work me up again.