if they were
having sex, I could also understand why they would be hesitant to disclose that information in this particular situation. Especially over the phone, because they'd probably rather tell me in person.
Of course, I didn't dwell on it much, considering the outcome of my sex with Natalie was still a little distressing, sincerely not being what I was expecting.
I knew both Miriam and Natalie had used the word 'puppet' when describing what it was like for the blue-haired chick to be connected to an alpha, but I hadn't fully grasped what that might mean. At least, not until it happened to us.
Until it happened to
her
.
While Natalie was still aware of what was going on, she'd briefly lost all capacity to make her own choices, becoming like an extension of my own body, much like my own hand was a part of me. And just like my hand, which didn't have thoughts of its own, and only moved in response to my thinking, the girl I'd come to know as Natalie likewise seemed to vanish, only reacting in response to my thoughts.
It really freaked me out.
Because it felt like she was gone.
Felt like she was
dead
.
Felt like...
I'd killed her.
If she had died under different circumstances, even by my own hand, then I might not have been too torn up, but this was different. No matter how rough it was, sex was an intimate act to me, and I'd grown pretty attached to her while fucking her. Thus, the unexpected realization, that the girl who I'd come to feel some affection for was now gone, really messed me up.
But, once I'd calmed down, Natalie reassured me that she was very much aware, even when I thought she was gone, describing it as if she became a passenger in her own body, able to see where the car was going and how it was being driven, but unable to control the vehicle herself. When she'd first become a werewolf, she explained that it was horrifying and would always cause her to silently panic, but she was pretty used to it at this point, and losing control of herself didn't bother her.
Essentially, she was kind of numb to the experience after undergoing it repeatedly for almost a year.
Still, it had really freaked me out.
Also kind of freaked me out that I could sincerely sense the blue-haired magazine model like I might sense my hand, to the point that I could sense the pain in her body from her hidden bruising on her torso, covered up by concealing cosmetics. It didn't hurt me like it might if it was my own body, but I was at least aware of it. And from what I could tell, her ribs especially ached, with me suspecting that the actual damage hadn't been done recently, and it had been afforded some time to heal.
Thankfully, despite the distress I had begun experiencing, both Miriam and Gwen quickly understood what was going on, and were able to help me in a sincere time of need.
Not that I was discounting Serenity or Gabriella's roles, since they were the ones who knew something was horribly wrong.
But my two first women sounded the alarm.
And both Miriam and Gwen responded to save the day.
Miriam used her powerful presence to calm me down enough to listen before I became too escalated, and Gwen had the knowledge necessary to help me understand how to loosen my hold on Natalie enough to allow her to be in control of herself again.
I also learned something new about Miriam.
As a succubus, I'd assumed that her entire existence was purely erotic, a sexual presence radiating from herself that defined who she was. And, while it was true that she could never subdue that sexual presence entirely, I'd discovered that the tenderness I'd felt in her aura was just the tip of the iceberg to something else entirely.
The gentle love she'd bombarded me with felt like nothing I'd experienced before, being like the comforting hug from a mother, except a thousand times more potent. The sexual nature of that presence wasn't gone by any means, but it was briefly overwhelmed with her nurturing, affectionate, and gentle existence, which powerfully communicated that she wanted nothing more than to comfort and guide me through my emotional distress.
And unlike her eroticism, she couldn't just turn it on whenever she wanted.
It came on without prompt when she felt the appropriate emotions.
Her sincere desire to comfort me overpowered everything else.
However, we couldn't dwell on what happened for long, because there were still things to do, especially considering that Miriam had been in the middle of trying to use the first and most accurate of her location spells.
We were still in the guest bedroom where I'd fucked Natalie, but I was dressed now in my gym shorts and t-shirt, since Natalie had commented again about how awkward it was that we were both practically naked with everyone else in the room. And since I wanted nothing more than to do what the blue-haired vixen requested right now, to reassure her that me being her alpha didn't mean I was going to be a dictator who did only what I wanted, I was more than happy to comply.
