Chapter Six β The Manchurian Kate
They cuddled together under the covers, naked and wrapped around each other for warmth. He reached over and switched the alarm clock from 'snooze' to 'off.' "One of these days my wife is going to get me fired from my job, and it's going to be totally worth it."
She pressed against him. "Two sick days in a month? They're going to think you've gone soft."
"Use em or lose em," he said, nuzzling his face against hers. "Besides, after last night, I'm too worn out to think about work. You really drained the well, hun. What was that all about? Not that I'm complaining! But you've never been much of a role-play girl."
She sighed. "I just needed that. I really did. I can't even describe it. It's like, after everything, it felt good to just turn my brain off for a while, and let you be the driver. Even for just a couple of hours." She began tracing soft circles on his chest with her finger. "Especially since I really liked where you took me."
"Any chance I could command you to make me some pancakes?"
"Mmmm, no, sorry. The meter's expired now. Should have thought about that last night."
He frowned. "But I wasn't hungry for pancakes last night. Ow! Hey! No poking allowed!"
"Next time you can be the slave and I will be the Master," she said, grinning. "You can bet that I won't forget to pre-order breakfast when I'm in charge."
"As my mistress commands," he sighed.
They lay in bed for a while without speaking, quietly enjoying the feel of their intertwined bodies and the warmth they generated together. Finally, Kate reluctantly broke the silence. "So, Doctor Kapoor thinks that I've been through some heavy trauma in my past."
"Is that the therapist?"
"Mmm hmm. Remember the thing I told you about the room with the bikini girls? She hypnotized me, and I remembered more about it."
"Wait," he said, looking confused. "The bikini girl hypnotized you?"
"Try to keep up, and no, that's not what happened."
"Oh. Because that would be, you know, kind of hot."
She gave him a playful shove. "Ok, calm down, you horndog. We can role-play that scenario again one of these days. And I'm serious. I really think that this happened at some point. It could explain why I can't remember much after college. Maybe I got mixed up into something where people were scrambling my brain? People get sucked into cults and stuff all of the time. Maybe I was, I dunno, really susceptible to their charms or something."
He ran his hand through her soft hair. "You don't seem like the cult type. I mean, you're kind of, well,
willful
. In a sexy way, obviously. Ow!" He gave her a hurt look. "Again with the poking!"
"I'm trying to have a serious conversation here, husband of mine! Why did I marry you, anyway?"
"Because you're highly susceptible to
my
charms, that's why." He smiled. "Are you going to go back? To Doctor Kapoor, that is. Not the cult."
"I want to. She wants me to wait, to give my head time to think up new memories without risking things. I want to rush them, but also, part of me doesn't. Part of me is really terrified." She lay her head on his chest, letting the rise and fall of his lungs lull her to sleep. "It scares me. Not just because I can't keep my head straight, but because I don't know what I've done to people. Like Tim. Or the bikini girls. Or anyone else in the past. I could have hurt people. Or myself. I wish I knew, but at the same time, maybe it's better not to know what a monster I might have been."
He went back to stroking her hair as her eyes slid closed. "They're only memories now, hun. They can't hurt us. Whatever you did, it was a long time ago in the past. We're beyond that now."
"You're right," she mumbled. "You're right a lot, I like that about you."
She snuggled against him and let herself drift off to sleep.
* * *
James was late for work. He rushed around the kitchen, trying not to trip on his untied shoelaces as he gathered his travel mug, keys, and phone charger in one pass. The charger dropped to the floor, and Kate giggled. "I think you can be five minutes late once in a while, bucko."
"What, and ruin my perfect attendance record? Fat chance." He bent down to retrieve the charger, stuffing it into his pants pocket. "Also Wilson wants us all in a staff meeting today, and woe to the guy or gal who pokes their head through the door after it begins. You all packed?"
"Yep. Flight's at three. I'll take a cab. Then while you shiver your days away here, I'll be spending five luxurious mid-winter days on the sands of Miami Beach."