Fear and Trust

Hey everyone, I know it's been a few months since my last update, and

a lot

has happened since that day of discovery.

Where do I even start? I suppose the next couple of days and weeks?

So after that day, I stayed over another day. Obviously. Vanny and I did fuck a lot more too, mostly her pounding me relentlessly, other times I'd fuck her. We discovered that if I wanted it, she could make her whole giant fuck rod vanish temporarily, which made it easier to do. But we also spent a lot of time gaming and talking. She asked if I'd join on her stream and I did, though we only had two viewers. Apparently streaming as a gamer isn't as easy as streaming as a 'gamer'.

When we did finally go back to work, I took Gemma aside and talked to her. It was...well awkward is a word for it.

"Ace...I..."

"Gem, it's fine. I meant what I said in the text; I'm not mad and I forgive you. Plus, I think we both know there's something...irresistible about it." I said it and meant it, though I would be

very

careful about the two of them being around each other. I'm not vindictive or anything, but...well if

you'd

been cheated on, I don't think you'd want the two players around each other either.

"I...I didn't mean to! I promise!" Her lips, those big pillowy lips that I'd kissed a lot those last couple days, though on

Vanny

(gods that thought is still weird, even all these months later), trembled and she looked like she was going to cry. In all the years we'd been friends, I'd only seen her cry a small handful of times, so it threw me for a loop.

"I believe you, I do. It's ok, Gem. We're ok, don't worry." I wanted to tell her about Vanny and the whole witch thing, but that wasn't my place. I'd have to at least

ask

Vanny first.

I pulled her into a hug and she shuddered a bit, then took a couple deep breaths before pulling away.

"So...what now?" There was the Gemma I'd come to know. Straight shoulders, confident stance. I know she isn't

just

what she portrayed, of course, but it's always good to see.

"Now nothing. I might be a bit weird here and there, but it's ok, don't worry."

"Worry about what?"

We both flinched as Jake turned a corner, having heard the very tail end of our conversation. I love Jake, I really do, but he is

not

someone who could handle...well any of this. If he found out about Gemma and Vanny cheating, he'd probably explode. Not violently or anything, but when his dad had cheated on his mom, he'd cussed him out for a solid

hour

, his dad couldn't get a single word in. Then he'd thrown his dad's clothes - his mom had packed them - out the window of his second story bedroom and hasn't talked to him since.

And everything else? I don't even

know

how he'd react. Witches, magic, impossible genitals? Even if he had proof, I don't know if he'd even believe it.

"Nothing, you eavesdropper." Gemma said before I could say anything.

"Well that just means something juicy. Tell me later, Ace?" He looked to me and winked. I just shook my head, trying hard not to smile at his antics. Honestly, it felt really good to return to a sense of normality, as...abnormal as Jake is.

"Really nothing, dude. Locked up." It was a thing we'd come up with, years ago. The three of us share a lot. Most of the time, we talked to each other like diaries; telling our inner thoughts and feelings, everything. But we also learned

really

early on, that sometimes we needed to keep something to ourselves, or to one other. So, if we just didn't wanna talk about it at that moment, we'd say 'unlocked, open later' and if it was something that we

never

wanted to share, 'locked up'. And that was that. Honestly, I think it was probably the healthiest thing we'd ever agreed on.

His face fell a bit, but then he shrugged.

"Fine, fine, ok. So, rumour has it that you called in yesterday, two days after your date? You stay over a little extra, huh?" He nudged me and I couldn't hold back my grin. Even Gemma cracked a small smile. Jake, while a little...extra at times, well he holds us together as a trio.

"Something like that, you goof."

"So...tell me! Did I miss out on a primo lady?" Gemma coughed and rolled her eyes and I just smirked.

"Grow up, weirdo. But...yes. Vanessa is...well, I think she's one of a kind." Metaphorically and literally.

Gemma nodded, her eyes glazed over a bit, but then shook her head.

"Sorry,

bros

, but I have a

job

to get to, so I'mma leave the whole

guy talk

thing you got going on here. Toodles." And she walked off, drawing all the same eyes as always. Part of me smirked, internally, knowing I could tap that whenever I wanted, albeit in a...different way.

Another part of me was appalled that I'd even think like that.

