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Caitlyn on the Block
"This young cunt..." Jevon put his hand atop my head then snaked a finger under my chin to raise it so they could all see my face. I know I was blushing but that might not have been bad β sometimes men like that. He paused to smile out at the crowd and laugh with them.
He began again. "This young cunt...well, what can I tell you brothers? She really is a young cunt." He released my chin and let my face turn back towards the stage floor. "Turned 18 just 3 weeks ago."
This brought loud cheers and laughter and some hoots of "Go Big Blue!"
But please wait! Hold your horses! Cause I already know what you're thinking. You're thinking that I must have been ashamed, humiliated, embarrassed, hurt, angry, mortified and horribly, horribly scared. You're thinking this cause I was still a young girl, and being auctioned off and all for the very first time, and because of some of the bad language he was using.
But you're wrong. I wasn't, wasn't any of that. Because you may have forgotten that this was a. all for charity and b. what Jevon needed to say to get the guys going. And I mean really going; going like they wanted to spend a lot of money on just having some time with me. Me. Imagine!
My biggest worry then was getting a good price for the BTS charity, not Jevon referring to me as "this cunt."
Beth had explained earlier that this sort of talk would be used with all the girls. So it wasn't like it was just specifically me. I mean not just me who was referred to as a "slut" or a "cunt." And Beth was really good at explaining how it was more a funny, jokey sort of talk the brothers used at these events, like goofing on things. Hence the crowd's laughter. Hence Jevon's laughing with them.
The girls before me got the same treatment. They seemed to do OK with it, smiling and behaving correctly to get the brothers bids even higher. So why shouldn't I? I did want to behave correctly for Jevon. For John and Janice and even Kim too, who I figured would get the update. Wanted them to be so proud of me. But especially Jevon.
I know it's stupid! I told you I was boy crazy. And since the day before when we kind of went up to his room in the house and kind of, you know, fooled around a little I couldn't get it out of my head that somehow I would be his girl β just his.
And it's stupid cause a. I'm totally in love with Julian and b. I have to admit that I was also kind of totally in love with John and c. to be honest I realized it was hard to be "just his" when he was auctioning me off to a stranger.
See? Stupid. I know. But girls have these feelings.
I guess I was trying hard to be good for them all, but I was enjoying it too, which is you know part of being good.
So, see? You were wrong. Now let me begin again, so long as you remember this time that I was fine, fine and happy. Cause it was really so amazing and exciting and I mean how many girls get to do this? But, like I said was just a tinge worried about what my price would be.
OK? Got it?
"She really is a young cunt. Turned 18 just 3 weeks ago." Cheers, whistles and laughter. "Graduated high school week before that." Which, he had that wrong cause it was the week after, but I didn't think it mattered. Louder cheers. "Going to be a freshman at the U this September."
Big, big cheers. Lots of "Big Blue" and "BTS" yelling and more whistling. It took Jevon a minute to calm them all down.
"Says she likes...well what did she tell the girls today? Wait...I have it."
He reached into his pocket and took out a crumpled piece of paper β I'd seen him do it with the other girls too.
"She likes running and exercising...Good (cheers)....likes dancing...Keeps her in a nice shape boys (cheers and laughs), you can see that...and, oh, likes to write...write?...I dunno, well...stories I guess...who knows?...says it was her best subject in high school....good..." and he started laughing, but not you know at me, just cause of how cool this was, and repeated "...good... I guess." Laughter.
"Brothers, looks like we scored some literary pussy here tonight" and the BTS fight song broke out to my left. He had said it as "lit-er-air-ee" which did make it funnier.
A brother shouted out "Wanna get my black dick inside chapter 3 of this slut."
Then another guy "Gonna deconstruct that white pussy of hers." Then Jevon got them settled down again.
I do admit it was a little disorienting to be there on stage under the lights, which were hotter than you would imagine, with the audience so close but in darkness, and all the cheering and singing from faces I couldn't see. Sometimes a little random beam of light seemed to scan the room and I could see Kayla and Kristen kneeling to perform fellatio on the BTS brothers who'd purchased them.
But being disoriented, at least if it's just a little disoriented, doesn't bother me too much. It's happened before, actually kind of a lot, and John's therapy had been good training on how to handle it. Plus I had some of the water just before going out. Then you just go with the flow I suppose, which is a pretty mature attitude for a girl my age even if I do say so myself.
Before Jevon could start up again a piercing voice shouted "Bang those sluts" cause it's BTS house β get it? - followed by more hoots and a little of the BTS fight song mixed with the Big Blue fight song. I was beginning to learn both since the guys had been singing them for the last 45 minutes at least. While the other girls were on I mean.
Jevon raised his hand for quiet and it took a while but he finally got some. So I also admit that I was a little bit aggravated with the guys then for not following his orders better.
"Lightly trained by a friend of ours. Very lightly. Used water I think. Slut had T-nodes in her tits ..."
I heard a worried cry of "Oh goodness!" and some more laughter.
"...but don't worry..." and I could hear him pause: beat, beat, beat "...they're all gone now."