The revelation had left me in a daze.
Not at the fact that Marco was the traitor but at how all-encompassing that corruption had been.
In the deepest parts of my mind, I had already known that it was Marco, but that corruption had somehow managed to make me overlook it. To doubt my own reasoning. I think a big part of me had known the moment Uri had told me about the traitor's influence. The simple fact of the matter was that only three people had ever stepped foot in my city to be able to plant it.
Sterling had been inside when he attacked, but there was nothing in his broken mind about the rogues, the traitor, or the war between the Evo's and this part of the Inquisition when I had smashed it open upon his defeat. Sterling had been physically and mentally incapable of hiding anything from me, and I mined that fucker for everything. I found it inconceivable that I had missed something this huge.
Charlotte had been another person who had been allowed into my city, but my trust in her was marrow-deep. I had watched her crumple when she learned of Becky's death, I had seen the concern, venturing into panic, on her face when she had found me after the party, and I had seen her anger at the Sect when they refused to pick a side. Every single part of me trusted her. I trusted her with my secrets, I trusted her with Philippa and Evie, I trusted her with my life.
That only left Marco. It could only have been him.
I knew that as soon as Uri described the corruption, yet that manipulation, the little spec of Marco's own consciousness that he had used to poison my reasoning, had fought against that simple, undeniable knowledge. Right up to the end, it fought me. Uri could have been lying, even though I had seen his memories firsthand and knew that he wasn't. Maybe it was Fiona when we had slept together in the cottage, or perhaps it had been Jerry... he'd been around pretty much constantly since New Years as well. Yet, I somehow knew that whoever had planted that seed of doubt would have had to have done it from
within
my own mind. Neither Jerry nor Fiona had ever stepped foot inside my city.
Yet still, it fought me.
Every thought I had was twisted to push suspicion away from Marco and onto Uri, or - now that he was dead - it warped my reasoning instead. Anything to get my mind to question whether it was real or not. Right until the moment it was shattered.
Things were starting to slot into place. Marco, as far as I could tell, hadn't even considered inviting me to the party until he had seen my city and seen the full measure of my power up close. He had invited me knowing that the attack was about to happen - and yes, it
had
to have been him who arranged it. I couldn't even begin to imagine the sense of smug self-admiration he must have felt when I carved my way through the men who had executed Faye; he must have thought that all of his Christmases had come at once. He couldn't possibly have known that I would have decimated the ranks of attacking rogues as effectively as I had, but he also couldn't have known that I would have met and bonded with Faye, either. Let's face it: that was the part that really induced my incandescent rage.
The best he could possibly have hoped for was that I was either killed in the attack, meaning one less threat for him to worry about, or I survived the onslaught and joined the fight. Either way, the war would have started, either with me out of the way or firmly on-side.
Instead, he had found a weapon that he was able to control or at least manipulate into doing his bidding.
Jesus. He had even known about Faye being in my city. He couldn't possibly have known about Faye without being in my mind; nobody did. And yet he had mentioned her in his email. How the fuck had I missed that?
He had played me like an instrument the entire time.
With his influence firmly in my head, he could manipulate every thought I had about every single piece of information that I had found in the entirety of my investigation. He couldn't change what I found out, but he sure as shit could make sure that the finger of suspicion pointed firmly away from him.
As soon as I had heard his voice, the corruption had shattered, like a shadow being exposed to the truthful rays of the sun's dazzling light. In its wake, however, I was starting to see the full effect he was having on me.
The manipulation wasn't like a passive computer program, automatically operating in the background and affecting my thoughts. It was like his own little window into my city. It was a conscious effort on his part. Everything that had been done to me had been Marco deliberately warping my own logic. Every mistake I had made had been capitalized on, and every chance I had to address my own failings, every time I had considered a way to make myself better, he had smothered them like an infant at birth.
The filter I had put onto the thoughts I could hear around me was a perfect example. Only that morning, I had once again come to the realization that I needed to re-examine how that was working because I kept missing important information that was right at my fingertips. From not sensing the men sneaking up on us in Donetsk or the partisans in Alchesv'k to missing my chance to deal justice to the men responsible for the massacre of the civilians there. I had known that I needed to look at how my filters worked again; I had plenty of time to do it on the way here, so why hadn't I?
And now I knew.
Marco had sat back and watched those thoughts developing, and then he had perfectly redirected them onto something else and made sure I had forgotten about them. Because he knew that having access to that sort of information would have made it much harder for him to stay hidden. By the time I made it to the meeting with Olena, he had warped my thinking enough to make me completely forget about the filters and instead focus on my target. I had been utterly convinced that Uri was the traitor in our midst, so much so that it only took one comment from him to smash open the gates that were holding back my rage. I had been only moments away from crashing into his mind to
take
the information I wanted. Information that Marco would have twisted to suit his own purposes.
There was no doubt in my mind that, upon finding the 'facts' that Marco wanted me to see, I would have simply destroyed Uri, considered my job done, and I would have gone home.
It was Eric-the-smug-sniper who had stopped things. His bullet had killed Uri, and my being inside Uri's city as he died - after knowingly sacrificing himself for the cause - downloading decades of knowledge and memories and seeing some of them firsthand finally convinced me that Uri wasn't the traitor. It was more first-hand information at once than Marco was capable of manipulating. That bullet had undone all of his planning, although I doubted any of the people in the room saw it that way. As soon as I had performed those last rites, the chances of Marco maintaining his facade that Uri was the viper in the nest dropped to zero. That didn't mean I would have worked out it was Marco; the manipulations were still in place, and he could have redirected my suspicions onto someone else.