Author's Note:
Does anyone actually read these?
If so, then then I would like to say a few words, and here they are: nitwit, blubber, oddment, tweak!
I would also like to say thank you to my long-suffering editor, Dr Mark, for all his help, advice, and patience during the process so far. I am fairly certain that he thinks I have gone mad.
Maybe he's right.
PM
Caleb 34 - An Ex
Josh and Louise were back by the time we returned. They were sitting in the living room, but they couldn't have been further apart without having been in separate rooms.
"Hey guys," I said as we entered the living room. Louise looked up at me, her face a mess of tears, and Josh just grunted.
I raised my eyebrow to her, and she grimaced.
"Josh?" I asked.
"We're done," he said. "I've moved my stuff out of our room and into the spare. If that's not okay then I'll look into moving back into the dorms on Monday."
"Josh no!" Louise cried. "Please, talk to me."
All I was getting from Josh was a storm of disjointed thoughts and emotions. The thoughts were the lion's share, but not the sum total. His aura was involved too. It wasn't merely reacting to the present moment. It was reacting to the memories of their trip. He couldn't let them go.
On Louise's parents:
shallow. Greedy. Sneaky. Liars. Pimps. Gold-diggers.
The colors were so bitter I could practically taste them, and they were infused with that awful combination of heat and ice that can easily tip either way in a heartbeat. I honestly couldn't tell if Josh would, at any moment, explode into a rage, or get up and walk out of the house, never to be heard from again.
On the trip itself:
humiliating. Trap. Planned? Did she know? Abusive. Evil. Should've left sooner. Should've left them all.
I got a flash of Josh leaving 'early,' more as a sentiment than as coherent details. There'd been a bus station. He'd slept there for a while. The memories of its griminess blended together rather perfectly with the ugliness of what had come before.
On a fellow named Keenan, whom I quickly gathered was some kind of rival:
Preppy bitch. Fuckface. Punch his face. Trust fund bitch. Daddy's money, not his. Spoiled. Behind my back? Behind hers? Talked to her parents?
It came as no surprise that he was an object of particular obsession. The thoughts only got worse, and, as they began to link up to his thoughts of Louise, I discovered the source of the ice.
Liar. Traitor. Cheater. Drunk whore. Gold-digger? Him, really? Fuck her. Fuck him. Fuck parents. All deserve each other.
Without even really thinking about, I sent the storm through the connection to Mary, Amanda, and Jules. I spared Ness; I knew it wasn't fair to treat her differently, but I didn't regret doing so just then.
"
Jesus fucking Christ,"
Jules sent back.
"That's an IKEA box from hell, right there. Unpacking and assembly both required. Do you even want to? Maybe you should call the bomb squad."
I suppose I made my choice. After about thirty seconds of stormy silence, I followed up one questioning word with another.
"Louise?"
She knew that I'd gotten something from Josh. I honestly wasn't surprised. She didn't bother with a story. She cut to the heart of it.
"I didn't sleep with him," she said in a quiet voice. "Josh won't believe me."
"Prove it!" snapped Josh. "Show Caleb or the girls all your memories and then I'll believe you."
"What happened?" asked Amanda. Her power flared, and I was astounded at how ineffective it was. Josh, in particular, was so full of rage and hurt, Amanda's power seemed to bounce off him. Mary added her power, which seemed to help, albeit slightly.
Reluctantly, Josh began the tale. "Monday night we got invited to Louise's parents' for the remainder of the holiday," he said, making a visible effort to remain calm. "I was surprised. I'd always got the impression that they didn't like me, so when they called and asked us to go over, I was happy.
"When we got there, HE was there."
I looked at Louise.
"Keenan," she explained. "An ex. We went out for about eight months before I started at PSU. He was boring and I used coming here as a reason to end it. He chased me for a little while, sent flowers and stuff, but then seemed to get the message. Then about a month ago, I heard from him. Stuff started arriving again."
"And you never said anything!" Josh snapped. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"BECAUSE IT MEANT NOTHING!" she yelled at him. "HE meant nothing. I figured if I ignored him, he would stop again, like he did last time."
"We never saw anything arriving," said Mary.
"He sent it to the dorms," said Louise. "He didn't know we moved out."
"And you hid it," said Josh.
"I threw it all away!" rebutted Louise.
"You should have told me," said Josh. "Why would you hide that from me?"
"Because I know how much of a little boy you can be!" Louise snapped. "I knew that this was how you would react."
