Savannah almost got away with it. She had timed her visit to Loralee's lab with almost military precision, aiming for the narrow window when their respective lunch hours overlapped so that she could hit the supply closet while Loralee was still in the cafeteria. She'd taken a circuitous route specifically to avoid accidentally bumping into Loralee and letting her destination slip out during one of Loralee's aggressively friendly conversations. She had raced down the hallways as fast as her long legs could carry her, unlocked the door with the security badge she'd been holding nervously the entire time to make sure she didn't lose precious time trying to double back for it, jinked around the clutter that always surrounded Loralee's workbench, and made it to the supply closet with minutes to spare.
Now she needed to remember what the hell she needed down here before Loralee got back. Crap.
She rummaged frantically through spools of copper wire and spare soldering guns. It wasn't that she was disliked Loralee-in a lot of ways, it was impossible to actually dislike Loralee. The friendly Caucasian woman with the long ash-blonde hair had never been anything but kind to Savannah, treating her with an open warmth that sustained Savannah during that first year at the company when it seemed like they would never accept a black woman in a STEM position. And Savannah didn't want to repay that with nervousness, or hostility. It was just that...Savannah grimaced, turning a skeptical eye on her own motives and not liking what she saw very much at all.
Savannah leaned over and grabbed a packet of connector pins. They weren't what she was looking for, and she rattled them as if she was trying to shake something loose inside her own head. She knew she had to get moving soon; if she spent any more time woolgathering, Loralee would find her here and that would lead to another one of those conversations that felt awkward despite Loralee's constant, unrelenting friendliness.
Or perhaps because of it. Savannah hated second-guessing every sentence, going over every touch and every glance in her head to try to figure out whether it was something more than innocent affection. It wasn't Loralee's fault that she was gay and Savannah wasn't, but Savannah couldn't help it-ever since she found out that Loralee was a lesbian, she'd been certain that there was more than just friendship behind all those smiles. She tried to tell herself not to be uncomfortable, that Loralee hadn't changed, but-
"Hey, Savannah!" Loralee walked into the lab, letting the door swing shut behind her with a booming clang. Savannah stood up bolt upright so quickly she almost overbalanced into a pile of circuit boards, and the packet of connector pins went flying out of her hands as she pinwheeled in an attempt to keep her balance. "What brings you down to-whoa, careful there!" Loralee darted across the room, grabbing Savannah's wrist to keep her from falling over.
Savannah steadied herself, aware that she had just done a wonderful impression of the Wacky Neighbor character in a bad sitcom, and brushed a few curls of dark hair out of her eyes that had gone astray during the near tumble. "Um, thanks," she mumbled, gesturing with her free hand to the supply closet. "Um, I was just down here to, um, get some...stuff." She felt the heat of a blush under her mahogany skin, grateful that it didn't show; she sounded like a complete idiot, she didn't need to look like one as well.
If Loralee noticed her embarrassment, she didn't let on. "Well, I'm glad you're here!" she said, dragging Savannah over to her workbench. "I'm having problems with a circuit design, and I was really hoping you could help me!" Savannah wanted to pull free and make a run for it, but social pressure trapped her in the room more thoroughly than any lock ever could. It would hurt Loralee terribly if she thought that Savannah didn't like her, and the last thing Savannah wanted to do was make her colleague feel bad.
Loralee rummaged around in a pile of components, finally unearthing a massive circuit board with a tracery of copper wire soldered to it. The tangle of circuitry was so ludicrously complex that it made Savannah's eyes water just looking at it, and she couldn't even imagine what it could possibly be used for, let alone how it could work. It looked like plugging it in would start a fire that you could see from space. "That's, um...interesting," she mumbled, hoping that Loralee would respond by setting it aside with a laugh and hunting for the thing she was actually looking for.
No such luck. "It is nice, but I'm having a hell of a time calculating the resistance. See, if I plug in a power supply here," Loralee said, tapping a spot on the corner of the board, " I know it's going to flow down through here, and then around past this spot, and if you just keep following my finger you'll see that it's quite complicated, so let me know if your eyes lose their focus as you keep watching me trace the shining circuit down and around and around and down and-"