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It had been a week since my exam went so horribly wrong and I ended up sucking the professor's cock. If I failed I'd have no choice but to drop out and give up on my dream of becoming a doctor. I still didn't know my results and the anxiety just kept getting worse. Especially when my special "Blue Bliss" lube ran out.
I kept watching porn on the Mind Hack Society app and I still used my fun egg vibrator, but without the lube it wasn't the same. Maybe it was the fear of my future as well. I felt utterly depressed. I had low energy and often spend days locked in my room, masturbating until my clit felt raw. I was constantly tired but still couldn't sleep. Most of the time I had sore muscles from sitting in the same wide-legged position for hours on end. Although rubbing my clit and watching more Mind Hack videos gave me some type of release, I could never reach that original high again. In fact, I rarely had an orgasm at all.
I turned my face cam on and stared into my own bloodshed eyes. No, today might not be a video day... I had to find some other way to feel excited again. I thought back of professor Baumgartens white haired balls and felt disgusted. What on earth was I thinking to do such a thing? The results would be in tomorrow and I was dreading it. I needed a distraction, but no image-flashing, high-pitched-buzzing, girl-moaning video could cheer me up. I wished I still had some of that sweet Blue Bliss.
Maybe I could ask them to send me more... Or maybe I could buy some? I went on to the MHS app, ignored the video suggestions that popped up and selected the "Mind Hack Shop" this time.
"Lubes," I mumbled with a coarse voice, "Blue Bliss..."
The lubes where marked under "MHS originals". They had four different sorts in stock. "MHS Blue Bliss 80mg," I read.
"80 milligrams?" I frowned, "80 milligrams of what?"
It didn't say, the ingrediΓ«nt list was no less vague. The lube contained "only biodegradable" products, was "pH neutral" and had 80 mg of "MHS's patented molecule" per 50 ml.
I assumed they didn't reveal more of their formula so that other company couldn't copy them.
I browsed through the lube section and found various sizes of Blue Bliss and other MHS originals. One was called "Pink Pleasure 120mg", another, called "Silver Satisfaction" contained 170mg. It went all the way up to 200mg with "Gold Glory". The prizes went up as well. A small bottle Blue Bliss, like the one I had been gifted, came in at a whopping 1.500 dollars. How insane! For a bottle of lube?! I nearly just closed the app, but I didn't. I needed this bad.
"It's way too much," I said to myself, "but I did make a nice profit on my videos..." β¨I had made a little under 30.000 dollars so far, something I'd never dreamed of when I uploaded my first video.
"I deserve something nice with the pressure I've been under," I argued, "and without Blue Bliss I probably wouldn't even have made that money."
I bit my lip in hesitation.
"Maybe I should try the Pink Pleasure? It has the same ingredients, but a higher dosage of... whatever..."
"MHS: Pink Pleasure 120mg" cost 2.000 dollars for a small bottle and 4.500 for a larger one. Remembering how quickly I had run out of my little bottle of Blue Bliss, I added the larger size to my shopping cart.
Same day delivery cost an additional 500 dollars, but it was worth it, I needed this stuff as soon as possible. I also added a "fun egg medium" for 2.000 dollars to my cart, this one being an inch longer and half an inch wider, with a bigger lube reservoir.
I confirmed my order and dragged myself out of bed, it was high time for a shower. I put on a MHS video in the background, I had gotten into the habit of playing video's non-stop, even when I wasn't watching. The high-pitched buzzing had a calming effect on me that I couldn't easily miss.
I spend all day waiting for my purchase to arrive, several times I ran to the door because I imagined the doorbell ringing. It was five in the evening when the mailman finally dropped my package off. I ripped through the tape with my heart racing. My heart dropped when I noticed the mistake. They had sent me a small 300ml bottle of Pink Pleasure instead of the large 800ml one I ordered. If I wanted to trade it in for the right bottle I would have to send this one back unopened. I knew it was ridiculous but tears welled up in my eyes, I felt empty and more depressed than ever, I just couldn't wait another day, I simply couldn't take it.
"Fuck it," I kicked the empty box into the corner. I ordered a new 800ml bottle, spending another 5.000 dollars and opened the one that had arrived.
I filled my larger egg with nearly half the content of the bottle, my hands shaking in anticipation.
A pop-up appeared when I connected my new toy to the MHS app. The screen flashed with dozens of quick images and words appeared saying: "Go live now! Connect your toy with #live touch for the ultimate interactive experience!"
I felt butterflies in my stomach, "yes," I nodded eagerly, "connect to live touch."
I didn't need to set up my camera or lights, they had been ready all day, I just needed to connect a cable to my laptop and I was ready to launch my first live show.