Editor's note: this story contains scenes of incest or incest content.
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The son of absentee parents, and the brother of two antithetical sisters, Jeremy sought for a connection. Once he graduated high school he immediately began making the rounds at the local community college, attending parties, school events, bar hopping just to find a friend he could really maintain. Girlfriends came and went, guys piqued his interest for weeks at a time, but in the end he was disappointed.
On the night of his twenty-first birthday, it all changed.
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"Jeremy, please? We love you and we just want to celebrate having you in our lives."
Hannah was bent over the kitchen table, looking into his eyes with a sincere plea. She kept her straight blonde hair cut to her jawline except for the straight line of bangs above her eyes. Until recently, she had worn little wire-frame glasses that made her look like a nuclear-age librarian, but the recent upgrade to contacts heightened her small features. Jeremy placed a hand on her face and pushed her back.
"I said no. I don't need any more reminders that I'm one year closer to death."
Kat spoke up from across the table, her voice disembodied by the black suede boots propped up on the table, covering her face. "You don't really have to worry about that until mid-life. If anything you're approaching your prime."
"See? Just pretend it's not your birthday and we're going out for a fun night."
Jeremy sighed, "But we never just go out."
"Well maybe we should start," Hannah said, splaying her hands out by her sides in another attempted plea.
Kat lowered her feet from the table and revealed her thickly freckled face under curly, raven hair. Her black beanie completed the college girl look but for her Keatonesque choice of a business tie over her blouse. "Jay," she said, "do you object to the idea of a carnival?"
"I object to--"
"I repeat, do you object to the idea of a carnival?"
"No, I do not."
Kat stood up and walked by him, patting him on his curly brown hair as she made her way into the kitchen. "Good, then it's settled."
Jeremy hated the condescending tone she always took. In her time as the youngest child, she had grown bitter and cynical, and at a ripe young nineteen years she was already spouting pseudo-intellectual nonsense about economic rhetoric and socialist theory. On the flipside, Hannah was the up-standing oldest of the trio, evident by her conciliatory nature and generally sunny disposition. Jeremy, in more ways than one, often found himself somewhere between the two.
"Fine," he conceded. "You've pestered me enough."
Hannah bent down and kissed him on the cheek. "Thank you! You won't regret it, I promise. By the way, rent is due tomorrow. Sorry, birthday isn't for business. I mean normal day, today is a normal day."
"Hann," Kat said, spooning Lucky Charms onto her pierced tongue, "Shut up."
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(Why am I so sure about this? He's the best guy I've ever dated, I think I might even love him. So why am I doing this?)
Erica was approaching his apartment, possibly for the last time. She had only known him for a few short weeks, but their time together was magical. She stopped worrying about her self image when he was around, became more confident about her physical appearance. She began to love the way she looked, even though nothing had changed. Before, Erica thought herself too thin, too fragile, too tan. But he didn't care -- he seemed to like Erica more than her body. (Or does he?)
When she knocked on the door, he answered a short moment later, not quite smiling, but certainly not frowning. Just what she expected. "Hey, cutie," he said. "Come on in."
No one was home, as they often weren't around noon, he explained. His sisters both worked instead of going to school, so he usually had the place to himself when he wasn't in class. It made their sex life that much easier, and even more so because of how close he lived to campus. Their apartment was just a nice five minute walk from any parking spot she could pick.
Erica couldn't help but admire how he looked at any given time, today being no exception. His eyes were somewhere between grey and blue, like a storm over the ocean. He wasn't spectacularly muscular, nor was he overweight or underexercised. His face was chiseled, though his expressions were often soft. He always looked like something poignant were on his mind, as if something marvelous could spill out of his mouth any second.
And still, he was cold.
"I don't want to lie," she said, not knowing how to start. "I can't feed you a clichΓ© and feel comfortable with myself."
He was unfazed by her solemn tone. "Okay."
"It's not me, it's you. I am on the verge of obsession over here, I feel like I could tell you anything, give everything to you and... you just... don't seem interested. I'm falling for you, but you don't seem any more comfortable with me than our first time together. And I know there's nothing wrong with me, I am a great girlfriend."
"So you want to break up?"
"Yes," Erica said, incredulous. "See, you already know because you don't care."
"Okay," he said. "Sorry it didn't work out."
"What is wrong with you?" Tears were threatening to break past her eyelids. "Do you feel anything for me at all?"
"I like spending time with you."
"Is that it?" Jeremy had nothing to say. "You really are heartless."
Erica began to storm out, but she saw the page-a-day calendar tacked to the wall in the kitchen, and felt the sting of guilt surge through her entire body. "Happy birthday," she said. And it was over.
The moment she got back in her car, the tears decided not to fall. Instead, she was overwhelmed with ecstasy, as if she had jumped through a ring of fire. The beast could have bitten, but she held it at bay. (He didn't have the courtesy to fight,) she thought, but then countered that with, (I'm all the love I need in the end.)
She started to look at herself in the rearview mirror of her car, and began admiring. Taking a lesson from the wonderful man she'd failed to woo, Erica began to arouse herself. She could even feel herself getting wet.
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"Isn't this so cool?" Hannah shouted. The county fair was loud, and populated liberally with young people of varying personas. Jeremy was almost unable to enjoy the environment, surrounded by so many disinteresting people. He tried to distract himself, wondering whether Erica had been worth fighting for in the end.
Kat tilted her cotton candy over toward him and said, "Want a bite?" Intending to avoid further prodding by either sister, he took a small bite and let Hannah lead them toward the ring toss booth. She failed at all three.
"You think they have a Zoltar machine here?" Hannah asked, giddy.
"What's a --" and then Jeremy remembered. "Right, from Big."
"Holy shit, look!" Backed into a corner between the Guess Your Weight booth and the base of the Ferris wheel, there stood a novelty Zoltar, pulled straight from the 1980's. Just like the movie, it only took a quarter.
"Okay, Normal Day Boy," Kat said. "Here's a quarter."
Erica was still on his mind. He was thinking about their first time together, and just how easily it came to him to fuck her and hold her like they'd already been a couple for months. Surely at the time she had mistaken it for intimacy -- to him, it was a routine all too familiar. He had truly gone on auto-pilot for the entire relationship. (And what if I hadn't? Would I like her any more than I do? Or did I need to make her more likeable?)
"Jeremy!" Hannah pushed him by his shoulder toward the machine. "Go make a wish, or I'll break your face."
He dropped Kat's quarter into the machine and leaned against it, eyes away while the quarter slid in successfully. He couldn't see the gypsy's unblinking eyes, but he could see the countless lost quarters. "Hooray," he groaned. "What to wish for..."
The machine whispered, but he couldn't hear the words. Jeremy stood up straight, sure his mind was playing tricks on him. (Better get this over with.) "I wish I could change people," he said, sighing. (Then maybe I can make myself like someone.)
Hannah walked closer and pressed the button for him, the sounds of her cheering finally reaching his ears just as she was winding down. A little paper card popped out of the machine, reading YOUR WISH IS GRANTED.
"Lucky day," she said, kissing him on the cheek. "Don't tell anyone your wish, okay?"