Chapter 1: Boyfriend 2.0
*Inspired by a real fantasy.*
Every girl wishes she could edit her boyfriend.
Trust me when I say there isn't a single one of us who hasn't wanted to just open up his head and make a few small adjustments. Remember the trash on Tuesdays. Put down the toilet seat when you're done. Clean out the lint filter like a civilized human being.
And sometimes, yes, I'll admit it. The changes I'd make might be a little more...significant.
I love Josh. He's the light of my life, beautiful soul, funny and handsome and dorky in just the right way.
But the sex? Yeah. It could be better.
"Just like that, baby. Take me. Fucking take me. Take me harder, baby." I'm flat on my back, legs wrapped around his waist, staring him in the eyes, begging him with every fiber of my body to let loose and fuck me like there was no tomorrow.
And he's staring back with eyes like twin pools of melted chocolate, soft and loving and...utterly incapable of even thinking about hurting me. His thrusting is slow and gentle, the stuff of romantic fantasies. An aftermath of a candlelit dinner. His fingers are busy tracing my cheek instead of wrapping around my throat.
"Harder," I try to tell him. My hips are bucking up against him at a feverish pace, trying for all they're worth to get him to up the tempo. "Please, harder? Harder?"
Josh tries. I'll give him that. He tries his best to give me what I want. But that's the problem at the root of all of this. He's a giver, not a taker. Even though I don't want him to give me what I want. I want him to take what he wants, but he's just not that sort of guy.
I don't even think I'm that kinky. I just like a little spice in the bedroom. Some choking, some spanking, maybe even some light slapping and name-calling. That doesn't sound unreasonable to me. Half my girlfriends are into that, and the other half are all about the whips and hot wax and all that other stuff. I'm downright vanilla in comparison.
Unfortunately, Josh is the rare modern gentleman. He'll hold the door, pull out the chair, all the jazz. Now that's a man who was raised properly, and any woman would be lucky to find a guy like him. The past few years with him felt like I was winning the lottery every single day.
Unfortunately, all that just highlighted the one drawback to having such an incredible boyfriend.
I was so close. All I needed was a little more. Something to tip me over the edge. "Please, Josh? Please? Just fuck me. Fucking use me..."
And then...he stops. "Look, Kaitlyn-"
My mewl is one of rage and frustration. I try to push myself further on him, but he doesn't rise to the bait. "Come on, it's okay, I want this!"
"I'm just not comfortable with this, okay?" He withdraws entirely, leaving me worse than unsatisfied. "I don't think it's healthy for you to want me to hurt you, and I don't want to treat you like that."
"I'm asking you to!"
"What's wrong with normal sex?"
And just like that, I'm out of the mood. He's right. I don't want to push him. But he's never going to understand. "Whatever. Can we talk about something else?"
"Like what?"
"I don't know. Weren't we going to watch that new sci fi thing you were talking about? Let's do that." Something mindless so I could go back to my fantasies.
He looks a little crestfallen, but not unhappy. He's been talking about this show for almost a year now. "Okay...sure. Do you want to order something to eat?"
I cuddle up next to him, ignoring the ache between my legs. "Sure, whatever you want." I'm not hungry. I'm horny, and God I just want to cum so fucking badly. I want him to slam me against the wall and force my legs apart and take me hard enough to make me feel it when I -