Author's Forward: For my longtime fans, this one is a lot lighter on TG than I had originally planned, but it kicks in right at the end of chapter three. If TG not being the main focus is a dealbreaker, you may want to wait for the public release of the second half. I'll make it up in the next story, I promise!
An actual serious content warning: this story contains themes of siblings doing things siblings should not be doing. If that's something you don't want to read, please be warned.
It's History
- A Smutty Novella -
By Razmagurk
= Chapter 1 =
Have you ever wanted things to have gone differently?
I think we all have. It's human nature.
As mechanical as it makes us seem, we all have a history. Each choice and happenstance is like a little clockwork gear, spinning to make us tick the way we do. Who hasn't wanted to wind back those gears and spin them off in a new direction?
But if you changed your past, wouldn't you also be changing yourself? At what point would you stop being you? Who would you be if your past wasn't yours at all?
This are questions I had discovered the answers to the the hard way.
It seems so much like a dream now, a slice of history that never happened. It all began in the school library. That's where I found it, that damn book. Okay, maybe finding a book in a library isn't that strange, but this one was different. This was a book that would change everything.
I'd like to imagine this presents me as some kind of wise scholar, this sagacious figure pouring over obscure texts, but honestly, it was my senior year and I think I'd only ever used the library twice. No, the truth was that the only thing I was there to study was the body of Leah Campbell.
Ah, Leah Campbell. If heaven did one thing right it was her. She was this shining light of color in a world of drab greys. Her smile - her optimism - it lit up like a lighthouse on a cloudy day. Her hair was the color of summer, her laugh was the ringing of bells. I could go on, but I'll spare you the bad poetry.
The important thing is that I was a young man in love.
And, being a young man in love, I was in the library, hiding behind one of the bookshelves, staring at her through the stacks. If anyone walked by, they'd see me getting way too excited about french geography.
She was sat at one of the central study tables. A throng of lesser girls was gathered around her like the last supper, but for all their beauty they just couldn't compete. The weather had taken a turn for the hot and Leah's bare legs beneath her short, summery skirt simply could not be ignored. It was rude of me yes, but I defy you to find a man who could resist. Those were the legs that won the 100m dash.
Not that the rest of her wasn't just as perfect. She was the quintessential girl next door. She didn't dress to show off like all the other girls. No plunging necklines or bare midriffs or heavy makeup. She didn't need any of that.
She had a body worth showing off, don't get me wrong. Even with how she downplayed her boobs,
they were still the nicest set in our class, and her butt, complimented by her wide hips and typically only glimpsed at in gym shorts, was a perfect heart.
It was rare seeing her in the library, but we had a bio test coming up and she always made the time to study here if she could fit it in between debate and track. It was rarer seeing me here, but my presence was no coincidence. Today was the day. Today I was going to ask her out. Today I made history.
"Your sure you want to go through with this?" a hand clapped my shoulder "I mean, come on Lucas, you barely even know this girl."
As caught up in Leah's orbit as I was, I had half-forgotten Liam was there. Moral support, he had said. I was pretty sure he just wanted to make sure I had the opportunity to bail out before I made a total fool of myself.
He was a good friend, but he didn't know what it was like. He had never struggled asking out girls. They turned him down, sure, but he had never struggled with the asking.
"I'm as ready as I'll ever be." I said. It was true. I'd been pining for this girl since I first laid eyes on her in freshman year. We shared a few classes and knew each other about as well as any two random classmates. I'd never had the courage to try to be more. I mean, come on, she was beauty incarnate and I was, well, me.
That was all going to change.
"I just hate seeing you beat yourself up like this." he sighed.
"We'll look back on this one day and laugh, I'm sure."
If ever I had a chance, it was now. Lacey DeCarlo's parents were out of town and it was going to be the biggest party of the year. Ever since that drama with the cheer team she hadn't really been going to parties like this, but absolutely everybody was going to be there. It was going to be bigger than prom. I had to ask her.
"Alright, well, listen," Lucas glanced down at his watch. "As much as I love watching you spy on this girl, I've got to get going. Leslie's done practice soon and I told her I'd give her a lift to the mall. You can come too if you want. You don't have to stand here and be a creep all day."
"You know nothing of love." I stuck out my tongue.
"If this is love," he laughed, "I want nothing to do with it. If I ever become so completely obsessed with someone, I want you to shoot me, okay? It'll be for my own good. Still, best of luck. Let us know how it goes. If you do pull it off, we'll be amazed."
He patted me on the back one last time then left. I turned my attention back to Leah.
I wasn't obsessed, was I? Okay, maybe just a little. He was right though: I had waited long enough. If I didn't make my move soon, I was going to lose my chance.
I took a deep breath and failed to push down the anxiety boiling away at the back of my mind. The room felt uncomfortably warm.
I stepped out from behind the stacks strode forward.
The world slowed as she brushed back a stray hair, a laugh lilting from her perfect pink lips. I couldn't help but smile at the sight of that grin. With the way my heart was pounding, I was surprised she couldn't hear it even all the way over there.
Then she turned and looked in my direction.
I pulled my eyes off her as fast as I could. Oh god, had she seen me staring? I wanted to freeze up, I wanted to run. I had to force myself to keep walking. My breathing grew tight and my movements stiffened. Why was this so difficult?
My vision began to blur. This whole stupid plan suddenly seemed so foolish. What the hell was I thinking? That I was going to be this shining knight, swooping in and offering her an excuse to go to this party she probably didn't even care about? That I'd admired her from afar since freshman year and I'd really like to get to know her better? God, I sounded like such a creep. Oh my god, was I a creep?
I looked back over at her and immediately regretted it. She was looking right at me. I was a deer in headlights as we locked eyes. She smiled. A choir of angels lifted me to heaven.
And then I fell.
I tripped. I stumbled. I rolled. There was a groan and then a crash as I was buried in a rain of hard heavy books.
I lay there in mute embarrassment, eyes shut, praying for death.
"Oh my god!" a voice rose out of the surprised laughter. "Are you alright?"