"She's right. We also gotta work." I murmured and Jake rolled his eyes but nodded.

"Fiiiine, be no fun. You free later? I was thinking about hitting up that new video game bar down town?" He asked as he shrugged on his uniform and I frowned.

"Maybe. Me and Vanny were thinking about going out, though we haven't picked a place."

He groaned.

"Ugh, I'm gonna be third wheeling again, aren't I?"

I just grinned and walked off.

"Traitor!" He yelled back, and we both laughed.

We did end up going out to it, it was pretty cool. Arcade machines, pinball, alcohol? They go together like PB&J, mac and cheese, Mario kart and competition. We had a hell of a time, drinking cocktails like the Pikachu and Sonic, and pizza that they make in house.

It was more expensive than you'd think, and definitely over priced, but not egregiously so. Plus, Vanny paid her own way, and even offered to pay for the next date. She would've paid for this one, but she hadn't budgeted for it so soon. I hugged her at that, and we shared a deep kiss that only ended when Jake made a sound of supreme annoyance. We'd just laughed at him.

Gemma joined us part way through, and the four of us hung out for a while, before getting cabs home. Vanny invited me back to her place and I didn't even pause to think before agreeing.

Not sure if I made this clear last time, but Vanny

can

go more than a dozen times, but she

needs

at least four or five times a day, or her balls swell and really hurt. She'd shown me once, mostly cause I'd called bullshit. Told her that's just something people say to get more sex.

So, she'd cum in front of me three times - three

massive

times - and then stopped, and we went about our day. By the time dinner came around, her balls couldn't retreat anymore and were almost

three times

their normal size and she was groaning like a woman on a particularly bad period.

I sucked her off five times in apology. Had to call in again, I was so full and of that spunk, and it was less than a full load! Turns out she usually fills her bath tub, one that had a custom drain larger than average. I wonder what the sewer workers think of the daily doses of dozens and dozens of gallons of cum.

And that morning, I'd gotten her off a couple times, and she'd done the same for me. We agreed early on that we'd share in our relationship. Every time I'd get her off, she'd do the same for me, although I can only go eight or so times on a good day. So, any 'extra' times I help her, she teaches me a bit about magic.

Or tries to. I'm not really a good learner with it. I like to think a lot, like to organize things, figure out the inner workings, how things tick.

Magic is about

feeling

and going with the flow. Something that's pretty much the exact opposite. So far, even to this day, the most I can do is make a small breeze and alter my body temperature. Not by much, but if I'm cold, I can heat myself and if I'm too hot, I can cool myself. It's actually pretty useful.

So we went back to her place, fucked a bit and I just fell asleep. Look, sex takes a lot of energy and even in my brain dead 'Bambi' form, I can still only do so much. The good part is now I sleep well

every

night. And I don't have to go to the gym anymore; I get a

really

good workout every day!

The next day I woke up with a bit of a hang over, which I was surprised at since I hadn't thought I was that drunk. Vanny, on the other hand, was bright and cheery, had made me coffee and pancakes. Apparently she doesn't get hangovers, it's a 'witch thing'. I'd told her I hated her.

She chuckled.

The next few weeks are a bit blurry, not that I can't remember every detail, but more that my days became a routine. Early mornings filled with fantastic fantasy sex, work - which I'd become more confident at, and had multiple people tell me I seemed happier, which I'd thought weird cuz I wasn't unhappy before - sometimes hang out with Gemma and Jake, go back to Vanessa's place, more fantasy sex and sleep. Repeat.

I hadn't been back to my place in weeks, other than to go grab clothes or other things. Gemma and Vanny also had a talk - privately, but they both agreed to me being close by - and came to their own resolution. Vanny also told her a bit about being a witch, though not as much as she told me. Gemma took to that faster than I'd expected.

Sometimes she'd come visit us, but always made sure I was there and knew in advance. I'd mostly moved past it, but emotions don't really work on logic and sometimes seeing them close made me upset. Not angry, but still upset.

Then came the day that Gemma asked.

I'd known it would happen, how could it not? Vanny had sworn up and down that while she too found Gemma

gorgeous

- we'd even tried making me look like her once, and it'd been...well let's just say that it hadn't worked as well as it does when

she

does it. Still, it'd been enough for me to get a pussy, albeit temporarily, and woooow. Women feel sex

so

differently than men...but maybe that's a story for another time. Where was I?