On the contrary, I wanted to prove to her that she still had a voice.
That her opinion, desires, and needs still mattered.
It was obvious that my reaction to her comment, quickly slipping past everyone and getting out of bed to throw on my clothes, really had an effect on her. She almost seemed somber as she hesitantly got out of bed and dressed herself, putting on her sheer black dress and vinyl thong, and then even more touched when I focused on everyone else, and acted like nothing was different.
Acted like she was still just some random girl I'd met, and like I
didn't
have the capacity to exert absolute control over her now.
As if I
wasn't
letting such power go to my head.
As if I had no desire to flaunt that power just because I could...
Granted, I had gotten out of bed quickly for another reason too.
I'd been naked the previous day when overwhelmed with lust and surrounded by Gwen, Miriam, and Mrs. Rebecca, but I hadn't really viewed us all pleasuring Gwen as a foursome, at least not in my own perception. Maybe because I wasn't the focus of the sexual activity at that point? Because instead, my attention was pretty much on the fact that I was buried in Miriam while she and Mrs. Rebecca helped Gwen achieve orgasm.
However, feeling naked in front of four of my women, not counting Natalie, suspecting that all of them would undress if I requested it, actually kind of made me nervous, at just the idea of the five of us getting sexual together.
I supposed it felt like it would be too much, too fast.
Especially since I didn't know how my sister, in particular, would react to being in a sexual situation that involved a full-blooded succubus like Miriam. And especially since having sex with a succubus could become a true addiction, like being exposed to an illegal drug, something that made me worry about it permanently shifting her priorities.
Never mind the fact that, if I really had a true experience like that -- where it felt like a real threesome or foursome, specifically where the focus was more on me -- then I kind of wanted it to be with only Serenity and Gabriella the first time.
Granted, I knew that being placed in a tempting situation might change my mind...
But, I felt as if we needed to ease into that kind of experience together, rather than just jumping headfirst into a sea of absolute bliss, due to someone like Miriam being involved. Maybe one day we'd reach that point, where we were all comfortable with such an experience, but for now I felt like taking it slower was better, specifically in regard to including Miriam and Gwen with my other women.
Alternatively, I was very happy that Serenity, Gabriella, Avery, and Michelle had all chosen to go faster with their own boundaries, and I sincerely hoped they'd continue to cross those lines, maybe even some taboo lines between mother and daughter, but we still had a ways to go before we were even close to being as comfortable with sex as Miriam was.
Especially sex involving multiple people.
However, thankfully, no one seemed disappointed that I got dressed, all of them appearing to be ready to focus on the task at hand, now that I was calmed down, Natalie was back to normal, and more importantly, now that Natalie had an alpha who could keep her under control and prevent her from being reclaimed by the enemy.
Unfortunately, what I hadn't expected, was that the sexy redhead minx had some bad news.
"What do you mean, it didn't work?" I asked seriously, concerned that doing this out of order had messed things up.
Miriam's tone and expression were patient. "Kai, I promise that I did everything correctly, but the spell failed to help me locate those guys. And I suspect it wouldn't have worked either way."
"Why not?" I wondered, keeping my tone in check, since I wasn't trying to sound angry.
She sighed. "Honestly, I'm not sure the reason." She glanced at the blue-haired vixen. "Gwen mentioned that Natalie made a comment about them having some way to conceal themselves. That might have something to do with it."
Natalie nodded hesitantly. "I...I don't know what it is though. H-He never told me anything."
"I believe you," Miriam said reassuringly.
I sighed. "So, is that it, then?" I wondered.
She shook her head. "No, I only tried this method first, because it would have been more accurate by giving us the exact location. I do have another option. And it should work. Literally, it's just creating a magical compass, using her blood and a spell to find the source, modified to go a step further and find the originator of her curse. There's no reason why that one won't work, but it'll just be a lot less specific, only showing the direction, but not distance or anything else useful."
