I had trouble sleeping that night. I lied awake in bed thinking things over. Did I really hurt Matt's feelings somehow? I feel disconnected from what I even did, what I was feeling. What the hell was this even about? As I kept trying to retrace the events of that evening, I kept thinking of our hypnosis session. For the life of me, I couldn't remember anything about it. But for some reason... I liked the fact that I couldn't. Which makes NO sense at all.
Hell, it wasn't just that I liked it, it turned me on a little. He put me under, and I couldn't remember anything. He had put me under and I submitted to him... I submitted to him... I submitted to him..
My head felt a little fuzzy, and my eyelids became a bit heavy. Unconsciously, I began to reach for my crotch and rub myself into the feeling. I submitted to him.. I submitted to him... I submitted to Matt... I submitted to master...
I drifted off to sleep.
I'd hoped that I would feel better about this whole situation in the morning, but the next day wasn't any better. I just couldn't get Matt off my mind. I felt so bad that I didn't submit to him and tell him that I was turned on. I should have submitted to him. It would have been so easy. None of this would have happened. I should have just submitted.
I blank my eyes slowly for a second and thought. 'Submitted'? Since when do I use that word? And especially in reference to friends? Something was up. Maybe... maybe it had something to do with the hypnosis sessions..
I began to research into the subject as soon as I got home from work. Matt really didn't tell me a whole lot about hypnosis other than what was convenient for someone who knew nothing. But damn did he leave out a lot. As I kept reading, I got increasingly concerned about what Matt was doing to me in our sessions. Thinking back on it, the word 'submission' never entered my train of thought until after our last session. And he definitely never used to call me 'good boy'. He was doing something fucked up to me.
I texted Matt to confront him. And this way, he had no way of triggering me.
"Hey Matt, how's it going?"
"It's fine, I guess."
"Well, I wanted to talk about last night."
"What's there to say?" he said, a little more aggressively.
"Well, I want to know why you're so upset with me."
"You KNOW why. You didn't submit to me when I asked you to, and that is messed up."
"Well actually, I want to talk about that. Because we have never talked about 'submission' before. At least not until our hypnosis sessions. Same thing with you calling me a good boy. What the fuck have you been doing to me?"
He tried to call me twice, and I immediately hung up twice. "Please, I can explain everything. Just answer the phone."
"Yeah, no thanks. I'm not an idiot. Now leave me alone or I'm calling the police."
He called a third time, and my finger slipped. I answered the call. My eyes widened in surprise. "Oh shi-!"
"Sleep now."
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My eyes opened. I was on my couch, and Matt was next to me, looking at me. "You okay?" he asked, gently putting his hand on my knee.
"Y-yeah, I'm fine. I just kinda blanked. Um... what were we doing just now? Was there a plan, or...?"
Matt shook his head and chuckled. "Yes, silly. You asked me to come over to show you a movie. And even though it's not. movie night, I agreed and felt it would be a good idea."
I nodded. "Right, right. So what are we watching tonight?"