Right, she admitted to being attracted to Gemma, just like me, Jake and pretty much everyone else who ever even

saw

her, but swore that nothing would ever happen. Even if she somehow saw her naked again, she'd walk away. And honestly? I believed her. There'd been a small chance once, maybe two or so weeks before Gemma asked that one thing...

We'd gone to the beach. Vanny had discovered that, as long as I wanted it, she could disappear her massive appendage and she'd been

sooo

excited to be able to wear an actual

feminine

swimsuit that I couldn't deny her. I spent most of the time concentrating on that for her and I'd do it again. She was

so

happy, she was practically jumping for joy. I'd never thought about how it'd have to have been for her, being stuck with something that didn't really emphasize her...womanness.

But at one point, Gemma had gone to the showers and change room that were erected nearby, and I was concentrating too much to notice. Vanessa had asked, while shaking her now bigger tits in my face - not sure if that's part of me wanting it, or if her powers made them bigger on their own - if I wanted anything by the little ice cream shop by the showers. I said no, but gave her some money if she did. She tried to say she'd pay it on her own, but I just smiled and told her it was my treat. She'd hugged me and ran off that way.

The line was huge, so I knew she'd be a while, so I just decided to lie back and close my eyes in the sun, making sure to keep concentrating. We weren't sure on how large the range on her powers was, but the showers were only fifty or so feet away, and we knew from experience it was longer than that. But less than five minutes later she ran back, tears starting. I sat up, worried I'd forgotten and she'd sprouted her monster in front of people. She pulled me into a hug, shaking.

"Baby? I'm sorry..." I started. I was worried I'd nodded off a bit in the afternoon heat.

"W...what?" She pulled back and looked at me, confusion and tears in her eyes.

"...Uhhh...I thought I'd forgotten your ahem" I said gesturing to her crotch. "And you'd...showed?" Now

I

was confused.

"Oh, no no. Though I love that you were worried about that." She smiled through her tears and sat in my lap, wrapping her legs loosely around me. I frowned at her, hugged around her waist.

"Then what's wrong?" What could have happened in

five

minutes?

"I...I swear,

nothing

, I mean

nothing, nothing

happened. I promise." She said, her voice trembling a bit. Now I was concerned.

"Babe, just tell me. You're kinda scaring me here."

"Sorry, sorry. I got there, and realized I had to pee, so I went in the change room, was just gonna pee in the shower. The bathroom line is even longer than the food line." I nodded; you could see that from where I was sitting. It'd been like that pretty much our entire time there.

"And...well, when I got there, I waited for a free shower, and...Gemma came out. She was in her swimsuit, but we both know that's pretty much naked, it's so damn small." I closed my eyes and nodded. She was right; Gem had had every gym bro and wanna be surfer coming on to her all day.

"And I left, right away, I swear! I didn't do anything, I promise really!" She was whispering, but I could hear the worry in her voice.

"Baby, it's ok. I believe you. Even

if

your..." Again, I gestured to her currently flat crotch. "was out, we both know you take more than five minutes. Plus, I have the feeling there'd be a line of people following you, drooling." She gave me that head tilt she does when she doesn't believe me.

"So...you're not mad?"

"At what? An accident? Baby, you know I'm not going to be mad at you for

seeing

someone, right?" She sniffled a bit and nodded.

"Don't worry so much, bunny. Now, you didn't get your ice cream."

That moment had bonded us a bit more, for me because it solidified my trust in her, and for her because she learned I really did trust her. So when Gemma...

That day started like any other; I was at her place, we'd just finished cleaning - she'd cum a bit faster than we'd expected so it was all over me and the bed - when I got a message. Not too unusual, but most of the time people don't message me. Usually just work and Vanny, so I immediately checked it, thinking it was work since my girlfriend was right next to me.

It wasn't.

I paled when I saw the message; I could actually feel the blood leave my face. I hadn't even seen the full message; just the little bit the preview notification showed me.

Hey big guy I tossed back and forth on if I should message

you...I have to ask though. I've been avoiding it for weeks

and I need to ask. I need to know if you would be ok with

sharing Vanessa...

