Carrie had told Becca that it was an interesting website, and she was right. Becca had spent the last hour and a half answering the very personal questions she was being asked to fill out. Of course, she had used a throwaway email, even though Carrie had said to use her real one.
The questions had started talking about beliefs, philosophies, and spirituality. They'd moved on, uncomfortably, to darker emotions - anger, hatred, jealousy, envy. By the time they got to sexual fantasies, it was almost a relief. Becca had some very perverted sexual fantasies that she never thought would be covered by a multiple-choice and short answer test, and yet somehow it had dived deeply into that part of her psyche. Now, she was just about finished, and the test was supposed to come back with some kind of evaluation. "Like one of those 'what Star Trek character are you' quizzes, but a lot deeper," Carried had explained.
Becca hit send and waited. A little spiral substituted for a progress bar, whirling around and around while she watched. Analyzing, 28%. Analyzing 55%. Analyzing 88%. Finished Analyzing, subject completely understood.
Yeah, right.
You are a go getter, it said, always eager to get ahead. You have limited patience for whoever gets in your way, particularly if they are less competent than you, but are willing to listen and be mentored by those whose understanding is greater.
Sure. That's me. Not exactly news, silly AI quiz.
Your lifestyle causes you stress, and you yearn to listen and be mentored.
Stress, whatever. It's repeating itself. I don't know what Carrie saw in this.
You yearn to trust. Trusting makes you feel less stress.
Why is it just putting a few words on the screen at a time?
Trusting feels good. You should trust, listen, and be mentored.
Becca clicked on the screen, wondering if that would make it go faster, annoyed at the repetition.
The more you trust, the better you feel. Trusting feels good. Trust, listen, and be mentored.
Becca stared at the screen. The swirling pattern that she'd taken for a progress bar was still playing in the background.
Trusting feels good. You want to trust.
That was true. She wanted to trust people, but they so often turned out to be such assholes.
You told me all about yourself because you trusted, and trusting feels good. The more you trust, the better you feel. You trust the program now, and soon, you'll trust it even more.
Well yes, typing in all those things had felt good, although she couldn't believe she told it how she felt about Sheila in 10
th
grade, or about how she dreamed of being dominated, or that sometimes she wanted to let everything go and just be in her body.
Trust.
The words lingered on the screen. So that's what I'm supposed to get out of this. I'm supposed to trust. Okay. Becca watched as the letters pulsed. Behind them, some sort of glitch caused quick images to briefly replace the spiral, too fast for her to quite make out what they were.
You're feeling very good right now, because you've trusted me with your secrets. The more you trust, the better you feel. The better you feel, the more you can be who you want to be.
She had thought it was over, but she watched the words, trying to catch sight of the images that flashed every so quickly and failing.
Keep looking at the screen, Becca. Trust the program. The more you trust, the hornier you feel.
Wait, horny? She did feel a little tingle between her legs, so it wasn't as if the program was wrong. Maybe it really did know her, although it was being kind of intrusive. But she had, after all, told it her sexual fantasies. She noticed the images that moved had a lot of flesh tones in them, whatever they were. Were those boobs? Was that a cock?
The more you watch, the hornier you feel. The hornier you feel, the more you want to let go, and trust. The more you trust, the more you'll watch. And that just keeps feeling better and better, doesn't it Becca?
It did feel good.
The same text came up again, and she read it over. Then again. And again. Each time she just kept reading it, and each time she felt a little hornier. It was getting quite warm, she thought.
Everything the program has told you so far has made you feel very good. Just click in the little box when it appears, because clicking will feel better than anything you've felt so far.
Becca clicked on the box. Something about a camera, microphone, and speakers. It made her feel good to click on the box, although it made her nervous, too. She didn't want to analyze it, although something in her said that maybe she should.
Everything that happens is a result of your answers, Becca. Everything this program has done is tailored directly to you, to help you be the happiest woman you can be.
The words still came up on the screen, but they came from the speaker, too, in a soft, seductive voice.
The more you listen, the hornier you feel. The hornier you feel, the more nothing else matters. All that matters is how horny you feel, and you keep feeling hornier and hornier. Soon, you'll be allowed to touch yourself, but not yet.
Of course other things mattered, thought Becca, although she really would love it if they didn't. Her biggest sexual fantasy was to give herself totally to the sensations, feelings, and desires, but she never had. Not with any boyfriend. It wouldn't do any harm now, alone, to pretend nothing else mattered but her own desire. In fact, it felt good, just as the program said. The program seemed to understand her better than anyone.
You're so horny now, but you're going to be even more desperate before we're done, Becca. We're going to further into your fantasies, and it's going to feel so good. Say how horny you are, Becca.
"I'm very horny," she said aloud.