I'm unsure how long I sat there in the dark, alone, freaking out. After the glow of the most amazing blowjob I'd ever experienced had worn off, all that was left was the consequences, bouncing around inside my skull.
I had used my abilities on purpose to basically rape my housemate, my friend.
The situation had gotten away from me true, but in the end I had decided to do it. For the first time I couldn't tell myself that I hadn't meant for it to happen. I'd have to move. Shit, what if Alexis told Ben? I liked them both, they were good together. What if I had the breakup of their family on my conscious?
My thoughts had basically receded into a sense of inarticulate worry by the time morning arrived. I was still sitting on the couch when Alexis came out of her room.
She froze when she saw me sitting there, her face blank and expressionless. She made an abortive movement, as though she was about to turn and run back into her room. Instead, she walked slowly into the kitchen. With her back to me she softly spoke.
"Would you like some coffee?"
I made a noise of agreement, completely nonplussed. As I watched this married woman, who had had my cock in her mouth just a few hours earlier, make coffee for the two of us I just couldn't work it out.
My ability didn't work like this.
After it had worn off, they went back to normal. I had never had someone try to act like something hadn't happened before. Could this be because I had used it on purpose? Was there some other factor I was missing?
Alexis brought two mugs of coffee to the kitchen table and sat, placing the other mug across from her. After a moment I got up and slowly sat down at the table. Even though we were facing each other she wouldn't meet my eyes, focusing on the steaming drink she held in her hands.
I didn't know what exactly was going on, so I didn't say anything, sitting in silence. After a moment Alexis spoke.
"That..." She took a shuddering breath. "That shouldn't have happened. I'm sorry."
If I hadn't already been sitting, I would have fallen down in shock. She was sorry? What in hell was going on?
"It wasn't fair." Alexis continued. "I shouldn't have started that." Tears started making tracks down her cheeks. "God, I'm such a horrible person!"
"Alexis, I..." I didn't know what to say. I wanted to do something, anything, to make her feel better. But I couldn't.
"I spend all night flirting and drinking with you - what did I think was going to happen?" She was beginning to cry in earnest now, silent sobs that made her shoulders shake. "As soon as I started feeling something for you I should have kept my distance. But what did I do instead? Get you drunk and jump you!"
Alexis ... liked me? This was totally flooring me. A lifetime of avoiding and never getting a chance to ever experience a relationship for myself was taking it's toll.
"You're always so intense." Alexis said. "You watch everything around you so carefully. When I talk to you I can feel your attention on me like an almost physical sensation." She wrapped her arms around herself. "It's so ... good. To be looked at that way."
I guessed Alexis was referring to how I tried to be alert for any red flags of my ability escaping my control. I had never been told what it was like to talk to me. I'd been told numerous times that I needed to loosen up, to relax. But not this before.
"And then last night. God, I haven't been touched like that forever! I had almost forgotten what it was like to be wanted."
"You haven't had sex ...?" I blurted out. Not articulate I know, but I was dealing with a lot of information here.
"Not since I started showing." Alexis said dismissively. "Ben's barely touched me in weeks. But you." Alexis lifted her eyes to meet mine for the first time that morning. "I've never cum like that before. I would have let you do anything you wanted to me last night. And that scares me. But looking at you now, all I can think of is climbing across the table into your lap. What is wrong with me?"
The moment Alexis had looked at me, I knew. She was still under the influence of my ability. Not strongly, she didn't have the all-consuming need to fuck me ... but it was there. This had never happened before. I knew that I hadn't used it this morning, and that meant it was still in effect from last night. What I didn't know was whether or not it was because I had used it consciously for the first time in my life, or if it was because she already had feelings for me.
I had never been able to get close enough to someone for feelings to develop. My ability had always triggered well before that. Maybe the fact that Alexis could see us hooking up as a possibility, that she didn't have to try and explain a random sexual encounter, made the difference.
Whatever the reason, the situation in front of me as that Alexis was sitting across from me, crying over the fact that she had cheated on her husband, and yet still dealing with her current state of arousal. It must have been doing her head in, the conflict inside of her.
"I'm sorry as well Alexis." I said simply. Whatever she thought, it was completely my fault. And it was something I could never explain to her. "What do you want to do?"