Passing through the barrier was, for the party, not much different from moving from one room to the next. The little hairs on their arms stood on end for the transition, but, one moment the horses were setting hooves on the grasslands of the fields of Erette and the next on the hardscrabble dirt of wherever they were now. Neral looked up and, judging by the sun it was now not long after sunrise as there was still some dew on the bits of green they could find. It was desolate on either side and behind, but there held the promise of green ahead. Neral surmised that people could have lived in what lay behind, but it would have been nothing like easy.
She kept her head turned to be certain that her major and the troops that followed them both emerged together. Once they had, the rippling of the rugged scenery behind them simply stopped. Kress glanced about briefly, looking for signs of an impending ambush, but kept most of her focus on her commander in front of her. The others were a little more active in taking in their new environment, but Neral was gratified that she saw wonder, curiosity, and some uneasiness, but not fear.
She looked to her two as they kept pace. Cloaked as they were in dark fabrics, with cowls ready to be pulled over their heads, they appeared to be the mages that they were. There was a certain honesty in how they now carried themselves with her now that she hadn't noticed before.
It's the first time they haven't had to hide who they truly are,
she realized. There was so much they had to hold back in their daily lives so as not to confuse or frighten others, not to mention preserve their own lives. "I apologize, Deres." She turned, "and to you, Bryana."
His eyes conveyed his wonder. "For what, Neral?"
"For not beginning to understand what it is that you have given up to have the lives you do until now. Being a mage is part of who you are as much as it's my sword that defines me."
"That's not your fault, he said. "I knew what returning home would mean. I accepted that. That I don't have to hide the truth from those in my home is enough. That would have been its own special brand of brutality."
Bryana seemed just as indifferent in her own way. "From the first moment I opened a forbidden tome as a guild mage apprentice, I knew it was either hide my truth or accept death. It was just another way death could come." She looked somberly at Neral. "There are reasons there are very few
old
guild mages."
Neral pondered it. "Still...it is its own bravery to be strong enough to bury your truth and carry on. It makes me proud to see it in you."
Deres stared straight ahead, attitude nonchalant, "Though I'm sure Bryana is quite anxious to blast a wild beast or two." He gave enough of a sidelong glance to her to see her grin before hearing the words. "Yes, my Master."
The wry smile spread to him. "I do love when you call me that."
"Yes, I'm aware that you approve of that honorific in any number of circumstances."
She cleared her throat conspicuously. "I believe I shall ride ahead and leave you two to flirt shamelessly with one another."
She trotted Stenna up next to Maylin who continued to cover a surprising amount of ground without seeming to be winded in the slightest. "We can redistribute the gear from one of the pack horses if you wish. They are both suitable to take a rider."
"No, thank you, General." She grimaced slightly, remembering her last attempts at it, though they were many years before. "I have nothing at all against the beasts, it's simply that, historically, we have been unable to find common ground, aside from the fact that they seemed to enjoy introducing me to it regularly. Don't worry though, I can keep up no matter how fast you'd like to go."
"'Neral' is fine, Mother."
She looked up at Neral affectionately, not missing that she had embraced calling her 'mother.' "Thank you, dear. I simply didn't want to come off as too familiar in front of your people, lapses in discipline and all that."
Neral shifted uncomfortably in her saddle to the point that she took it as a cue and he had to right her. "Are you going to be all right with me in charge?"
"I'm not military, dear."
"No, you're not, but, at the end of the day, and in the midst of battle, there must be one voice to choose the path. My soldiers are sworn to me and their duty. Deres and Bryana trust me, and I trust them, and I can trust them to do what I've asked them to."
"So you don't trust me?"
"I do in fact. You raised the man I love, and, knowing you as I do already I can see where your values shaped his. But I know that time is an enemy, and I know there is a part of you that wants to blaze a trail to her now and try to destroy her."
"You assume much, Neral."
"Not really. I just share the feeling," she admitted. "Every moment we delay, she takes more and becomes stronger. But, if we weave our way towards her we can perhaps hinder her progress in small ways, and, if truly fortunate, can pick a point of confrontation on our terms over hers."
"It becomes far more difficult to plan on a larger scale, and dangerous in the midst of something smaller scale, like the heat of battle if I have to worry about you running off to act on your own because you think you know best."
"Ah. But what if I do know best?"
"Then convince me." She gestured behind her. "The lowest ranking officer back there knows that if she has a concern to be addressed or an idea to be considered, she can take it to the major, and, if it's sound, the major will bring it to me. You and my two have the benefit of my ear directly, so take me aside and convince me. The day I become too rigid to listen is the day I retire or someone retires me on the field, probably violently. Come, say what you must, but accept that the final decision is mine, and carry that out. Can you do that?"
"I will do as you ask, Neral." She swallowed her frustration. "You're right. All I want to do is tear up everything and everyone in the land until she's broken at my feet. But that is exactly the wrong thing, especially with my son and his loves at my back. Part of the reason I asked him to come is because I knew he would temper me. I do not wish my feelings to lead to greater mistakes that favor her." Her body language tightened with the admission. "Your judgment is probably superior to mine just now, so I will defer to it."
For Neral, her word was enough. "Where are we?"
"Well back from where I suspect she is. I tried to guess from how far she might detect our presence, but I don't know what her reach is. I don't know the things she has done. It's only a guess, so it could be a horrible one. If she knows where we are, I would expect to be overwhelmed soon."
Neral weighed the options. "Not if she wants to see what we'll do. Not if she doesn't consider us a threat."