"I'm 'reacting' to you keeping secrets when we're supposed to be a couple," Josh said. "You think I would've 'reacted' like this if you'd been honest? Really? And you're calling
me
out for being the immature one?"
There was a moment's pause while they glared at each other.
"What happened then?" I prompted. "After you got to Louise's parents'?"
"You could've just not gotten involved, dude,"
Jules sent. I sent her back a defeated sigh. She was right and she was wrong. I just couldn't help myself.
"Five days of hell is what happened," said Josh. "Five days of being constantly put down, getting sneered at and insulted by that preppy trust fund bitch." He looked at Louise. "You may think I'm stupid, but I received the message from him and your parents loud and clear. He's rich, and I'm not. He moves in all the glittering social circles while I grub around on the floor, not even worthy to scrabble in the dirt under his shoes. I should have left. I should have walked out as soon as I saw him there, and found out who he was."
"Then why didn't you?" asked Louise.
"Because I thought that if I did, I would lose you," he said more quietly. "I couldn't leave you with him. I knew my imagination would be telling me that you and he were..."
"Why didn't you both leave?" I asked Louise.
"I wanted to," Louise said. "My father forbade it. Since he pays all my living expenses, I didn't have a choice. I'm on a partial scholarship. My tuition and books are covered, but I wouldn't be able to stay if he didn't pay my rent and other stuff."
"Okay," said Amanda. "But that was all Keenan and her parents. What did Louise do?"
"You mean apart from hiding the fact that her ex was back in touch?" he asked sarcastically. "Because obviously that doesn't color what happened afterwards at all, right? Totally separate issue."
Amanda just looked at him, and he sighed. "Saturday," he began, "her parents threw a party. They invited a load of people I didn't know: family friends, Louise's' high school friends, and some relatives. As usual, I was ignored. They were introducing Keenan as her boyfriend. In fact, one time I'm certain I heard her mother say fiancΓ©. I was shunted to the side-lines. Louise and I got separated. For three hours I couldn't find her. I looked everywhere, and then she turned up with HIM hanging off her arm with a look on his face I recognized.
"When I asked Louise where she had been, he implied that they had been off having sex somewhere. I lost it. I was so close to planting my fist into his smug face, but I managed to restrain myself. I knew that all that would achieve would be to get me arrested. I got my stuff together and left.
"We drove there in Louise's car, so I just walked to the bus stop. There were no more buses, so I slept on the bench there, and then caught the first bus this morning. It took me six hours to get home."
I looked at Louise, who was sitting, staring at Josh, tears rolling down her cheeks. "I didn't sleep with him," she repeated in that same quiet, wounded, vulnerable voice. I honestly couldn't tell if she was putting it on or not. I didn't want to believe she was lying.
"Prove it!" snapped Josh.
"I shouldn't have to prove anything!" she cried. "You should trust me. I trusted you. All the time we've been together. You said you weren't sleeping with anyone else; did I ask you for proof? Did I ask you to get tested again? You told me that you had not had sex with anyone else, and I believed you. Why can't you believe me?"
"Because you fucking hid shit from me," Josh spat, "about him, specifically! And then there he was! And I saw how you were with him! You were all over the trust fund creep. You were hanging off of his arm like your life depended on it. If you didn't sleep with him, then how did he know? How did he know that he was bigger than me? Is that something that passes for polite conversation with the rich these days?"
"I didn't tell him," she insisted, more tears starting down her face, "but you know girls talk. I told my sister how big he was, and I might have mentioned that you were not quite as big. She obviously told him."
"Well, you're welcome to him," he snarled. "And his big... bank account."
"Josh please," she said, "listen to me. I didn't have any choice but to stay. They threatened to stop paying my expenses. I wouldn't have been able to afford to stay at school."
"Why did you disappear off with him last night, then?" he asked. "Was that for money too?"
That was a low blow in my opinion, and Louise looked stunned. "You think I..." she began, "... for money?"
Her eyes flamed and she stood up. "FUCK YOU, JOSH STEELE!" she screamed at him "If that's what you think of me, then maybe it is best that you move all your stuff out. You wouldn't want to catch anything being in the same room as a WHORE!"
She stomped out of the room, slamming the door behind her. I heard their bedroom door slam mere seconds later.
Josh watched her go with a look of anguish on his face.
I looked at my girls, and they looked back.
"Do something,"
sent Amanda.
"Like what?"
I asked.
"Find out if she slept with him, and if not, show Josh,"