Power.
Everyone wants it. From the ruthless business mogul all the way down to the suburban housewife. Oh, they might not call it that, but that was what it was. The Power to see, to do, to have... to know. Didn't matter what you wanted or had convinced yourself that you needed; it all came down to Power - who had it, how they used it. Regardless of your station in life, Power makes everything easier. The Power to close the mega deal, was as important to the 28-year-old cocaine fueled businessman - as it was to the frazzled 50-year-old mother of 3. The issue with power was that it was way more addictive than the purest China White and anyone who has ever carried that monkey around knows that no matter how innocently it starts, that little pet spider monkey on your back known as Heroin can turn into a 400 lb. gorilla damn near overnight. Swap out Heroin for the Power to do whatever you want, with whoever you want? And that gorilla ends up being the size of King Kong. So, as Suzy homemaker slides the vibrator out of her bedside drawer instead of getting up and waking up the kiddos for another fun filled day of public education, she reflects on what she wouldn't do with a little more time. Day, after day, after day... until she would literally mortgage her soul for the power to do what she wanted.
I was lying in bed staring at the ceiling wrestling with my own monkey, trying to determine exactly when I had decided to stop dabbling with Power and to start free basing it instead. Guilt, regret, shame. The memory of my mother riding my cock like a woman possessed, her warmth, the aroma of her soaking wet pussy, the sounds she made, were all crystal clear. Unlike my sister, with whom I could say it was more of a subconscious desire, voiced when I didn't know the rules. My mother was a different story. I was pretty sure that it was my conscious influence that caused her to react the way she did last night and from the moment she appeared in my doorway wild and wet with want, I knew exactly what I was doing. All my self-questioning, all my reluctance, all my concerns about the morality of my actions had dissipated like smoke. I wanted her and knew I had the power to make her want me. So, I did it. At the time it seemed right. Hell, I seemed to recall telling myself I deserved it, and as she slid her pussy... that same pussy that had brought me into this world, as she slid her pussy onto my cock, I felt... free. Like I was granted parole and I just needed to wait a little longer. I just had to follow the necessary steps to become... free? More? Something else?
Something greater. The thought came unbidden to my brain. Yes, the Power to be something greater.
Reaching out with my thoughts was easy. My sister was still dead to the world sleeping the deep untroubled sleep of the truly contented. My father was getting dressed quietly, in preparation for playing golf. My mother... she was curled on her side pretending to sleep. A whole gamut of emotions was pulsating from her. Guilt was by far the most prevalent. But sadness was there as well as disbelief, humiliation and... shame. Shame not only for what she had done but for wanting to do it again. I could feel her tears start to flow as my father left the room.
I waited until I heard my father leave. Staring at the ceiling and thinking about Power, wondering what had possessed me to do what I did and listening to my mother's thoughts as her emotions pulsated like a raw festering wound. I got up and headed to her room. The solution was easy when you thought about it. All I had to do was remove her guilt. Simple. As I approached her room I listened closely to her thoughts. She was still in bed but no longer pretending to be asleep, staring at the ceiling pretty much as I had been doing.
What the fuck is wrong with me she thought. How could I do that to my own son. My own son! What kind of mother am I? I'm sure Scott hates me. I probably fucked him up for life. God how terrible am I? What the fuck? Interspersed between her thoughts was a replay of last night. Her riding my cock. Her orgasming harder than she had ever done so in her life. How I felt inside of her. How wet she was. Then right back to her thoughts on how bad of a mother she was. How fucked up of a person. Am I so fucked up that I would fuck my own son? Fuck. Why do I want to do it again?
I knocked lightly on the door and felt her panic. I needed to do something and quick. "Mom?" I entered into her room, quietly shutting the door behind me.
"Scott." I felt her sadness spike. "Scott honey. I'm so, so sorry... oh god, can you... uh...ever forgive me?" She sat up holding the sheet around herself. Even exhausted after a night of no sleep and wild sex, she was beautiful.
"Forgive you? For what?" I sat on the edge of her bed and looked at her. "Mom... last night was... amazing, really amazing. Hot. I-I enjoyed it. A lot. Didn't you?" It would be so easy to give her a little push and take away her guilt, but some perverse part of me was dragging it out.
"That's not the point Scott. I'm your mother, what we did... what I did, was wrong. So very wrong. I mean... me showing up in your room like that? I have no idea what came over me. I only know that I'm a terrible person. A terrible mom. I probably scarred you for life!"
"No, you're not. Not even in the slightest. Look mom... I... It was so... sexually exciting. So hot. I'm 18... I knew what I was doing, and I liked it. I don't hate you or regret anything or feel taken advantage of. I wanted it as much as you did. Honestly, I can't stop thinking about it. Can you?" I gave her a little push. Be honest.
"No..." It was said quietly, regretfully. "I just... I never in a million years would have imagined doing something like that. I-I still don't know what possessed me to go to your room, but I'm sorry. So truly sorry." I could sense she was feeling a little better. Still ashamed. Still sad, but willing to believe she hadn't fucked me up for life. She was also feeling regret that she would never know another orgasm as powerful as the one she had felt last night. She pushed the thought down.
All my self-flagellation earlier was gone, and the feeling of power was back. It was like an entity had taken over. A tidal wave of emotional acceptance. I could hear myself, could see what I was doing, but another part of me said that my earlier feelings of guilt were stupid. That I was being a pussy. I felt like a passenger in my own body, I knew what was happening, I saw what was happening, but I was powerless to stop it. A small part of me wondered if this was what my sister felt when I 'pushed' her. The other entity? The driver. Dispelled my reservations, dismissed them. Relax... sit back kid and enjoy the ride it seemed to say. Mom was fine, hell she was turned on right now. She wanted my cock. She enjoyed it. For some perverse reason I gave her a little push. You enjoyed it. Sure, your feel guilty, ashamed even, but you want to do it again. It excites you thinking about my cock. Your son's cock. The fact you're my mom makes your pussy soaking wet. Our relationship, while unorthodox was completely normal. Sure, we would hide it, but you wanted it... wanted to revel in the fact that you were fucking your own son. The tension left my mother's face, her eyes softened, and she even smiled at me.
She reached out and touched my face, dropping the sheet. Her nipples were hard as diamonds, and I could smell her arousal. "My handsome boy. You... you really like it? Liked me? You don't think I'm old or I don't know gross for enjoying it so much? Your own mom?"
"Are you kidding mom? I loved it. Too old? Are you kidding, you look like a supermodel. Your body...?" I tugged the sheet down even further and looked at her shaven pussy, she must wax it, it looked so smooth. "Gorgeous... such a pretty pussy."