I am an onanist. That is to say, I find my sexual satisfaction through masturbation. It began when I was too poor to be with girls. Then I got good at it and began to like it. It's simple, convenient, and easy. I do miss the human part of a living sex partner: the chatting and snuggling. But at least the sex is taken care of.
Now, I am not lazy nor unimaginative. I pursue an orgasm with the intention of prolonging the experience as much as possible in order to experience as strong an orgasm as possible. The more excited I become, the clearer the characters become. At the height of my excitement, the people become real, if only for a moment. No lust addled lover ever sought his love with more enthusiasm than that with which I contrive an orgasm. The good ones grip me from my neck to my ankles, my whole body thrusting with the forced of the pent up spasm.
So when I begin, I strip out of my day clothes and put on a tee shirt and some panties. I like wearing panties. I like the way the stretchy material gently cups my cock and balls; I like the way I can feel the leg holes curve up my thigh. I also like them because I can stroke myself without restraint and yet without worry that I might orgasm too soon. I've found I can touch myself any way I like, but the sensations will never accumulate into an orgasm when I touch myself through the cloth.
I have several kinds and I have my own panty drawer. I sort them onto three types: the very stretchy and tight ones that press my balls and cock against me; then the cotton ones with the scalloped edging and pretty colored stripes or bouquets; finally, some thin satiny ones that amplify the effect of my touch. Which ones I wear depends on how much time I have to spend with my lover. If I don't have much time, then I start with the satin ones. If I have an afternoon or evening, I'll get into the tight ones. Right now, I am wearing the tight ones: they are yellow and have stripes of lacy material across the front. They are so tight that my cock can't really get very hard. It's sort of a cage I confine myself in to start.
I also have two lovers. One is blond and tall. She has large breasts, wide hips and long legs. When I am with her, I call her "Mistress" or "ma'am." My other lover is shorter and slighter. I call her Linda. She's Hispanic and has darker skin. Her black hair perfectly matches her skin and her eyes. Both girls are fit and very comfortable with their sexuality and the roles that come along with it. Let me tell you of a weekend with my lover.
It is Friday night and we are meeting for the weekend. We are using some condo sort of thing with a living room, kitchen, bath, and bedroom. In the living room, There are two easy chairs, each with its own ottoman. These face a couch running along beneath a wall of windows. Outside, a fairly busy street runs past.
Now I move to my lounge chair. I lean back and sit back with me feet pressed sole to sole. This spreads my legs wide. I run my thumb up from my asshole to the back of my balls. A shiver runs up through my balls. Then I rub my finger tips against the tight cotton imprisoning my cock. From the end of each finger, tingles of pleasure slowly accumulate at the bottom of my cock. I like running my hands across my ass and thighs. I reach up under my shirt and pinch each nipple. Not a lot, but just a sting. I return my hands to my lap and rub my palms up and down against my cock.