The Crystal Palace
by Simon Underfoot
Copyright 2024; all rights reserved
Chapter 3
'Asshole.' She didn't say the words aloud, but I could see it in her eyes.
That was Madison: quiet, intelligent, deeply empathetic, and easily hurt. All packaged in a 5'4" frame with a body and style that screamed librarian. She'd tried going blonde, then red. Tried high fashion, then low -- the two-week emo phase still made me smile. Finally she'd settled on true-to-life, meaning jeans or basic slacks and a form fitting blouse enhanced by a push-up bra (so she told me). Beneath brunette bangs were a pair of honey colored eyes that were definitely her best feature, though I'd never worked up the courage to tell her so. We'd started the same week at the firm and been close since.
"Easy," her companion said, placing a calming hand on Madison's arm.
Jenny was more outgoing and also more prone to swings, so it was interesting to see her acting as the calm one. A couple years older, she was the one who had helped Madison get the job, and while still in her late-twenties, was already a team lead. Jenny was, in every sense of the word but age, mature. Confident. Socially competent. Eminently capable. Behind black frames her blue eyes smiled out at me, causing my heart to flutter like it always did. I'd had a serious crush since the moment we met. It was something about her mixed heritage, the perfect blend of skin tone, body type, and facial features that worked synergistically to form a uniquely striking appearance.
The third woman at the table smirked. "You have to admit, not telling us was definitely a dick move." The charming Hindi accent belied the ink black soul of my sworn frenemy, much to my ongoing consternation. She was constantly charming men and women alike, inside and outside the business world, using a natural charisma that defied explanation to win them to her side. I didn't actually hate her, but she'd driven me to the point of insanity on many, many occasions.
"Thanks, Sara," I replied sardonically as I sat on the open seat.
"Shouldn't you be wearing red?" she quipped. I started to retort, then realized all three of them were sitting a little further back from the table than normal, enough to be noticeable without being overtly rude.
I slid back off the chair and took a step backward. "This was a bad idea. I should go." I spun and walked away, even as I heard them call me back, forcing myself to limit my flight to a brisk walk through the still filling bar. I was out the door and onto the sidewalk before I realized it. Two steps toward home, then I froze, not sure what to do.
A hand on my shoulder some time later snapped me out of my daze. "Joe?" Blue eyes. Jenny.
My mouth opened, though nothing escaped.
"I didn't mean it. I don't really think you're a dick." Sara's voice, off to my right. "This whole thing caught us by surprise, you know?" She looked legitimately upset.
Nod. Blink. Breathe.
"Don't worry," I finally replied, coming back to myself a little. "I overreacted. It was just seeing that you're..." My shoulders collapsed and I let out a long exhalation. "I don't like that you're scared of me now."
"Why would we be scared of you?" Jenny asked, her brows furrowed and lips pursed. "You're still Joe."
Another shrug. I started to speak, but Madison interrupted me. "It was my fault. Before you arrived I was asking questions about being... Affected." She said the last word quietly. Uncertainly. Sure she had a mousy appearance, but she never did anything uncertainly. "I was worried. Am worried." Madison looked away.
"We talked about this," Jenny replied, obviously picking up the previous conversation. "We've sat together dozens of times, for hours, and none of us have ever been Affected. Nothing's changed except that Joe has a new job."
I smiled gratefully at her and opened my mouth to speak, but was cut off again. "That may not be entirely true." Madison was obviously avoiding eye contact with anyone as she spoke. "I didn't think about it until I heard that Joe had a new job, but after we get together on Fridays, I'm really..." She let out a frustrated huff and set her shoulders, but she still didn't look at anyone, instead talking to the evening air. "I thought it was because I like Joe." Her words came in a rush, and after a brief pause, she powered on. "After we get together, I'm always really worked up and I can't help it and I'm usually up until two or three trying to take the edge off. There -- I said it."
Silence within the group and shocked expressions all around. A very long moment passed and she finally met my eyes.
In that instant I saw her fear of being rejected, the constant struggle with identity and confidence, and decided I could help. "I'd like to give you a hug," I said slowly, "but I'm not sure that's a good idea." Jenny giggled and Madison shot her a dirty look. I opened my arms, giving Madison the choice.
One second, then two. She closed the distance quickly, her head smacking into my sternum with a thump as she wrapped her arms tightly around my middle. I pulled her to me, rubbing her back with one hand and the nape of her neck with the other.
"You must be pretty sensitive to the pheromones. If you stay this close, we'd better get back to my apartment quickly, because I doubt you'd like to put on a show here in the street." Her cheeks reddened as she smiled uncertainly at my joke, except the color started creeping down her neck alarmingly fast.
"Uh..." My eyes met Jenny's. "I need to take her to my place."
I saw the question in her eyes -- the surprise and incredulity. I nodded. Her mouth opened slightly, but she didn't say anything. I chanced a glance at Sara, expecting accusation, and instead saw something I'd never seen from her before: interest.
It left me confused for an instant before I regained my mental footing. "Let's go, Madison." I took the smaller woman's hand and turned, only to be brought up by a hand on my elbow.
"Can I come, too?" My sworn adversary, she of the quick tongue and acerbic wit, wanted to join in a night of lust and debauchery?
"But you don't even like me."
She kicked me in the shin. "Asshole. Of course I like you."