"And wide awake." His words were sharp and clear, cutting through the fog in her head. She opened her eyes and blinked.
The first thing she saw was her boyfriend's face. His expression was completely neutral. He was sitting on a chair across from the bed. He was slouched in his usual casual posture, legs crossed, arms crossed over his chest.
"Did you have a nice nap?" he asked. His tone was bland.
All she could do was blink at him. She was too confused and groggy to do anything else.
"Um" was all she could reply. A wave of warmth rolled over her. She found herself smiling too, probably a little vapidly. She didn't care, though. She was still waking up -- she was entitled to be a little fuzzy after waking up from a nap.
Had she been napping? She didn't remember lying down for a nap. There was light streaming through the bedroom window, which meant it was midday. She didn't really nap during the day unless she wasn't feeling well. Was she sick? Maybe that would explain the mental fuzziness. She blinked again.
"You're feeling a little fuzzy, aren't you?" her boyfriend asked. His tone was no longer bland. On the surface, it was solicitous. Yet, there was an undercurrent of condescension.
"Um," she replied. There was that feeling of warmth again. The warmth made her feel happy, lighter. She shook her head. Why couldn't she say anything more than "um"?
"It's okay to feel fuzzy," he continued. Now, he wasn't even trying to be solicitous. The condescension was loud and clear.
Her brow furrowed. The condescension bothered her. Well, it sort of bothered her. She would normally feel more bothered by guys being chauvinistic. However, she couldn't get that worked up about it right now. It just didn't seem important.
She couldn't get worked up about much of anything, actually. The fog swirling around her brain when she first woke up hadn't dissipated. If anything, it had gotten thicker. Her thoughts struggled to break through the fog. As the fog thickened, she gave up on thinking.
Giving up on thinking, letting the fog surround her brain, should have bothered her quite a bit. She prided herself on being smart. All her life, people had told her how smart she was. If they could see her now...
She decided she would take a break from thinking until the fog cleared. Maybe if she were awake for a bit longer, she'd be less fuzzy. She blinked again.
"You're having a lot of trouble thinking right now, aren't you?" her boyfriend asked. "Like I said, it's okay to feel fuzzy. You don't need to think."
Those last words were really condescending. She furrowed her brows again. It should have bothered her quite a bit. Yet, where there would normally be anger, there was apathy. Acceptance, even.
"Um," she repeated.
The wave of warmth was stronger this time. It was more targeted, too. She felt it between her legs. She rubbed her thighs together -- not so the warmth would dissipate, so that it would last a bit longer.
"Are you feeling okay?" he asked. "Are you getting a little warm, maybe?"
How did he know? She wondered. "Um," she responded. This time, it wasn't warmth, but heat that flowed through her. It was especially strong between her legs.