The preview cut off from there, but I knew what was going to be said. Of course I did; it wasn't like there was too many paths to go when you start with 'hey wanna share your giant cocked girlfriend'.

I just stood there, frozen. After what felt like forever, but was probably only ten seconds or so, my screen turned off, and I still stood there. I'd thought we were fine, that Gemma had moved past it, like me and Vanny, that she understood me and Vanessa were together and that was that.

Another ten or so seconds later and Vanessa looked at me.

"Baby? You ok?" Her voice sounded like music, concerned and lilting.

I didn't respond, not sure if I should say anything, if I should delete the message, if I should respond.

"Ace? Baby?"

I blinked and shook my head slowly. I handed her my phone and sat down on the still soaked blankets, but I didn't care at that point. She read it silently before handing it back and hugging me. I don't know if she really knew how I was feeling at that moment -

I

didn't really know. But she hugged me anyways.

"Baby, you know I am

not

going to be 'shared', right? I'm with

you

, and you only. I know we play with Gemma's form a bit, but if it's too much now, we don't have to. I'm more than happy to just be us."

I just nodded, unsure of how to respond. It wasn't wrong, what she said, but I was also unsure if that would do anything right now. She hugged me again, and wrapped her legs around me, like that day on the beach. I could feel her huge penis pushing against me, but soft and in that moment, I didn't feel anything. Sexually, I mean.

"I...How could she even

ask

that?" I whispered. I'd meant to speak normal, but it's how it came out. I'm not a super emotional person, usually. Like if this had been a joke or something, I'd probably have laughed it off and that would've been that.

But now...even if she tried to say it

was

a joke, all three of us - me, her and Vanny - we all knew better.

"I don't know, baby. If it helps, I'm not super thrilled that she'd ask that as if I have no autonomy..." She whispered too.

I laughed at that. Not a big laugh or anything, just a small chuckle. Vanny frowned at me.

"Sorry, sorry. You're kinda new to our little group, but that's not really what she was asking. She probably meant it more like 'if I were to ask Vanessa and she said yes, would you be ok with that'. It's the way we talk to each other. Jake probably would've said it outright if it was him."

"...Still, not thrilled about this."

"Me neither, bunny. This...I thought she was past your little...dalliance." We didn't talk about it much anymore, as the two of us really were past it, but calling it 'cheating', while accurate, felt too much like an attack in that moment.

"Me too, if I'm honest. When we had our chat, I was

very

clear nothing was ever going to happen again. I promise."

I looked at her with a small smile.

"I know, baby. I believe you. I think...I think maybe we need some distance. Her and I, I mean." She may be my oldest friend but at that moment, I really did consider just never talking to her again. An extreme reaction, maybe, but this...it hit me way more than I'd ever thought something could. Hit harder than even when I'd found out about their dance.

Looking back, I'm sure that it was cause while their dance had been

cheating

, it hadn't been planned and was realistically as close to an accident as it could've been. Yes yes, they

chose

to do it, but still. This...

this

was straight up a choice. She'd clearly weighed the options and had decided that getting railed by

my

girlfriend's massive rod was more important than our friendship.

"If that's what you want, darlingheart, I'll support you. But she is your friend, your best friend. Are you sure?" Have I mentioned just how much I love her?

"Thanks, bunny. I need some time from her, I think."

"Ok, baby. Do you want me to reply to her? Tell her you're gonna need some time?"

I thought about it for a few moments. As much as I didn't want someone else fighting my battles, maybe if Gemma saw that Vanny and I were united on this, maybe she'd realize her mistake. I nodded.

"Just...don't be mean or anything. I...I don't want to react yet; this is just...a pause, I guess." Vanessa, my wonderful heart and love nodded and pulled out her phone and tapped for a bit before showing me.

Gemma, it's Vanessa. Both of us saw your message.

We...we think it's best if we all take a step back from

each other. The question you posed is something we

don't know how to react to, other than to say no

thank you. Please don't reply; Ace or myself will

message you when we're ready.

Much nicer than I thought she'd be, if I was honest. But it was true; neither of us really knew how to react to it, but we also didn't want that. At all. Polyamory is something neither of us look down on or anything, but what Gemma was requesting...that's not a true relationship. That's just looking for sex and depraved sex at that.